My name is Jacob, but all my friends call me Jake. I've always been a big guy. By the time I was a freshman in high school I was 6'8" tall. At that time, I found out it was easy for me to put on lots of muscle. I proceeded to work out and by the time I graduated I weighed 280 pounds of solid muscle. My size made me the star football player in high school and had recruiters all over me for college. From my earliest memories, I knew I was gay. I was always attracted to men. The girls were all over me and I had fake girlfriends all through high school. This gave me cover for everyone.
There was one thing that terrified me and still does to this day. Even though I'm always the biggest guy in the room, I probably had the smallest cock of anyone. Being as big as I am, it made my cock look even smaller. The more muscle I packed on the more pathetic it looked. When I'm fully hard it is maybe 3.5 inches and while it is average thickness, it looks puny. My balls are smaller than most also. All through high school I avoided the locker room and showers all the time. I had a million excuses for not walking into those communal showers. Had I done that I knew that everyone would know my secret.
My dick is the only small thing on my body. I have huge hands and when I jerk off I can do it with one finger and a thumb. It is pathetic to see. Everyone would assume that I'm in proportion since I wear size 16 shoes. I found a site online where I could buy underwear and jocks that are padded. This would at least show a little bit of a bulge in my shorts and sweats. Even though I was gay, I never had sex with a guy. My sex life was limited to porn and jerking off my pathetic little cock.