(Tomorrow morning)
I startled awake, tearing the blanket off of me. Looking around, I calmed down once I saw the familiar cab and bed. Reaching to rub my face, I noticed that the handcuffs were locked around both of my wrists. Standing up, I groaned as my whole body felt sore. I had a splitting headache and my arms were covered in bruises. I had new clothes on, but the shirt felt a bit too big on me. Riding out the bumps on the road, I walked up to the passenger seat, sitting down while staring at my kidnapper.
The man looked my way when I plopped down, but didn't say anything before he looked back at the road. I could see a deep purple bruise on his jaw where I punched and head butted him, his nose also looked swollen from my strike. Anger building, I jangled my hands and cuffs at him, asking "Well? What gives?" He looked back at me for a minute, a strange mixture of disbelief and concern on his face as he spoke.
"Don't tell me you don't remember losing your mind last night?" I couldn't help the sarcastic laugh as I swung my legs around to sit properly in the chair. I replied as I glared at him.
"You had it coming, your nose looks great by the way." I smirked as I started forward at the road, but his next words wiped it from my face.
"I don't think that outburst of yours was about revenge. If you think my nose looks bad, you should look at yourself." Looking over at his busied face, I lifted my hand to pull the sun visor down when I noticed just how bruised my hands were. Remembering our struggle yesterday, they weren't inflicted by him, rather they were from me fighting him. He only tried to grab me to stop me from hurting myself. Pulling down the mirror, I gasped when I saw my eyes.
My eyes looked bloodshot, while my right eye looked like it popped a vessel, as a splotch of red was visible at the bottom of my sclera. Not wanting to stare at myself anymore, I pushed the sun visor up. I couldn't tell if I strained myself too hard last night, or if it was from the reverse headbutt. Either way, it was clear that I had gone overboard. My whole body ached like I had been run over by a car. Trying to make some excuse, I spoke ruefully at the man.
"It's all your fault anyway, you know?" I glared at the man's face, speaking my mind for what felt like the first time since we met. If he hadn't kidnapped me, if he hadn't attacked me in the shower room, all this wouldn't have happened. My thoughts went blank as I heard his reply "I know." I stared at him once more, surprised to hear him take any form of accountability. Before I could say anything, he continued.
"Listen, I didn't know how much this was affecting you. You don't have to worry about me doing anything else to you, I promise." I felt my anger return. He didn't even have the balls to say that he was sorry. And what did he mean? He wasn't going to fuck me anymore? The strange sense of loss that I felt at the notion proved my unstable mental state. Logically, it shouldn't be disappointing to hear that I wouldn't be sexually assaulted anymore. Taking a deep breath, I let it out as I turned away from the man. He was right, three straight nights of being physically and emotionally abused by this man had taken its toll. I had lost sight of getting away from my kidnapper from all the powerful orgasms and rough treatment. Rough treatment that I had come to enjoy.
Shaking my head, I focused on the future. Once I got away from him, I would find my way back to my hometown. If I could get my hands on a phone, I could call one of my friends and they could get me back. Better yet, I could call the police and have this man locked away for good. Settling my churning stomach, I asked the man "Can you take the cuffs off, please?" He stared at me for a while before turning away. Just as I turned my head to stare out the window, a small pair of keys landed in my lap.
Looking at the man, I watched for a moment before I picked up the keys and undid my cuffs. Putting them both on the ground next to me, I smiled slightly. The man's voice echoed in the cab again.
"If you start hurting yourself again, I'll hogtie you, got it?" A laugh left my lips as I saluted the trucker. The man didn't react to my elated demeanor, just staring forward. I joined him in silence as we continued down the road.
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8 hours later
(Jason's POV)
Andy behaved as we drove down the road, stopping for gas and food. He didn't try anything funny, and I kept good on my promise. Our unofficial truce should have been the start of something better, but I instead felt like I was drowning. I was correct earlier, Andy was like a drug. A drug that distracted me from my reality. Despite everything that happened, I still hadn't figured out a way out of my crimes. I couldn't kill him, and I couldn't let him go. And now that I had given him room to recover, I realized how hard I had been on him. The face he made yesterday as we had sex on the bed was burned into my head. It looked like he was breaking. That violent outburst wasn't something that he would ever normally do. The photo of my family felt like it was burning in my pocket. I knew the burning was coming from my parent's eyes, horrified at what their son had done. The only thing that I could do was drink from my bottle of liquor, and focus on the burn.
The booze helped for a moment, until I saw the nervous glances Andy sent my way. He was right to be concerned, my word meant jack shit and I didn't deserve a drop of grace. My pulse beat through my head and anxiety filled my conscious mind as the hours ticked by. I drank a dangerous amount of alcohol, but it didn't help. I tried to drink more, but the bottom of the bottle greeted me. Tossing the bottle out the window, Andy clenched his hands on his lap as he avoided eye contact with me.
I couldn't hurt him any more.