This is a story concerning gay males, classified within the Gay Male section. If you don't like or might even be offended by reading stories involving male homosexual activity, you should not read this story.
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Jonathan and James had been good friends for quite a long time. Really, just about as long as they could remember.
They were both now 21 but they could remember when they first met. It had been in Miss Johnson's third grade class. Turned out that they actually didn't live that far away from each other, but apparently had never before crossed each other's paths. Up until that time they had pretty much stayed within their own neighborhood. Johnny played with kids in Meadowbrook Park, Timmy with kids in Montclair Park. But, there was really only a few blocks separating their homes. In fact, John passed the street on which Tim lived (Elm Street) everyday on the way to school. A few blocks for young kids within a large suburban area though can be quite a barrier. Until, at least, they met within Miss Johnson's class.
They instantly took a liking to each other. They were really unsure why. For whatever the reason, they became good friends; no, the closest of friends.
They suffered all of their childhood toils and traumas together: having to deal with Miss Emerson's ridiculously strict discipline in the fourth grade; Coach Robinson's humiliation of Timmy's inadequate athletic skills in the fifth; having to stay after in Mr. Edwards' class in the sixth for unruly misbehavior. There were also good times: sharing their first cigarettes in the seventh grade; sneaking out at night to crawl under the fence at the drive in movie; skinny dipping at night in Higgins Lake; and sharing their first taste of beer stolen from Mr. Peterson's garage. They were hardly ever without each other. Whenever either one of them was planning on doing something, he was planning on doing it with the other. Johnny even joined Timmy's family on some of their family vacations (Johnny's father had died when he was young, and his mother simply couldn't afford nice vacations).
But, they slowly drifted apart in high school. It was never really clear why. Although, in hindsight, it should have been clear. All of the guys were beginning to talk about girls, about dating, about how far they were going to go, about how much they were getting.
Johnny never joined in these discussions. The boys just figured he was shy. In fact, Johnny never even seemed to try to get a girl. None of them knew of him even going out on a date.
Timmy did go on dates, and did have some success. He then traded stories with the other guys. His exploits were never particularly impressive. In fact, the other guys generally found them to be a bit pathetic. They felt they were growing up, becoming men. Timmy just seemed to stay like a kid, apparently satisfied with just holding hands, stealing a kiss, or, at best, a quick feel. To them, Timmy seemed to be a bit wimpy. They recalled how he had been equally pathetic in Coach Robinson's gym class.
But, at least he was no Johnny. To the guys, Johnny turned out to be a tremendous disappointment. He was a big, athletic, handsome guy. He had been the star of the junior high baseball and basketball teams. He could probably get any girl he wanted. However, in high school he kept largely to himself. He just seemed to drift away, go off on his own. Nobody really understood why.
Timmy tried to keep him with the crowd, which was ironic, as originally Johnny had been Timmy's meal ticket. The other guys had tolerated Timmy's meekness largely because he could produce Johnny. If you invited Timmy to a party, Johnny would come. If Johnny came, the girls would want to come.
But, Johnny seemed to become uncomfortable even around Timmy, and Timmy could not understand why. In hindsight, he supposed that he could have simply just asked what was bothering him, but such open talk about feelings and relationships, was something none of the guys did. Guys spoke with their actions, not with their words, and Johnny's actions seemed to be clear. So, Timmy eventually accepted Johnny's departure. He missed him, but he respected his apparent decision.
Johnny eventually dropped off of the baseball and basketball teams. Without these sources for respect and esteem, he was soon ostracized. Even if he wanted to rejoin the crowd, it was unlikely that he would be accepted. As the guys saw it, the teams had needed him but he just selfishly quit. They might have won the regional championship; no, they would have won the regional championship if Johnny was still on the team. Why should anyone help him now?
However, when guys eventually started to make fun of him, for being some sort of a loner loser, Timmy would still defend him, although not being able himself to offer any reasonable explanation for his odd behavior and poor, selfish decisions. Timmy would remember their many years together, their closeness throughout their childhood. That had to mean something, even if it apparently meant nothing to Johnny.
By the time Timmy graduated from high school, Johnny though had become only a memory. Timmy rarely noticed him, or even saw him.
Not until, however, they were, once again, enrolled in the same class; this time at Templeton College. By now they were young men; 21 years old. They had left the petty cliques of their childhood behind. They were starting their new, adult lives.
John nodded at Tim when he entered the class, acknowledging simply that they knew each other, suggesting nothing else. Tim, however, kept thinking about him throughout the first session. He in fact missed much of the professor's outline of the syllabus.
When class was over John took off, heading away once again. But, this time, Tim would not let him just walk off. He caught up to him, although it wasn't easy, as John was walking like he wanted to get away.
"John, hey, wait, hold up."
John stopped, turned, and waited for Tim, his facing revealing no expression.
Tim caught up to him. "Hey man, so you're taking Miss Harding's Human Anatomy 503 class."
"Yea, that's right."
"Wow, she's some stuff, isn't she."
"Yea, I imagine she's good looking."
Tim sighed, at least to himself. Johnny doesn't seem to have changed. That was such an odd way to put it. Tim wondered if he had some sort of mental disorder, like schizoid or something. He had read about that sort of thing in his introductory psychology class. Well, if so, it wasn't his fault. Johnny had been his best friend. He should work through this with him.
"Hey, no fooling." Tim changed the subject. "Look man, you know, it's been a long time. We should catch up on things."