Just For a Day Part 4
Chapter One
What happened in my life? I thought to myself. I liked a guy, a great guy in fact. Brandon was awesome to be around, and he made me feel a sexual desire, I didn't even know I had. What did this all make me? Was I gay? Bisexual?
I couldn't tell myself let alone tell my mom about what I've been doing. I still fear all of it coming out to Brandon's father, and deep down I'm scared my mom might feel betrayed or let down in me. She means the world to me, and I would never want to hurt or disappoint my mom.
To make matters even worse - Jonathan. What was his deal? Why would he torment me? I can't figure it out. I slapped his hand away and pushed him yesterday at school when he nearly forced himself on me. I don't get it. He was dating a girl from the cheerleading squad and as far as I can tell, all the girls liked him. So why come try seducing me?
I wanted to phone Brandon and told him, but what if he freaks out and confronts Jonathan? Would Jonathan really go so far as to tell everyone about me and Brandon? It all comes down to his parents finding out about us. I can't risk it.
I picked up my phone from my desk I was sitting at.
Lucian -- "Why are you doing this man?"
I send the message to him. Waiting for him to respond. A few minutes went pass and I haven't heard a reply. I was just about to message him again, when my phone vibrated.
Jonathan -- "Coz It's fun. Why should Brandon get you all to himself? Besides, you have a sweet ass."
I felt anger burn inside my stomach again. Who the fuck does this guy think he is?
Lucian -- "Dude. Seriously. I don't want any issues and I sure as hell don't want shit. I'm not interested in you. I don't mean it in a bad way. I'm sorry."
I quickly send the message and placed my phone on my desk. Waiting for his reply. I looked outside the small window in my room. It was nearly dark. About an hour went by and still Jonathan hasn't replied to my message. I was starting to get a bit nervous.
I picked up my phone and messaged Brandon.
Lucian -- "Are you busy? I kinda need to talk to you."
About tow minutes later he replied.
Brandon -- "Not doing much. Busy downloading a new game. Want me to call you?"
I hesitated my reply. My mom wasn't back yet, but she was due any moment. I also struggled with the idea of telling Brandon or not. I just wasn't sure enough on how he would react.
Lucian -- "It's ok. No stress. Will chat tomorrow."
Brandon -- "Ok. Thinking of your sexy ass again."
I laughed to myself as I read the message. I felt the familiar guilty pain in my stomach again. Was this my life now? Is this what it means to be gay? I stared at the books laid open on the desk. I couldn't understand why I felt the way I did. I wasn't even sure of my feelings for Brandon. Did I love him? Was it lust?
A loud call from the kitchen, snapped me out of my thoughts. My mom was home. I got up to go and greet her and to see how her day was.
We were eating about an hour later and I was back in my room soon after that. It was completely dark outside now and I could feel the cold seeping in from my window. I hugged my hoodie closer to my body and pulled the book I was reading closer to the lamp on my desk so I could see. My phone's vibration a few minutes later broke my concentration.
Brandon -- "Can I come over? Just for a while."
My heart gave a small skip. I knew his parents were away and won't be back home till tomorrow, but my mom was still awake in her room.
Lucian -- "My mom is still awake."
Brandon -- "It will be quick. I'll be quiet."
I was busy typing my reply, when a soft tap on my window made me jump. I got up from my chair, wearing shorts and my black hoodie. I slowly opened the curtain and peered into the darkness. I could just see Brandon's outline. I opened the window, and a gush of cold air blew its way into my face and room.
"I was hoping you would come up to my room, since your mom is still up." He softly whispered over the wind.
He was wearing sweats and a blue hoodie, like mine. His blond hair blowing in the wind and his hands tightly tucked into his pockets. He had his toothy grin and moved closer towards me. I instinctively knew what he wanted to do. I leaned closer and felt him place his lips on mine. My stomach fluttered ad he did so.
"Come, let's go, before I freeze my balls off." He said as he pulled away.
I quickly turned around, closed my bedroom door after calling good night to my mom and grabbed some warmer pants on the floor.
"Where is Mr Berkley?" I asked softly as I pulled the pants over my slightly hairy legs.
"In his room upstairs already. The house is quiet. Come, lets hurry." He replied and gestured for me to jump through.
The cold air flowed over me like a shower. I softly jumped out and we made out way back to the dark mansion. I could see Brandon's room light on in the distance. The sky was clear and only a few clouds were visible. Brandon's large body blocked my view to the bushed in front of us as he went first to climb up. This was becoming all too familiar territory for me.
Brandon was the first to enter his window and held his hand out for me to follow suite. His room was much warmer, and a hint of fresh linen filled the air. The bathroom light to the far left if his room clicked off and I felt a wave of fear wash over me. We were not alone.
"Oh, there you are." Brandon's voice broke the silence next to me.
Jonathan came out the bathroom, rubbing his hands dry on his shirt.
"Yeah, I had to pee." He said and moved towards us.
