May 14th, 1969 was a day that Kenny Holmes would never forget, and not because it happened to be his 18th birthday either. It was a day that he had been looking forward to for quite some time, and the anticipation was making his heart race as the bus neared the end of the route.
Kenny got off the bus a block before his destination because he didn't want to bus driver to know where he was going. That was silly on all counts, because not only wouldn't a bus driver much care where one of his multitude of riders was heading, there were many other place around his destination that he could have been heading, but Kenny was too paranoid to think straight by then.
Kenny's destination was the Adult World bookstore on Broadway in Schenectady, New York. The store was located in a seedy industrial area, and Kenny knew where it was because he had gone there before, and had been shown the door almost as soon as he entered.
"You gotta be 18 kid, can't you read?" the clerk said after intercepting him and escorting him back out the door after Kenny couldn't come up with proof of age. "There's enough heat on me here as it is."
That was two months ago, and now that he was legal, Kenny was dying to get in there and see everything. He had saved up money from his part-time job and had skipped school for this day, and now, with his driver's learner permit in hand, grabbed the handle of the door and swung it open.
That was when Kenny's adventure began...
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I tried to stop my hand from shaking as I handed my learner's permit to the guy at the register, who stopped me like I knew he would. It was the same guy who had stopped me last time, and I think he recognized me because he laughed when he saw me enter.
"Happy birthday kid," he said, handing me back my permit and going back to the register. "Knock yourself out."
Around me, the walls were covered with all sorts of devices and toys, while the rest of the room was filled with walls full of magazines and books. Trying to be casual and pretend like I wasn't out of my element, I walked around like it was no big deal to see all of this naked flesh on the covers of the magazines.
The magazines were separated by categories, and while I was mildly interested in seeing the naked women and all, what I really wanted to see was over on the other side, the wall of magazines under the sign that read GAY.
As I made my way over there, I passed a curtain. Behind the curtain were sounds of all kinds, and when I peeked behind it, the sounds got louder. Sounds of people having sex - grunting and groaning and carrying on like I imagined people did when they made love.
I wouldn't know what sounds to make, since I was a virgin. How I managed to be a virgin for 18 years still baffles me, and this was in 1969 no less, the era of free love and anything goes. I had dates of course, but I would always freeze up, and when I did manage to get to first base - so to speak - I could never manage to get any further.
I had managed to get two hand jobs from girls; the first time hardly counts because as soon as Shawn Hermann took my dick out of my underwear I started cumming all over this place, and the second one was lousy because we were both drinking and I had to put Kim Smith's hand on my dick and move it myself until I came.
Maybe the reason I never got anywhere with girls was because, while I liked them and all, they never really turned me on. Not like guys did, and just thinking about being in the showers with all those other fellas was enough to get me hard.
Never did anything with any of them though, because you could get the crap kicked out of you in school if they even suspected you were gay, so I kept my desire to myself, and to my friend Jimmy. We had gotten each other off for years, but lately he had found himself a girl friend, which left me alone.
"Excuse me," a greasy looking middle aged man said as he eased himself passed me in the cramped hallway behind the curtain.
He seemed to have touched me a lot more than he needed to when he passed me, putting his hand on my shoulder and sort of grinding into me and we passed. Despite the fact that the guy looked really scary, I wanted to see what was going on back there badly enough to continue. I went down the dimly lit hallway and tried to look at the signs outside of each little room, all of which were occupied.
That greasy guy had gone into a room that had a movie with two guys sucking each other dicks, at least according to the picture outside. That would have been one that I would have liked to see, and just before I walked past I peeked in through the opening between the curtain and the wall.
The guy had his dick out right in that little closet, and was jerking himself off. He looked up and saw me, and opened the curtain.
"There's room," he said, waving his dick at me. "Like what you see?"
"Sorry," I mumbled, and practically ran down the hall and back out to the store.
There was only one other person in the store itself besides the cashier, so I went over to the GAY section and looked for something to buy. They were all wrapped in plastic, so all you had to go by was the pictures on the covers.
I grabbed one that was called "Teacher Knows Best" that had an older guy with grey hair with his arm wrapped around the student's shoulder, and another one that was called "Fathers and Sons".
The idea of me and my old man doing anything together was gross to me, but I did like the idea of an older guy doing stuff to me. They seemed more mature and less goofy than guys my age, and besides, I was so naive and clueless that I needed guidance myself.
Not from that greasy looking guy though. He grossed me out, and as I paid for the 2 magazines I saw him come out from behind the curtain, so I hurried out the door and practically ran to the bus stop.
While I waited for the bus, I was horrified to see that guy coming toward me. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know Schenectady except for the bookstore, and as he got closer I started to panic, hoping he would walk past me.
"Hey kid," the guy said. "No need to be afraid of me."
"I'm not," I said, my voice quivering as I spoke.
"I live down the street," he said. "Why don't you come home with me? We'll smoke a little weed and have some fun. I like you hippie dudes a lot."
While my dirty blond hair did grow down to my shoulders, I wasn't a hippie, just a kid trying to fit in, although with my bell-bottom jeans and tie-dyed t-shirt I suppose I looked the part.
"I - uh - gotta go home," I said, looking down the street and praying to see a bus that wasn't there.
"Didn't you like my stuff," he said, walking in front of me. "You saw my cock, didn't you?"
"No, I didn't, I swear!" I said, and that was true, because I was so freaked out and it was so dark that I didn't get more than a glimpse of him.
"Bet you'd like me to stick my cock up your ass, wouldn't you kid," the guy sneered, leering at me as he started to get really close.
"Beat it."
I jumped when I heard the booming bass voice from behind me, and so did my greasy 'friend', who spun and hurried down the street when he saw the man behind me.