It was the first month of my graduate school, and it was my turn for the "introductory" evening with my Logic professor, Paul Hollings. When I'd asked someone who'd taken his class the previous year what the proper attire for such an event was, he had just given me a lopsided grin and said, "For a handsome guy like you? I'd suggest very bulky clothes."
He hadn't elaborated, but I probably should have caught on just from that comment.
It was more than an hour after dinner and we were sitting together in wingback chairs, almost knee to knee, before an enticing fireplace, complete with white bearskin rug in front of it and our second snifter of brand, when Professor Hollings brought the discussion around to the topic of his course, logic.
"You asked me for the short explanation of this course we're embarking on together, Ron. Perhaps the best way I can explain how logic works is by a little role play. Are you game for that?" He looked oh so charming and enthusiastic about his topic as he sat there looking deeply into my eyes. He probably was more than twenty years older than I was, but I had no doubt that the women in his classes swooned over his classic good looks and charisma. I bet he wove quite a spell over his students in his classroom.
"Umm, yes, of course," I answered blithely.
"Okay, now for logic to really work, we have to be completely honest and open in our statements. Are you okay with that?"
"Well, sure, of course."
"All right. Now we'll have to pick a topic. Let's see, what is uppermost on a graduate student's mind?"
"Getting good grades that lead to a good job?" I offered.
"No, no, those are noble thoughts, but you aren't really being honest now, are you? Look, you're a young, good-looking, healthy guy. What is it you really are thinking of the most?"
I just smiled.
"Come on. This won't work if you don't follow the rules of open honesty."
"Okay, okay," I responded. "Sex, of course."
"Bingo. Sex. And what is it about sex that you think of?"
I thought for a few minutes and then answered, "Getting it. The pleasure of it; the feeling it gives, which is like nothing else we experience."
"Very good. Now, see, it wasn't hard to be open and honest about that." And with that, he leaned in toward me and put both of his hands on my thighs, just above the knees." I flinched and scooted back a bit into the wingchair.
"This is just a role play, Ron. I have done this to make a point in logic. Relax. Now, what made you flinch? How did you feel when I put my hands on your thighs?"
"Nervous, trapped, a little frightened perhaps," I answered.
"Precisely. And why is that?
"Because it was too intimate. It is wrong," I answered.
"Ah, now, that's the crux of it, where logic has to be considered," Hollings said with a laugh. And he moved his hands a bit farther up on my thighs, which made me flinch again.
"There, see, you have conditioned yourself" Hollings said. "Let's examine the logic of this. First, are you married?"
"No."
"Do you have a significant other?"
"No, not really. Not right now."
"Are you clean? No communicable diseases?"
"Excuse me!" I responded, in shock.
"Bear with me. This is just for the purposes of a logical construct."
"Well, no, of course not. Not any diseases, I mean."
"When you think of sex and the pleasure you get from that, do you think that this is wrong for you to do? An open and honest answer now."
"No . . . no, I suppose not."
"And if you aren't hurting anyone else, if there's no one else, no one at all, who would be hurt by your gain of pleasure, would you be wrong to enjoy that pleasure?"
"Uh, no, I guess not."
"And honestly, Ron, can you openly and honestly say that you aren't gaining pleasure from me having my hands where they are?"
"Ummmm."
"Openly and honestly now, Ron. I'm sitting here right in front of you, and I can tell just by looking at your lap that you are gaining pleasure from this."
And it was true, I'm sorry to say. My body was betraying the pleasure I felt at his touch. I don't know if it was the brandy or the fire or his charisma and good looks or how he had logically gotten from there to here, but I was definitely being drawn under his spell.
"Here, let me move my hand here, just for logic's sake, and you tell me openly and honestly that this does not give you pleasure." He moved his right hand to my basket and had it laying lightly along the length of my cock, which was rising under the fabric of my pants.
I couldn't respond verbally immediately. My body was providing my open, honest response. But I eventually managed to croak out, "But I'm not gay. It's not right for me—"