by Keith Hernandez
Chapter 2
I avoided Mark like the plague after the blow job. I was haunted by it for days and weeks and worried about people finding out, but nothing changed at all. I got more comfortable with it. I knew I wasn't gay, I just chalked it up to a one time thing. I tried anyway.
The thing was, I still liked Mark--he was still cool. I couldn't avoid him at work forever, and when we did hang out, up at the cash register or at the ticket stand, things were fine. If anything, he treated me better, treated me more as an equal, which boosted my teenage self-esteem.
A couple times he did ask if I wanted to hang out, but I didn't want to have to to suck his dick again. So I made up an excuse and said no. But mentally, I began to hedge a bit. Maybe we could just hang out, and nothing else, I would think to myself.
Of course, the problem was that I was only 18 and still very shy. I lacked the self-confidence to assert myself or set boundaries. Before too long, I caved in.
I ended up hanging out with him one more time and just hoping that I didn't have to suck his dick. But of course, the first time we got together again he managed to get me alone, and it was instantly obvious he had designs on me. He touched my neck and cheek and got super close and kind of pulled me aside in his garage (we met after work with some other co-workers).
Soon the crowd thinned out and I wanted to leave but he coaxed me into his house and suddenly, we were alone. He acted casual when I asked where everyone else went.
"They must have gone home," Mark said. "I think a bunch went over to Brian's place, his folks are gone. You want to go there?"