This is the fourth part of my first story. I hope you have read the previous parts to understand how I have got to where I am now. As usual I welcome any comments or suggestions. Still unsure what is the right category!! I'm assuming Gay Male but could be BDSM.
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It's now four weeks since my life changed, still debating whether for the better or not.
Four weeks ago I met a guy for the first time for what I hoped would be some good clean safe sex, maybe a blowjob or mutual wank. The guy, Jim, had a different idea as somehow he had seen in me, from messages exchanged online, a submissive nature.
As of now I have only met him once but I have already had several experiences at his direction. In addition to our one meet where I got to suck his large cock, I have been humiliated and used by his brother and a mate. In addition I have come to totally realise my own shortcomings in the cock department. I had always thought myself average but now realise small is more accurate. This became more evident last week when Jim had me shave myself completely which exposed how small I actually am.
What made it worse was that my wife, Olivia, laughed when she saw me shaven and for the first time in our lives she said how small I looked. Though she apologised many times and said she didn't mean it, the look in her eyes when she laughed and said it told me the truth. If she hadn't thought it before she certainly did at that moment.
I am still worried as to what I got myself into but I am nevertheless excited and anxious as to what will happen in the future. I check my secret phone and email many times a day to check whether Jim has got in touch. I also look at the pictures Jim has of me, one with me sucking his Brothers mate, Dave, and one of me full frontal naked after shaving myself entirely.
Jim says I have to trust him but I am very concerned where the pictures might turn up in the future. I have a very responsible professional job, an accountant, looking after many clients around the country on behalf of the company I work for.
My other main concern is how often Jim mentions Olivia. He now knows her name, her details, her golf club and the fact that she laughed at me last weekend. I plead with him to leave her out of everything and he keeps telling me to trust him but I cannot help thinking what he might be up to.
It is now Wednesday after the weekend of my humiliation with Olivia. I have not heard yet from Jim since the email last Saturday evening. I am trying to behave normally at work but I think that several of my colleagues are looking at me funnily. I have been less than patient with some of them and I think that has been noticed. My personal secretary has asked me several times if everything is okay but I tell her it is and to stop asking me. I wonder what they would all say if they saw the pictures or knew what I had done
to date. I think they would enjoy my humiliation.
The day was spent mostly in meetings with some preparation for next week when I am due to travel to different parts of the country, including Jim's home town. I wonder if Jim will be free to meet me and whether he will have new tasks or experiences for me. Although scared I know I really want more new experiences and hope that I can satisfy Jim's wishes for me. After every meeting I checked my phone and email but still no word from him.
Thursday was similar with more meetings and final preparation for my week away. Again no contact from Jim and I am beginning to wonder if he has decided I'm not worth his time or efforts. I wonder if I should contact him but think that he would not want that. As I was driving home that evening I nearly crashed my car when my secret phone vibrated in my pocket.
"Can you talk, if so call me now," the text said.
I pulled over the car into a motel carpark and immediately called his number.
"Hi Sir, how has your week been?"
"Hi Wimp, it has been good, I have been thinking about whether I want to continue with your education or not."
"Why Sir, have I done something wrong?"
"I'm just not sure that you're serious about learning how to be a true sub, have you been giving it much thought?"
"All the time Sir, Olivia at home and all at work think I'm acting strangely, I keep checking my phone and email and I was worried when I did not hear from you, Sir I desperately want to please you."
"Olivia ever mention your small cock since?"
"No Sir, but I have caught her watching me every day when I am getting undressed or dressed."
"Wimp you do know what she's thinking, don't you?"
"I assume Sir that she is thinking how small I am."
Laughing he said, "Probably she's thinking how come she thought you were anything bit pitiful."
"Maybe she is Sir, that is probably the worst of all that has happened so far, that she might be thinking that."
Laughing again, "You've been humiliated in public, scared of being arrested, sucked the cocks of my brother and his mate and what you're worried most about is your wife thinking your cock is small, ha ha ha ha."
"Sir please stop laughing at me, I know I'm small."
"You really are a pathetic wimp, I think I will continue your education, if only to show you how humiliation really works, how good and bad I can make you feel."
"Thank you Sir."
"Now, tell me what are your work plans next week."
"On Monday and Tuesday I am in your town Sir, Wednesday and Thursday I travel onto Dodstown and Friday I come home to the office here."
"Are you staying in the same hotel?"
"Yes Sir."
"Ok Wimp, I want you to get a mini suite in the hotel, I might just move in with you for the two nights."
"Yes Sir, I will change the room when I get home tonight, may I ask what you have planned?"
"No, you may not, I have not decided yet but you will enjoy whatever I choose, I have to go now, keep your phone close, will be in touch, bye."
With that he was gone and suddenly I was content and happy that he had been in touch. I was truly becoming attached to Jim and looking forward to learning more from him. Although still scared and nervous I wanted next week to come quickly.
I carried on home to be greeted by Olivia with the usual peck on the cheek, asking how my day was. She commented that I appeared to be in better form and I told her that I thought I had secured a new client.
"That's great, maybe now you won't be so anxious all the time. You're away next week, aren't you?"
"Yes, I'm away from Monday to Friday."
"Ok."
"Have you any plans for next week."
"Not yet, I might play some more golf and Jenny has been talking about having a night out, I might do that."
"That's a good idea, no point in you being in all week when I'm away."
Laughing she said, "Whether you're away or not."
I didn't quite know what to make of her comment but I let it go. I didn't want to think about the possibilities of Olivia playing away from home.
On the Friday I went to work as usual, getting as much preparation as possible done for the client meetings the next week. I didn't know how much of my time Jim intended to use up so I wanted as much done as possible. The meetings were with important clients and I didn't want anything to go wrong with them. My secretary asked me where I wanted to stay so that she could book my hotels. I told her I would do it myself which surprised her as that had never happened before. I didn't want her asking why I might want a mini suite.
"Grand, do it yourself so," she said as she left my office.