"No, don't you dare come yet. Not before me," I growled. And the big hairy ape of a man held off, as, crouched on his lap, facing him, rising and falling on his monster cock, leveraging off the balls of my feet placed on either side of his hips, I dug the fingernails of my left hand in his right shoulder blade and pumped my cock with my right hand, rubbing it up and down on his hairy belly.
With a shudder and a cry of "I'm coming," I did, shooting cum up into the dark curls on his bulging pecs. I arched back, grasping his knees as he sat on the end of the bed in the Amsterdam hotel room, with me in his lap, facing him, legs bent and feet flat on the mattress on either side of him, and rocked on his hard shaft.
"Yes, yes, drown me in cum now," I hissed, and he did, his strong, calloused hands gripping my waist and his fat, stretching cock pulsing, throbbing, me panting and him giving little grunts, as once, twice, three times, he tightened and released, tightened and released, blasting me deep with his strong gush of cum. He did this even better than his identical twin brother Brad did.
Ben's hands slid up to under my shoulder blades, pulling my torso back up to his, the hairiness of his twenty-six-year-old muscular chest rubbing against my two-year-older smooth pecs, as he leaned his handsome-ugly workman's face in for a kiss. I turned my head to avoid that, moved my hands to palm his pecs, and pushed him back, fighting to control my breathing, to bring me back from the heights of passion and release. He was much too dangerous. I couldn't let myself be enslaved by him again.
"No, I've gotten what I want from you," I growled and, twisting, I rolled off his lap, leaned down to scoop up my share of the clothes that had been shed at the base of the bed, and headed for the bathroom. "When I've showered, please be gone," I said.
He laughed, dismissed, but still victorious because I hadn't been able to resist using that monstrously thick and long cock of his again, as I'd done in New York, continually trying to break from him, always returning to the power of his huge cock over me.
It had been no different here than in New York. I had been lured to Europe, to Amsterdam, by my agent's secretive negotiations over an audition of a movie role--so secret that he wouldn't tell me much about it either, other than giving a price tag that was beyond enticing as well as a fee to show up for the audition that was three times what was sufficient for a weekend of auditioning. My TV series,
Clouds over Antibes
, was on hiatus. In this series I played the central role of an American wanderer, sailing a boat in the Mediterranean in the leadup to World War II, who sustains himself by selling himself to other men as he progresses across the Mediterranean and who has been stranded in Antibes with a group of like-minded men, including sexy Frenchmen, a Brit, an Italian, a Spaniard, and even a German. There were vibes the series run would not be renewed. A new movie role would be a lifesaver.
Ben Hayden had met me at the Schiphol Airport in Amsterdam and brought me to this hotel, saying I would be picked up at 5:00 p.m. the next day to be taken to the audition site. No other information had been given. I was disconcerted as I hadn't expected to see Ben again--ever--and certainly not here in Amsterdam. Ben was a lighting technician. He was talented in that, of course, but that's all he was, a young, rough, lower-class lighting technician. Ben was one of a set of identical twins, the other one being Brad, an actor I'd appeared with in different versions of a play I wrote. Ben had been the lighting technician for that. The two of them, both hairy, thuggish studs, had taught me how to take double penetration, which was quite sexy when the two men, one in front and one in back, were virtually identical. It also was overwhelming, and I had pledged to try to avoid it once I had broken away from it--especially after I'd discovered they'd surreptitiously filmed it and posted it to fee sites on the Internet.
Except that Ben had the cock of a god, and I had discovered that when I was appearing in the TV movie filming of
Strings
, a play I had written and been in in an Off Broadway production, with Ben doing the lighting, while his brother, Brad, acted in the play. Ben appeared on the lighting crew again when the movie was done, once again with me in the "younger man" role, Trevor Mattingly in the "older man" role, and Ben's brother, Brad, in the chauffeur role, as we all had taken in the play.
I hadn't been attracted to Ben. He was a monster of a man, though younger than I was--tall and broad, good looking, but in a coarse, dock worker way, always sneering knowingly as if his lower-class coarseness somehow was superior to the rest of us. He wasn't wrong in one aspect, though. He had a cock to command, and command me in New York it did. I had managed to break away from it only by having him removed from the production. His brother, Brad, hadn't seemed to minded that, as he had better luck with me being agreeable to him fucking me.
And here Ben had reappeared in Amsterdam, to transport me to the Hans Brinker Hotel in the South Centrum section of the old city, on Kerkstraat, a prime gay district of the city, and to come up to my room with me, neither of us having questioned or voiced why. I had thought I was in control. He let me think I was. He didn't do anything I didn't tell him to do. He followed my demands and instructions to the letter. But once he was inside me, stretching me, fully possessing me, and regardless of whether I was on top, controlling the fuck, he owned me--and we both knew it.
He obeyed to the last. When I came out of the hotel room bathroom after taking my time showering, he was gone, as I had commanded him to do. But I didn't fool myself. He owned me. I heard the laugh he gave before he was gone.
My dilemma with Ben was much the same as it had been with Trevor Mattingly, even though they were very different people, Trevor being aristocratic, elegant, and refined and Ben being a hairy, rough, almost thuggish. But they both had what it took to ring my chimes. I knew they were to be avoided, and I had been avoiding them, but I also knew that they were like the sun--I knew I'd get burned going there, but I couldn't help myself from making the journey when they were within sight. I was my own worst enemy in this regard.
* * * *
"Interesting, isn't it? Open it up. See the surprise within."
As Trevor Mattingly handed me the drink, I'd been toying with a painted balsam-wood box fashioned in the shape of two men holding a third in a double penetration position. It was cleverly fashioned and painted to make the act look three-dimensional but also to require the observer to look at it carefully to fully discern what was being depicted and that it actually was a container. I discovered it was a box about the same time Mattingly had told me it was.
We were in an office behind the stage of a small theater not far from the Hans Brinker Hotel in Amsterdam but deeper into the gay district centered on Kerkstraat. If I'd been surprised that Ben Hayden, a theater technician I'd briefly hooked up with in New York while filming a version of
Strings
, had picked me up here in Amsterdam, I was completely floored that he had brought me to Trevor Mattingly. Indeed, I don't think my agent realized just how far Mattingly and I had fallen out, but I don't know what Trevor had done to manage to keep my agent silent on who had brought me to Amsterdam to discuss a film role.
We'd kept it a secret so as not to rock the boat in stage and theater circles for both of us, but I had a serious bone to pick with Mattingly. We had written the original stage script of
Strings
together--or, rather, I had done the conceptualization and writing and Mattingly had gotten backers to help us stage it. He and I were lovers at the time and living together as we pursued theater roles. Mattingly, fifteen years older than I was, produced and directed as well. We put
Strings