As I lay in silence next to this man who had so quickly become one of my closest friends, it was all I could do to keep myself from turning and kissing him. I wasn't completely sure why I resisted the urge, either. I had already kissed Cooper, so it wasn't a big deal to do it again. I knew that it wouldn't stop with kissing, though, and part of me worried about how far I would let things go if I started. The other part of me wanted to find out.
I almost gave in an reached for Cooper's dick more times than I can count. Every time, it was like a voice in my head started screaming at me about how wrong that was. That voice kept winning the battle in my mind until a new thought occurred to me. Who ever decided it was a bad thing to want a cock in my mouth? It hadn't been me. Maybe it was a bad thing, but how did they know? If I couldn't trust myself to decide what was right and what was wrong, I definitely couldn't trust someone else to make that decision.
And right now, in this moment, I knew what felt right. Slowly, all my reservations faded away. I was done worrying. I wanted to start living. I hoped I wouldn't regret this later. I swore that I wouldn't let myself.
I looked over at Cooper, and caught him staring at my ass. He met my eyes sheepishly. I glanced between his legs, and found his hand cupped over his dick and balls. That sight was all it took to give me an instant, raging hot boner.
Cooper seemed to notice the change immediately. He glanced at my ass again, then looked at me, eyes wide and questioning. He seemed to be asking permission. In response, I rolled onto my back, revealing my throbbing cock. That was all the encouragement he needed. He pounced on me, wrapping my dick in the wet warmth of his mouth. My body shuddered with pleasure.
I propped myself up on my elbows to watch as he went to work. Cooper was breathing hard, sucking vigorously. Without much thought, I placed both my hands on the back of his head, and pushed down until I felt his lips on the base of my cock. I felt his throat constrict as he gagged. He was taking it like a champ, though, so I took that as a sign that I could do some thrusting with my hips.
He didn't last very long with that kind of treatment before he pushed away with both hands, gasping for breath. His eyes were watering, and he even had a tear running down his face, which he wiped away with his muscular forearm. He shot me one of those heart-stopping boyish grins before getting back to work.
Maybe it was the smile, maybe I was just really horny, but I realized with a jolt that I was seconds away from filling his throat with cum. I pushed him off me, my red, swollen cock hitting my stomach with a loud smack.
"I almost shot, bro," I told Cooper with wide eyes.
I was embarrassed that I had reached that point so quickly, but Cooper didn't seem to mind. He just just winked at me and said, "You act like that's a bad thing."
He then bent down again and I felt my dick slide right to the back of his mouth and down his throat in one motion. It was all I could take. I gasped, then let out an animalistic groan. My hands held Cooper's head tight against my crotch as my hot load squirted down his wildly contracting throat. I could just barely hear him gagging through the pounding of my heart in my ears.
He finally pushed away from me, smile on his face. Tears were streaming down his red face, but he laughed.
"That was hella hot, man. I've never done that before." He laughed again, shaking his head.
I finally remembered how to move my body, and stretched my stiff legs. "I've never swallowed a load either, but I guess it's my turn." I had to admit, swallowing cum didn't sound all that fun at the moment, but I figured it was only fair.
Cooper shook his head though. "Nah, I think I want to save my load for now. I want it to be a big one when we... " He went silent, seeming to hesitate. He watched my face, but didn't continue.
I was still in a daze, and hadn't listened to much beyond the initial "nah." I settled my head onto Cooper's chest, and we listened to the rain on the tent. A wave of exhaustion came over me, and I yawned.
"We're probably going to have to stay here tonight. We wouldn't make much more progress before dark even if the rain stopped right now," Cooper said quietly. He didn't sound upset--he was just making an observation.
Chills ran from my head to my toes as Cooper began running his fingers lightly over the skin on my back. His chest rose and fell steadily, and I found myself staring at his perfect cock, semi-hard, not far from my face.
It was silent for several minutes. I sighed. "Hey Cooper?"
"What's up?"
"Thanks for putting up with all my shit the last few days. I'm really not usually this hard to deal with. It's like my brain is broken lately."
"I understand more than you know." His chest rose and fell a couple times. "The truth is, I haven't minded it all that much. It's strange, because even when I knew I should probably be annoyed with you, or angry with you, I just... wasn't really. It sounds dumb since we've only known each other for a few days, but I care about you a lot. I really just want you to be happy, and I get that you're figuring a lot of shit out."
My chest filled with a mixture of gratitude and guilt, and I teared up a little. I tried to wipe my eyes discreetly. I knew Cooper was trying to make me feel better, but I suddenly felt even more awful about the way I had been treating him.
I lifted myself up and met his eyes. "I care about you too. A lot. And I'm going to try a lot harder to show you that from here on out."
"Your cute when you're apologizing," Cooper said in a teasing tone.
I was surprised to feel my face grow hot as I blushed, and my cock twitched against Cooper's leg. He grinned, then reached his head up and kissed me. If any other guy had called me cute, I would have hated it. But it was different coming from Cooper. He didn't say it to make me mad, and I knew it.
He lay back again, and I put my head back on his chest. The rise and fall of that muscular pillow lulled me to sleep.
***
I woke with a start. The tent was shaking wildly around me. I reached for Cooper, but he wasn't there. I struggled to make my blurry eyes see as my hearing became clear.
Cooper was outside the tent. "Preston, you've got to see this sunrise man! Get your ass out of bed!"
I groaned and slapped at the side of the tent. "If I wanted an alarm clock, I'd buy one!" I tried not to let him hear the smile on my face.