Chapter Three
He drew the curtain back, not caring that I was naked and chained up in the sleeping quarters of his cab. Not that there was anyone to see -- the place was still deserted, the landscape exactly how I'd left it.
He lit another cigarette and drew down the smoke, deep in thought. My mind was blank to everything except trying to process the swirling sensations and emotions I was feeling. We just sat there in silence, him the driver and in control, and me the chained up, naked faggot with a bellyful of piss, a bellyful and ass full of spunk being held in place by what I guessed was a butt plug; a man so low he had sucked his own waste off the cock that had just fucked him. I'd not even asked about a condom, just accepting the fact that he was going bareback. I was appalled but I was also proud. I wondered if I was a cum addict? Above all, I knew I was far from done. I then thought about my utterly flaccid cock. How could I be so horny, so sexed up, so on the edge, and yet so embarrassingly soft? It was clearly something Sir was thinking about too.
"You stay soft when I fuck you," he observed. "Real men I have fucked before. They get hard. You? You are soft. I think you are a faggot. You said you were sub, and you are, but you are a true faggot too. You soft but your legs pull me in to fuck you harder and harder. But you no get hard. Soft. You rare thing."
I couldn't tell from the tone of his voice whether he approved of this or not. It was a plain statement, and there was no disagreeing. I had stayed flaccid and soft throughout the most intense sexual experience of my life. In a way, I was glad of his analysis: it was like the decision about my true nature was not mine but made for me. How ironic that that was the exact point he was making. Perhaps I was incapable of deciding even how I felt?
"Why you still try to stroke your cock?" he asked. He looked at me and I felt a sense of total liberation. There was nothing else to say but the absolute truth.
"Because it feels nice, Sir."
"So it works?"
"Very much, yes." I paused. "But there was a moment when you were fucking me and I went to stroke it but stopped. I moved it back so I could fondle your balls while I sucked you." I looked at him, unblinking.
He nodded and grunted to himself, gazing into a middle distance. I shifted a little, the butt plug starting to feel uncomfortable. I started to wonder if we were done as the moment appeared to be slipping away.