'ill be on in a min'
I really wasn't planning on playing anything tonight. This is the night I usually take pictures so usually I don't play any games. During the whole Covid lockdown I had a lot of time to spare, so like most people I found a hobby. I discovered that I was gay and started exploring around online. I always sort of had that feeling that I wasn't straight, but I never really indulged in it before the lockdown. Through exploring, I found a femboy community that I really connected with. All throughout high school I always shaved my entire body because I hated the look of body hair. I grew out my hair in high school as well, so I knew I could fit in comfortably in the femboy community. Not only physically, but the whole aesthetic sits quite nice with what I like. Almost immediately through chatting with the members of that community, I knew that that's what I wanted. The hardest part about it all was buying feminine clothes without people in my house finding out. My parents aren't bigoted or anything, but the thought of them finding out terrified me. Especially my older brother finding out. He's not the most accepting of things that are different, so I really don't want him to find out. I found out that Amazon has discreet packaging and I would order things when I knew for a fact that I would be alone at the time. It started off with small simple things like socks that slowly went further and further up my leg the more I would order them. Same with the shorts I ordered. After a little while of getting used to it, I found out that I really liked it. I liked it to the point where I was ordering things constantly almost every single week. It evolved into getting skirts and crop tops. Then it quickly proceeded to getting actual lingerie to wear and that's when I decided to start taking pictures of myself and posting them online. Showing my face to random people on the internet is a big no for me, so I always try my best to cover my face or not show it. I'm not insecure about it or anything. Actually I really like how my face looks. It doesn't look very masculine and I'm so glad for that. If I really wanted to I think I could pull off being a girl for a day. But that's getting off track.
About an hour before Nathan texted me, I was taking pictures that I could post. I recently bought this really cute pink skirt and white thigh high socks with a pink stripe at the top. I thought it would go well with my white and pink striped long sleeve crop top. In all my pictures I always have a heart choker, that's almost like a signature of mine. If the picture doesn't show my neck I wear my heart garter straps on my thigh highs. This time I did show my neck however so I had to wear my white mask with a heart on the mouth. I took some of my favorite pictures that I've ever taken.
My room has led strip lights along the ceiling so I can get any color or lighting condition that I want. This time it was light pink and I used my ring light to get enough light. Taking pictures is one of my all time favorite things to do. I get so creative with poses, lighting, outfits, and angles. I feel like a professional photographer every time and it makes me feel so good about myself. The attention I get online definitely makes me feel even better, aside from the occasional haters, but I learned to not care about them too much. Getting a few haters just means that I'm doing something right. I was still wearing my outfit at the time, but we're just playing a game, Nathan doesn't need to see me.
I get on my computer and almost immediately Nathan calls me in discord. Damn, that was a lot faster than I was expecting.
"Hey Alex, what's goin on?" His voice sounds deeper than what I remember. It's only been a year!
"Not much, just getting everything loaded up." I'm talking quietly so I don't wake anyone in my house. God knows my mom would blow a fit if I woke her up.
"Nice. So how have you been? It's been almost a year!"
"Yeah I know it's been a long time. Sorry about that. I've been pretty good just mostly doing school work and playing games."
"Don't worry about it I've been crazy busy with work so I haven't really had much time to talk to a lot of people. Other than the gym."
"Oh yeah? You go to the gym now?"
"Wow, I haven't even told you that!" He sounded genuinely surprised. "Yeah man I've been going ever since the lockdown ended. I figured it was about time I stopped being lazy." I laugh.
"I actually started going to the gym too. Not like super religiously or anything just weekly."
"No way! I never took you for the gym type!" I laugh awkwardly at that comment. "No man that's awesome! What have you been working on?"
Oh no, maybe I shouldn't have said I go to the gym. The only reason I go to the gym is to look more feminine. I almost exclusively do leg, hip, and butt exercises. What do I say?
"Oh uh, mostly just sit ups and step ups nothing too major." I was pretty nervous. If you go to the gym, more often than not you know what body part someone is working on depending on the workout. I didn't necessarily lie, I just didn't tell the full truth.
"There's nothin wrong with that. Anything is better than nothin I say." He laughs. "I've made a ton of progress since the last time we saw each other." He pauses for a minute, then gasps. "Oh I know! Why don't we send each other our progress? Since we haven't seen each other in so long."
Oh god. This is exactly what I was worried about. My gym pictures are almost exclusively of my ass, and most of them are pretty nude.
"Uh, I can't really take pictures right now." My voice was cracking. I'm so nervous now. I didn't entirely lie, I can't take a picture of myself while wearing these clothes.
"Oh that's fine. I meant a picture you've already taken. I know you have pictures in that phone of yours." He sounded as if he knew something. My heart dropped. What does he mean by that? There's no way he knows I take pictures like that.
"H-how do you know?" My voice was shaking and my heart was pounding.
"I think it's pretty obvious. Anyone who goes to the gym takes progress pictures." Oh my god. I instantly felt relieved. I'm so stupid. I completely forgot that was a thing that most people who go to the gym do.
