My Boyfriend's Bellybutton
A series of gay short stories about two guys with the same fetish
One
I have a beautiful boyfriend, lover, almost husband. His name is Ben.
He has hair the color of dark chocolate, approaching black. It's in straight bangs, is toussled, and wavy, long enough to almost touch his shoulder. He has moderate eyebrows and often sports a light bit of facial hair -- a bit of a mustache, a little covering the beard. His skin isn't quite alabaster, but it's pretty light -- and is blemishless. On those traits alone, he's my "type."
I like pretty guys -- a lot. I have always had a weakness for them. There is something about the face and hair of a pretty guy. It's taken me years to realize that it's kind of a femininity thing or, perhaps, the absence of the (toxically) masculine. A lot of guy-guys look macho, tough, dangerous. Even a male with visually appealing features, with a menacing vibe will cause me to draw back out of self-protection.
But there's something else I love about him, something that bonds us in a unique way, and something that literally over 99 percent of humanity doesn't and probably will never "get." Both of us are navel fetishists. Both of us are sexually turned on by the sight of a bared bellybutton, a body part that the vast majority of people don't think about, much less consider sexual on a guy. On females, from the halter top to the bikini, the bellybutton is generally thought of as patently female, but not so much on males.
I think this is a shame, and a bit lopsided. Both males and females have nipples, and some males even are lucky enough to have sensitive ones. Both males and females have stomachs. So why is it that we only ascribe sexuality to women's navels, and not to men's? I can only surmise it has to do with thousands of years of patriarchal conditioning and the male gaze and all that bullshit.
Thankfully, gay men have upended lots of that tradition. Guys are now allowed to be pretty -- not just strong, calculating or dangerous. Ben certainly is pretty.
Especially when he sports what is now called a crop-top, what used to be called a half-shirt in my younger days. The term half-shirt fits -- it's a short-sleeved shirt, usually a T-shirt, and is cut in half horizontally, to reveal a few inches of a smooth, flat midriff area and, often in the middle of this or at the lower edge, the bellybutton.
My boyfriend's bellybutton is beautiful. I get not a little bit lecherous saying that.
The very first time I saw it, he was completely shirtless. A lot of them are pretty boring on guys. They are "dots"-- a little round hole -- often choked with body hair or lint. They're usually pretty small, too -- less than half an inch long, so they're unassuming -- they don't demand attention.
Ben was doing a physical task. I think it was carpentry in a shed somewhere. It was at some event I was attending, out in a rural area. He had been bent over, working on something.
I had asked him a question. He stood up. When I saw not just his attractive, simple upper body form, but that elongated dimple on the middle of his stomach, I'm sure an audible but mild gasp of delight escaped my mouth.
Ben's bellybutton is my favorite kind. I've seen it called a "slit" online -- it's like a coin slot on a vending machine. It's vertical, and thin, and is quite dark at its center. It has a sort of mystery about it. It almost seems to say "ooooooooh" to me, begging me for a playful kiss (or to mash my lips) on top of it.
There is no visible body hair at his midsection. A closer look might reveal some very, very fine hairs, but at a regular glance, it is flawlessly hairless. His stomach has no moles, no creases, no blemishes of any kind -- it is smooth and lovely and beautiful.
And, consistent with other navels and stomachs, it is nakedly vulnerable. It is clearly soft, pliable. It is warm, inviting.
And navels being what they are, it's just a little bit naughty, too. Bellybuttons have a way of daring you to look at them, to steal looks at them, when perhaps you shouldn't. That's the fun of an exposed one -- it's a touch defiant, a touch risky. The bearer wants to see if you're going to look.
Ben caught me looking at his. There was a brief pause after I lobbed my question. He looked at me, then he looked down at his bellybutton. Almost imperceptibly, he spoke, softly, with a bit of a smile:
"You like my bellybutton?"
The question caught me off guard. Normally I try to shield what I call my stolen looks, thinking I'm clever enough not to be seen. But the situation we were in, this was almost literally in my face. Had I been kneeling it would have been.
I realized I'd been standing there, not answering his question. Then I managed to engage my brain, at last, and responded.
"Yes. Yes, it's very pretty."
He looked into my eyes, a gentle stare -- not an unkind one, nor a menacing one. He looked down at his bellybutton, then looked at me again.
"Does it turn you on?"
Wow. What was I supposed to say here? Of course it did, but could I actually say that? Could I say that to this guy I'd never seen before? Was it a trick? Would someone else walk in on us?
"Um..." I stammered.
"It's okay, it really is, if it does," he reassured me gently.
I paused. Decided to throw the dice. May never get another opportunity like this again, ever.
"Yes, I am very turned on by your bellybutton," I started. "Uh, you see... I have this thing where if I see a guy -- a
pretty
guy, mind you -- with his navel showing, I get..."
"Hard," he finished for me.
"Yes, hard," I admitted with a slight smile, almost thoroughly embarrassed.
He walked to the door of the shed, shut the door, and barred it, then walked back and stood before me for several moments.
"You have a navel fetish," he half-said, half-asked, slowly. His gaze was lovely, loving, and kind. My eyes were darting between his face and his bared midriff.
"Yes. Yes I do," I said softly.
His slight smile grew a little broader.
"So do I."
I exhaled audibly with a bit of a laugh. He did a half grin-laugh also.
Could this really be happening?
, I thought to myself. What are the odds?
To explain, navel fetishists in the male gay community, let alone humanity, represent a teeny-tiny percentage of civilization. Most gay males are all about the cock, the pecs, the buttocks. Rippled abs are about as close as they get to the navel, and even then it's an afterthought, moreso if it's pierced or tattooed.
I had not had the good fortune to find another such fetishist, even using personals, online "dating" apps, or hookup apps. The closest I ever got was to someone into bared abs -- not the same thing.
What seemed like an hour passed before he spoke again, but it really was only a few minutes. Time seemed to have stopped for me, in the presence of this incredible looker of a guy who I was very close to coming in front of, in spite of myself.
There was a light breeze outside. I could hear a few currents blowing through the corners of the shed. My breathing was heavier, but not louder than the wind.
"Wait here," he said and stepped to another part of the shed out of my view. My mind played and replayed what I had just experienced. I had no explanation, but I loved it.
When he returned and stood squarely before me, he was wearing a black half-shirt -- simple cotton -- which was hemmed about two inches above his bellybutton. He kept studying my eyes, watching my reaction -- almost like he was a scientist studying me. But clearly he was enjoying my gaze.
"It's...it's gorgeous," I said, trying not to overdo the gratefulness I had for this incredibly erotic moment. "Your navel is just beautiful."
He jerked his head in a brief aw-shucks kind of way. "Thanks," he smiled. "I like it, too."