Ever since I first gave in to hooking up with my boyfriend's brother, I've been feeling kind of guilty about the situation.
I've been seeing Drew for a couple of months now, and he's good to me. I don't think he ever found out about what I did with his brother, Wade. I don't want to hurt him--I hope he never finds out.
I hate to admit it, though, my sex life with Drew hasn't been the same ever since Wade fucked me. Drew isn't as well-endowed as his brother, so when we have sex I can't help but think about Wade. Is that messed up? It just doesn't feel the same. Wade's kind of a cocky asshole, but he has the package to back up his swagger. Wade's cock is girthier and longer than Drew's, and when he penetrated me I really felt it going beyond my prostate.
Fuck.
I know it's wrong, but thinking about it turns me on.
I've been spending a lot of time with Drew at his apartment, but it's annoying that I keep running into Wade while I'm there. I hate that they live together. When we see each other, Wade and I pretend like nothing ever happened so that Drew won't find out. But, every time I see Wade, I still remember. Cheating is wrong, I know, I've heard it all my life, it's not great, and I never thought I'd be the one doing it...but, deep down, part of me also thinks it was really, really hot. Maybe it's because of the adrenaline from the fear of getting caught, maybe it's the psychology of doing something I shouldn't, but remembering it makes me horny.
It's been a couple of weeks since the last time, and I thought everything might just go back to normal. I thought I might forget about it so that I wouldn't feel guilty anymore. I was wrong.
A couple nights ago, I was just climbing into bed with Drew to go to sleep when my phone buzzed. It was a text message from a phone number I didn't recognize. I looked over at Drew--his eyes were closed, so maybe he was already starting to fall asleep--before reading the message.
"It's Wade. Come to my room right now."
My heart started to beat faster. It was almost midnight, so it was obvious what Wade wanted. I hesitated. I knew I should've just ignored it. What if Drew woke up? It was too risky. I put my phone aside and laid down, but my thoughts were racing. There was no way I would be able to sleep like this.
I stole another glance at Drew. His eyes were still closed, so maybe he really was asleep. Maybe he wouldn't notice if I got up. If he did, I could just say that I needed to use the restroom. He'd believe me, right?
Mentally, I fidgeted. I shouldn't do it. But--what if it was something else? What if Wade wanted to talk about something entirely unrelated?
Seconds passed, but it felt like hours of agonizing.
I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted to know. Quietly, I crept out of bed, doing my best not to disturb my boyfriend, left the bedroom, closed the door behind me, and tiptoed to Wade's room on the other side of the apartment.
Wade's door was still open. He saw me as soon as I got there, pulled me inside, and locked his door behind us.