My Descent

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David was right, after everything that had happened all day long, I was his cocksucker. Here I was kneeling before him, kissing the amazing head, licking his shaft. Feeling it's heat again in my hand, it's amazing hardness yet smooth at the same time. I was his cocksucker, I needed it as much or more than David did. I was so happy to have him in my mouth, worshipping his cock as it should be. I tried to take my time, kissing it all over, rubbing it on my face, looking up at him hoping I was providing him pleasure. His balls, I remembered and lovingly kissed and licked his balls knowing they provided the cum that I now know I needed.

David was moaning, I was so hard and dripping pre cum into my underwear I could feel it, but somehow it all felt right to me. At that moment it felt so good to give in and to be where I needed to be. Kneeling before the owner of my desire and showing his cock the respect, it deserved. I became completely lost in pure lust, my only goal to pleasure him, to please his cock, to be the best cocksucker I could possibly be. I focused on taking him into my mouth as much as I could, stroking him as I sucked, wanting him to feel good.

I looked up at him and he was looking down and smiling.

He said, "You are such a greedy cocksucker, the look on your face when you saw it. You can't stop now can you? You are so hungry for my cock, it's taking over every thought in your mind. Stop sucking, look at me. Tell me what you are."

I looked up at him, "I am your cocksucker, no I can't stop thinking about it."

"Yes, you are and you do know there is no going back now, don't you? You have sucked me twice and thought of me nonstop, you are hooked. Just look at it, throbbing for you, dripping wet from your hungry mouth. Does it turn you on?"

I did look at it, I was mesmerized by it, the pleasure it was giving me, seeing it, holding it, kissing it. God help me, I loved his cock. "Yes, David it turns me on like nothing ever has, I need it I am realizing that."

"Yes, you do need it there is no mistaking that, what are you feeling right now?"

"I am feeling very turned on, very ashamed, very degraded. I'm on my knees kneeling for you because I want your cock so badly." I just needed it back in my mouth, I would say anything.

"Good boy, thank you for the honesty, what is it you want right now faggot?"

Faggot where the hell did that come from, I was angry at that comment.

"David you know I'm not a faggot, I admitted that I was a cocksucker for you but that's going too far."

"Perhaps you are right, I apologize. Let's just stop this altogether and forget it happened."

He started to put it away, taking it in his hand to put it back into his jeans, my mind was screaming please don't, I want it, I need it. "David, please don't. I want more, please I want to finish you."

'We have had this discussion already, say what you mean and ask as I told you to."

I said, "David please don't take your cock away, I want to suck you more, I want to suck you until you cum. I need it David please."

"You didn't include the word that started the problem, identifying what you are, try again."

"David please don't take your cock away, I want to suck you more, I want to suck you until you cum because I am a faggot."

"Yes, you are, now suck my cock like the faggot that you are."

I couldn't wait to get my mouth back on his cock, he was right, he was right about everything. I was a cocksucker and a faggot, and I needed his cock so desperately. I focused every ounce of my energy on pleasing him.

David repeated over and over, "I love having my own personal cocksucker, what a dream come true."

He was close, I could tell, his cock was swelling he was fucking my hungry mouth faster. I wanted it all, didn't want to miss a single drop. He erupted and I couldn't swallow fast enough, I had been craving it all day and now I was getting filled. My only thought being swallow every precious drop faggot. I continued to suck him, he will let me know when he is finished, that's how it should be. I pulled my mouth back and began licking and kissing his cock, cleaning it for him, I looked up and he was smiling.

He looked down at me and said, "Are you happy, you love it don't you?"

I looked up as I was kissing and licking and said, "yes I do."

David said, "tell me, tell me what is going through your faggot mind right now."

"How much I love how it feels, it's size, it's sexiness how much cum it gives me."

"You can't give it up, can you?"

'David, I have to, I can't do this I need to find a way to stop it."

"Stop touching my cock, we have some decisions to make."

I didn't want to, I wanted to keep kissing it, loving it but he put it away.

After he put it away, he sat back down and said "we need to work this out."

I got up to sit across from him.

He said, "no, sit in front of me, on the floor."

As I sat at his feet my mind was trying to grasp everything that had happened, everything that was going on.

He began, "I told you I would never force anything, it would be your choice and you would have to ask for it. My suggestion is that is how we move forward, twice you have sucked my cock and twice you have swallowed my seed. But I will not just be someone that you stop off and suck whenever you get the urge."

"That is not how this is going to work. You need to decide but I will caution you, I don't intend to wait forever on a decision."

I understood what he was saying, and I agreed with him. But nothing I was doing was working, I had tried to get it out of my mind, but I kept coming back to it, I was so confused. I needed to think and without any distractions.

"David what if I took a walk to clear my head, I will come back, and we will discuss it even more. Would you be okay with that, I don't want this to drag out for either of us."

David agreed and so I walked out of his apartment and started to walk, no place at all in mind as a destination, just clear my head and think.

I lost track of time as I was walking until my cell phone rang, it was Stacy. I hadn't even given her a thought since I had been at David's.

"Hi baby, did you have a good time?"

"It was okay, I was ready to get back quite a while ago to be honest, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it might be. What are you doing?"

"Remember David, the guy I have been tutoring?"

"I have been helping him this evening, other than that a pretty boring day."

"Oh okay, do you want to come over and just hang out for a little while?"

Just what I needed, spend some time with Stacy. That will definitely get my mind off of everything that is going on.

I replied, "I would love to, let me finish up with David and should be by within an hour."

"That works perfectly, it gives me time to put on the new top I bought today, I think you will like it, it's a little revealing, pick me up in an hour?"

"Yes baby, see you then."

Okay I had to get back to David's, wrap this up and get to Stacy's house. I walked briskly back to David's very unsure of what I was even going to say.

When I walked back in David said, "so how was the walk, did you clear your head?"

"David there is just so much, I really need more time to think it through."

David sat down, took a deep breath and started. "No, you don't, you have sucked my cock twice in a week. The look on your face every time you look at it is pure lust. You have admitted to me that you are a cocksucker and a faggot, you just haven't accepted it yet. Hell, you are checking out other guy's cocks."

I stopped him, "David I am not arguing with any of what you said, it all happened but it's not who I am. Stacy called, and I am going to see her."

David said, "I will give you an option, I am going to take my cock out, you are going to kneel in front of me. If you can do that for 5 minutes and gently stroke my cock, you walk out, and we never speak of it again. If you can't you stay and suck me again. Can you do that?"

This will work, I don't have to do anything, David just won't let me backslide. "Yes, David I can do that and finally put an end to this, great suggestion."

He said, "Come and kneel I will remove my cock for you and set my timer on my phone, and you simply stroke my cock for 5 minutes."

David removed his cock, and it was semi hard, only 5 minutes and the nightmare is finally over. I looked up at him, he looked down at me.

"Take it in your hand and begin stroking."

As soon as I touched his cock, I swear it twitched and almost immediately it started to swell, David was moaning.

He said, "I just can't believe how my cock responds to you, I get almost instantly hard at your touch. Just look at how hard you make me, I have told you I don't think I will ever find a better cocksucker."

"As usual he was right, his cock was steadily growing into magnificent, I never even gave it a thought that it was due to me. But I was having that effect it was growing so big in my hand, I again realized how hard I was as well."

"What a cocksucker, it's a shame for it to end. But I am a man of my word and in just a few minutes it will be over forever."

This is the last time, the last time I will ever touch this cock, ever see this cock. A sense of despair came over me, that reality was upsetting to me. God it felt so good in my hand, every thought I was having was to suck it, just once more it feels so good in my mouth. But Stacy was waiting and her sexy body, god she was beautiful.

David was moaning loudly, "What a cocksucker, it's all I can think about, how much you need it in your mouth, how sexy it looks in your mouth, what a faggot."

It's going away, it looks so good, feels so right, I won't ever touch it again. It was that moment that I started kissing and sucking his cock again.

David moaned, "you lasted almost 2 minutes faggot, what does that tell you, answer me?"

"I need it David, I love sucking you."

"I know you do, what are you, tell me."

"I am a cocksucker David, I'm a faggot for your cock."

"Yes, you are, your life just changed forever. I thought you were meeting Stacy?"

OMG I completely forgot, I will just call her and explain it took longer than I thought.

As I looked up David was taking pictures with his phone, pictures of me sucking him.

"What are you doing David?"

"Helping you, you won't have these struggles in the future I promise."

At that point in time all that really mattered was sucking him, getting his cum, everything else I would deal with later. So, I placed my focus back on his cock.

"When you finish cocksucker, I will explain everything."

I did exactly as he said, I sucked his cock with every ounce of energy I could muster, I wanted his cum, I needed his cum and I was enjoying every second. When he exploded, I made certain to catch every last drop in my mouth. When he finished I looked up at him.

He said, "Clean it like you know to do."

I did exactly that I licked every inch of his cock clean, taking pride in giving it what it deserved. I looked up at him and asked, "Why the pictures David?"

He just smiled and said, "We both know you are struggling with accepting what you are, in the future when you have doubt's I will simply share one of the pictures with you, I think that may help, don't you?"

I said, "I think I am starting to understand better, yes. I can't seem to resist it David."

"I know, I see that you stay where you are and continue to caress what you love as we talk."

I did as he said lovingly touching his cock as he talked to me.

"You see you have now sucked my cock 3 times, this time you had the option, but you couldn't last 5 minutes. You want to hide from what you feel but you can't, it's obvious. Do you realize you should have left to go see Stacy a while ago but you are still here rubbing my cock."

My phone had been vibrating, I'm sure it was Stacy texting me. I chose to ignore it, to continue sucking David.

I asked, "So what does it all mean David, what can I do."

"Are you willing to give up sucking my cock?"

"I don't think I can David."

He smiled and said, "I agree, I don't think you can either."

I just gazed at it as I was sitting there in front of him, gently caressing his cock and as always admiring its size even soft.

He continued, "It seems you have a problem and are being torn with your desires, your girlfriend is waiting on you, but you chose to suck my cock again. Do you see the issue?"

I did see exactly what he was saying, I just didn't want to leave it, I wanted it, I needed his cock.

"Yes David, what do I do?"

"You need to commit, accept who and what you are as well as what it is you desire. Trying to be someone you simply are not will eventually tear you apart. I would suggest that we cultivate what is going on with us and build upon the foundation that has begun."

"What do you mean by cultivate and building a foundation?"

"Look at yourself, kneeling in front of me, caressing my cock while your hot babe of a girlfriend is waiting on you and probably blowing up your phone. And what are you thinking about, I would guess how badly you want to kiss it again, am I right?"

He was right, I had been fighting the urge, I didn't understand any of it, but I did want to kiss it. I moved to do just that.

"Wait, from this moment on anything that has to do with my cock you ask permission. Do you understand?"

My own cock jumped, he was changing so much, but he was right it was his cock. He and his cock deserved respect. I meekly said, "Yes I understand."

"David may I please kiss your cock?"

"No, you may not, not until we set some ground rules. You understand the first rule, we just covered it. Rule number 2 you ask, with clarity for exactly what it is you want. Rule number 3, because it is my cock you will always kneel before me. This should get a basis for our relationship. Do you understand and agree to the rules?"

I simply said, "Yes David, I understand and agree."

He smiled and said, "Now you have a decision to make, respond to Stacy and either go meet her as you said you would or make an excuse and I will allow you to kiss my cock."

It was much later than I realized, by the time I drove to Stacy's we wouldn't have much time. I knew she would be disappointed but surely, she would understand. I looked at the text messages, she sounded almost desperate and honestly turned on. The last text was hurry baby, and I will give you what you loved the other night with hearts around it. I text her back and explained how late it was and that tomorrow would be better. I put my phone in my pocket and looked at David and said, "May I please kiss your magnificent cock?"

David smiled and said, "Absolutely but first tell me what you are."

"I am a cocksucker David, I am your cocksucker." I started kissing and licking the sole object of my arousal.