I've been divorced for almost 8 years now and while I still love women, I melt at the sight of cock.
I can't say I love men, I don't. But even twenty years ago while watching porn on VHS tapes I always wondered what it would be like to be the woman sucking that man's cock. I wanted to be that woman.
About 10 years ago, when my favorite online site had chat rooms, I slowly worked into connecting with a local doctor and discovered I loved sucking cock. Not sure if I wanted to swallow his load I asked him to hold my head in place so I would, and he did and I discovered I love to swallow.
Since then I've connected with about two new men a year and connecting with my doctor friend whenever possible. It would have been more men but my daughters live with me and I couldn't risk being caught with a man in my house, so it's been difficult and I am cautious about who I hook up with. Always married men who need head and nothing else.
I moved into my current home about five years ago. It's in a quiet suburb just north of Long Beach that reminds me of my hometown in the Midwest. Rows of old but well kept homes and friendly, and yes, very nosy neighbors.
The house a few doors down the block changed hands about three years ago. A retired man moved in and almost instantly the house became that one in every neighborhood, the house from hell. With unmowed weeds where the grass should be, dead flowerbeds, unwashed cars and dirty windows and that little dog in the back that barks If the wind blows.
My neighbor looks to be about 65 to 70 years old, is tall, lanky with shoulder length silver hair. Kind of a burned-out hippie of sorts. For the first year I only saw him get out of his van or his car, both older and both in need of a good cleaning.
Recently I've noticed him trying to take care of his yard by watering his weeds and he surprised me by saying hello. We talked a bit and I have since tried to be outgoing whenever I see him. But I never saw him with a woman or a man. He would drive off during the day for a few hours and return.
I was in one of those moods yesterday where I was craving cock. The kind of craving that gets me into trouble now and then.
It's odd, because when I was dating women I never settled for anyone less than an 8 in appearance. I was never without a date when I wanted one. When it comes to hooking up with men, I don't care what the man looks like. It's all about his cock. He could be 300 pounds, ugly, and a smoker (I don't smoke and hate it), and if he sent me a photo of a great looking cock that's all that mattered.
I was online on a men for men hook-up site to see if anyone was in my immediate area looking for a blow job. I prefer anonymous sex where I go the man's home or office, walk in and drop to my knees and get started. When it's over I leave.
I was in the chat room looking for others in Southern California and seemed to be seeing the same crowd as I always saw. Mostly gay men looking to get fresh ass more than anything. A blow job just wasn't enough for them.
I finally discovered a man whose profile indicated he was divorced, older, lives alone and was looking for a blow job. His profile indicated he was about 5 miles from me, so I started chatting with him.
He indicated he normally dates women but most women his age, 68, would never consider sucking cock, so he told me he occasionally hooks up on line with other men. He had seen my photos in my profile and was impressed. My pictures show me sucking a couple of different men's cocks at different times, but they don't show my face.
We both agreed to touch base with each other and over the next couple of weeks we continued to chat on line. He asked for a face picture and asked me where I lived. I gave him a the major cross streets, Bellflower and Del Amo, and he indicted he wasn't too far from me.
In exchange for my face picture I asked for a photo of him below the waist. I wasn't interested in what he looked like, just in what it was he was going to be feeding me. When he received my picture he told me I was a nice looking guy. I was impressed seeing his photo of a rock hard cock that he was just over six inches in length. A perfect mouthful.
He reminded me that it had been a couple of months since he had unloaded in another man's mouth and was looking forward to a possible hook up. Like me, he said he wasn't looking for love and if things worked out we could explore more later but for now just a simple blow job was what ne wanted.
I asked him, "When I walk in, where is the first place you want my mouth to go on your body?" I reminded him he would already be getting a blow job so I told him to make it memorable. Something he would be able to remember me by in the future, knowing "that special place" was the first place my mouth went on him.
He told me he wanted to me drop to my knees and start at his balls.
Mmmm, this was going to be fun. Next to sucking cock and swallowing, sucking balls is my favorite intimate action with a man.
From our previous chats he knew my oral desires and I had mentioned I always swallow, unless the man I'm with wants to paint my face. My favorite line is, "I will swallow anything your cock can deliver."
I also told him that since he liked my profile photos so much, he was welcome to use my phone to take a picture of me with his cock and balls while we were together. As I've done with past partners, I offered to send him copies of the photos. I had even mentioned in one of our chats that I would also like to have a movie of me sucking his balls or what ever he wanted to capture so we could both post it to our profiles on the men for men site.
In our earlier chats he had asked me what I had ever done with other men over the past few years. Had I ever rimmed a man (once, only once, because it is the second most humiliating thing a man can do to another man). He asked me if I had ever kissed a man. Again, once. The man I was with had caught me off guard and I wasn't comfortable with kissing. I only wanted to suck cock, and balls and swallow cum. I wasn't interested in kissing another man.
He asked me if I had ever tried anal. No, never but it's on my bucket list and I've been wanting to try it. I had a few rules before trying it. First, not on the first 'date.' Second, I had to swallow a man's cum before I would let him fuck me, not just suck his cock. Third, the first man who gets my ass has to be disease free because I wanted to make it very special for the two of us.
He asked me if I had ever tasted another man's or woman's piss. I had told him no, that receiving another man's piss would be the most humiliating thing one could ever do to me.
Had I ever been with more than one man. Not yet...
Had I ever been with a man of color, either black, Asian or Mexican. No, not yet but I was looking forward to men of all colors.
All of these questions had come over our past chats. I know I had asked him a few questions about his desires as well but because I had an open discussion with about five other men during this time frame I forgot what his overall desires were other than to unload into a talented mouth.
He sent me another photo of his cock. Again, beautiful, leaking precum with large hairy balls. I melted. I always melt when I see a nice cock. I asked for his address, which he gave me and told him I would jump in the shower first and be on my way in about 20 minutes.
I have a ritual that I always follow before hooking up with a guy. Nine times out of ten I end up chickening out and not going to meet the guy, so I have a file of hundreds of photos of beautiful women called the Make Me file. told myself if I saw three hot photos of women in stockings, or sucking balls or rimming, I would go. I give myself 6 chances. and if three of the six are super hot, it's a sign that this connection was meant to be.
I took my shower, jumped into a pair of shorts with no underwear, a Tshirt and loafers. I went to my computer and clicked on the Make Me file. The first photo was a nude picture of Doutzen Kroes, always hot. The second photo was a picture of another Victoria's Secret model with pierced nipples, wearing long dark stockings. The third picture was of a white woman licking a black man's ass... bingo, 3 out of 3. This was meant to be.