Most of my life, I have been interested in hooking up with a guy. Ever since my college years I wondered what it would be like to suck on a cock or even have one in my ass. I used to have to walk a lot back then to get anywhere and always fantasized about an older guy picking me up to give me a ride and then take me back to his place to experience my first time.
Fast forward to when I am 34 years old and married. It is 1997 and I still have never had any type of gay experience. I had talked on phone lines before with guys, but that never came close to working out. The internet had just started getting popular and I finally bought my first computer. I signed up for AOL, as most people did then, and was learning how to use it. I soon discovered that AOL had chat rooms for just about every interest, including gay and bisexual men. I got on and mostly observed at first and then started talking to a few guys. Nothing was really happening because most of them were pretty far away from my somewhat isolated area.
Eventually I started talking to a guy (Greg) about 20 years older than me that lived in Phoenix. He was a nurse who had come out to his wife and was still living with her. They were working on a separation and eventually a divorce, but were still getting along. As luck, or serendipity, would have it, my wife and I were planning a trip to Phoenix to visit her grandmother. At this point, the wheels were turning in my head. Would it be possible to pull this off and would I actually be able to go through with it?