Editor's note: this story contains scenes of incest or incest content.
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"That's the last box," I said, dropping a heavy carton of books onto the floor of my younger brother Darren's new room. He had just left university and moved back to the city, and I agreed he could live with me while he found his feet.
"Thanks Ed," he smiled, looking around his new space. I put a hand on his shoulder.
"You're going to be ok," I told him. "I'm here and I'll look out for you bro."
My brother smiles at me. "You make me sound all helpless. I'm fine, really. Now, go get a shower. You stink after all this heavy lifting," he grinned at me, aiming a playful punch at my arm.
"You dick!" I laughed, and left him to unpack.
I had a good look in the mirror as I got undressed. I wasn't doing too bad for nearly 30. I looked similar to my brother. We both had short buzzed dark hair and brown eyes, stubble and slim builds. I was more toned than Ed and maybe two inches taller, he looked a little more fresh-faced, being a bit more than 5 years younger than me.
There was one other major difference between us. I'm straight, my brother is gay. Not that you could tell with him. He's always been mister masculine, sports fan. He had a few girlfriends in school too. So when he came out to me earlier this year I was quite surprized.
Fast forward two months. Darren had a new job. He was loving it and enjoying life in the city. For me it was harder, my girlfriend had cheated on me and my work was stressing me out. The only thing I really enjoyed was hanging out with my brother in the evening or at the weekend. But even that was under threat. Darren had met someone special recently, which meant that our time together was much less than before. As happy as I was for Darren to have his first boyfriend, I admit that I also felt a bit jealous.
"I hope that Matt guy is treating you well, bro." I said, walking into my brother's room as he got ready for his date.
"He's a great guy Ed," my brother swooned. "Handsome, kind, funny... I'm really lucky. I think I'm falling in love."
"Don't go too quickly, Darren. I don't want you to end up with a broken heart." I was genuinely concerned, but my brother didn't really take it that way.
"What do you mean? Matt is great. I'm not a kid anymore, Ed. I'm 23. I think I know what I'm doing."
"This is your first boyfriend," I said. "You're excited. Just don't get carried away." I couldn't believe myself. I sounded like a parent. My brother obviously thought so too.
"I'm fine." I could hear the irritation in my brother's voice now. "You're not dad. I don't need a lecture."
"I'm not lecturing you," I protested. "I'm looking out for you."
"Maybe I don't need looking our for," my brother said. "I think you're upset because I'm not spending more time with you. Get a new girlfriend, Ed. You'll be happier if you're getting laid."
"Hey, that hurts! Honestly Darren, I didn't mean anything. I'll back off," I said apologetically. I sat on my brother's bed and watched him pick out a cologne.
"So when are you taking him to meet mom and dad?" I asked Darren, jokingly.
"Haha very funny," he smiled, throwing a pair of rolled-up socks at me. He paused, looking in the mirror and then turned and came to sit next to me in the bed. "Ed, can I, um, tell you something?"
"Sure," I said, slightly concerned at the seriousness of his tone. "Darren, is everything ok?"
"Oh! God, yes." Darren smiled. "It's just..." he paused, then continued "...I think I want Matt to be my first."
"Your what?" I said, then realized what he meant. "You're a virgin?"
"Uh, yeah," he admitted.
"Really?" I was genuinely shocked. "I can see why you maybe didn't do things with your girlfriends in school but really, nothing at college or with these guys you've been dating?"
Darren rubbed his hands on his jeans. "Uh, no. I've kissed guys, and girls actually, and I've done belong off and oral stuff with guys. But never...you know..." Darren blushed. I did too.
"Uh, well..." I stuttered, trying to think what to say. I had no idea how to give a sex talk to a dude. "Do you feel ready? It's a big deal bro. Lots of people want it to be special their first time."
"Yeah," he smiled, clearly thinking of Matt. "I am, Ed. I think it will be special."
"I'm happy for you bro. Go for it," I said encouragingly and smiled. "But be honest with Matt so he knows. I think he'd want to know." My brother nodded.
I decided to meet my friends for drinks that evening. Being completely honest with myself, I didn't really want to be home in an empty house. Knowing my brother was going to be having his first time that evening really affected me. It made me feel somehow more alone.
I actually had a good night out, managing to get pretty drunk. After I struck out with two girls, I decided my ego had enough of a bashing and I headed home. When I got in though, things seemed funny. There was a bit of a mess in the living room and I heard a muffled noise in Darren's room.
