Through my tears I watched the neon of the bar get brighter. She had left me, for good this time... All my attention had been focused on other things, including porn, and everything but her. I'm not angry with her, but with myself. That's why a few tequila shots will make me forget...
This was the alcoholic amnesia, the whole place filled with men who want to be alone and forget. No one looks at you, and you don't look at them. Everyone comes and goes after drinking away that someone special.
Tonight was tequila, straight up. About 7 shots and 3 beers make me feel happy and buzzed, but only enough.
I get in my car and start driving home. Just like any other drinking night, I'm horny and ready for action.
I detour to my favorite porn store to find a really dirty movie I haven't seen a million times. Maybe some F2M strapon movie, those had always made me wonder, and masturbate.
I browse each title, half buzzed and not sure what I want. I reach into my pocket and pull out... Woops! Tequila left me little to spend on porn. As I leave, the guy behind the counter tells me "Hey buddy. You can borrow any DVD and watch it for tokens of time.
What?! "How do I borrow a DVD?" I ask.
"It's easy enough. You take the movie you like into the booth, drop in some tokens, and watch the movie. Each token gets you three minutes."
"WOW!" I almost say like a kid at Christmas. "I'll take five dollars in tokens, and this Boss Bitches strapon DVD!"
He rolls his eyes as if to say 'Another horny man into the dirty stuff'. He's seen it all before his body language conveys.
I take the DVD into the booth, insert it into the slot laoder, and drop in one dollar in tokens. The screen jumps to life, and the opening credits eat one tokens worth.
Then I'm greeted by a woman stroking a long and thin strapon, and telling me how she will make her bitch love it. My cock twitches, and I lean in to watch more closely.
As I watch this womans 'cock' disappearing and reappearing from her bitches asshole, my cock grows and my mouth waters.
I drop my pants and rub my cock through my pantyhose... A caveat of my former relationship. If she was to wear pantyhose for me, I had to return the favor. It felt so good I kept it up. I push her memory down as I keep rubbing my growing cock.
Suddenly a knock on the wall tears my attention from the screen, my heart pounding.
I look, and there's a cock sticking through a hole in the wall!
"I must be drunker than I thought" I think, and my heart slows down, until I hear a muffled "How about some help" from the other side.
Am I dreaming? An alcoholic mirage? No. Another knock, harder this time.
My mind is racing almost as fast as my heart. I'm confused by the cock, and the anonymous orders being barked from the other side. I'm still hot from my movie still playing.