So lets start from the beginning: I've been married for 12 years. Don't get me wrong: i love Bridget. We have our ups and downs, like every couple. But I do love her. However, sex life isn't what it used to be. And for about a year now, I have been having these recurring cravings to be with men. I don't know where this comes from, or if it will go away. But it's there.
So to deal with these strong desires, I started watching gay porn. Most videos would involve a guy being fucked hard by a strong top. Others would feature guys being transformed into perfect sissies or sluts. All of those had one thing in common: a guy being used, and fucked in both holes.
As you may have guessed... that wasn't enough. So I started putting out random ads, looking to hear from guys. My ads would be very general: "Married, but craving cocks real bad. Let me know if you can help me with that."
I would exchange emails with some guys, sometimes chat, but would not go further. I was scared to make the move. Scared to leave her. And scared of what would come next. Until I received this email from Todd (not his real name).
"Hi Alex. I know how you feel. I've been there. I want you to know that you're not alone. I have many kinks, my friend. I'm a dominant top, but I'm also a good guy and could be a great mentor. Let me know if you want to talk about it." - Todd
So here I am... Reading that message over and over. Not knowing what to do. So I didn't respond right away. That night, after 2 glasses of wine, I changed my mind.
"Hi Todd. Thanks so much for your message. You seem super nice. ;) I'd love to meet."
I had written replies like that in the past, but had never went through. He replied right away.
"Find an excuse. Get of the house now. I mean it. Meet me at this address. Don't disappoint me."
I'm trembling... I don't know what to do. I'm already super hard and wet with pre. But I want to go. I drink a third glass of wine, and it's now clearer to me. I need to go through with this once and for all.
So I tell my wife that I'm going for a walk (which is true) and that I'm probably going to stop by the coffee shop around the corner to do a bit of reading. And I leave the house. His place is about a 10 minute walk from mine. My mind is racing. I turn around. But then take another street and head back into the right direction. I walk in front of his condo and see a light on in the living room. As I'm about to change my mind and start running away, I see the door open. "Come in buddy, it's cold out there!" So up the stairs I go.