My Oral Fantasy Becomes a Reality

I was more than halfway through fulfilling my fantasy of being a man's cockslut and cumslut five times. I had already been with my Alpha male three times to suck his cock, and on my last visit he also fucked me. I had two more service calls to make to complete my fantasy, although in my mind I was starting to think of the service calls more as "dates" with my stud. I was surprised at how much attention I paid to getting ready for our meetings, I had never done the same for dates with females. From the moment I left his house after our first meeting, I had thought about sucking his cock and drinking his cum every waking minute, or at least it seemed so.

I was torn between seeing him right away for our fourth date and making my fantasy last longer by delaying our next meeting. I sent him an email telling him I was available that coming Thursday and Saturday to come over and service his perfect cock. He wrote back that he was seeing someone else on Thursday but was available on Saturday morning to see me. I was both happy and sad, happy that I was going to see him on Saturday but sad that he was going to see someone else on Thursday. I was probably more jealous than sad to be truthful, I was jealous that some other guy got to suck his cock and drink his delicious cum. But I was happy that I would start out my weekend by doing the same.

I stayed home on Thursday and Friday nights working out to get more toned for my date with my Master on Saturday morning. Just a couple of weeks ago I would have been out trolling for pussy or a t-girl and a blow job, and now I was staying home lifting weights so I could give a man a blow job. I wasn't sure what was happening to me but I was enjoying it. The time I had spent servicing my stud on my three previous visits was easily the highlight of each week. Even without any tongue kisses, I felt more passion and lust for him than I had felt in a very long time. I was surprised at how much I wanted to please him and give my body to him for his use and pleasure. His pleasure was my pleasure tenfold. I was in my happy place when his cock was in my mouth and I was in Heaven when he fed me his life-giving sperm. I knew he had other cockbitches to service him, I also knew in my heart

that none of the other men could compete with my desire to please him and his cock. He was the sole recipient of all of my gay lust and desire and I was determined to win his approval as his favorite cockbitch.

I had a hard time sleeping Friday night as I couldn't wait for Saturday morning to come so I could make my Master come. This was going to be my first meeting with a man where crossdressing or even the thought of it was off the menu. During our third meeting I came to the realization that with my stud, it was a bigger turn on for both of us to be with him as a man. He wanted a man to service him, and I wanted to be that man. It was mentally and physically liberating to accept being a man with a man, just two men bonding in a special way, no panties required.

Our date was set for Saturday morning at 10:00 and I played it cool by waiting until 10:01 to knock on his door. I think I could have knocked on his door with my dick as it was rock hard in anticipation of sucking his dick. He greeted me at the door in his robe, ready for his cockbitch. I was still yearning for my first tongue kiss from my Alpha male, I wanted him to feel my my passion and adoration for him from my kisses, not just from sucking his cock. He closed the door behind me and gave me a hug which I held onto a little longer than he expected. When he gave me his usual light kiss I let my tongue slip through my lips to try to entice and encourage him to french kiss his horny cockbitch. I wanted to feel his tongue inside my mouth so much, almost as much as I wanted his cock in my mouth. Almost, but not quite as much. He didn't reciprocate with his tongue but he did hold the kiss longer than usual which made me happy.

I reached out and held his hand as we walked to his bedroom and I said "Master, I can't wait to have your perfect cock in my mouth, it's all I think about lately." He just smiled and said "You are doing a great job at being my cockbitch." I couldn't disagree with him, ever since his cock first passed my lips, I had only thought of him, his cock, his cum, and the tongue kisses that I hoped to get.

I quickly stripped down to just my cockring and leather collar and headed straight for his cock. I had hoped that I would be able to start with a soft cock and make it grow in my mouth, but my stud was already hard. I took that as a positive sign that my Alpha male was turned on by the thought of his adoring cockbitch servicing his cock. This was going to be my second to last time servicing my favorite cock of all time and I was determined to make it memorable for both of us.

I kissed, licked, sucked, and made love to his perfect cock with my mouth. I was totally focused on his pleasure as I once again got "lost in cock" and the only thing that mattered was my Master's perfect cock in my mouth and his pleasure. When my mouth got tired from sucking, I would rest by deep throating his cock and holding it in my mouth and flicking my tongue lightly. I thought this was such an incredible way to bond with a man, having his manhood buried deep in my mouth while I paid close attention to his breathing and moans to maximize his pleasure. I felt so connected to my stud. After resting for a few minutes with his cock buried deep in my mouth, I had never felt closer to another man as I engulfed his manhood and thought only about his pleasure. He truly was my Master and I was physically and emotionally delighted to be his devoted and adoring cockbitch. He wasn't my Master because he was making me submit to him, he was my Master because he was making me want to submit to him and please him. All I wanted was his pleasure, his approval, his cock, his cum, and hopefully his passionate wet kisses.

With those thoughts and feelings taking control of me, I resumed my quest of his delicious sperm and sucked his cock with gusto driven by my desire to please him and my appetitie for his addicting manjuice. My efforts were soon rewarded as he grabbed my head and fucked my mouth until he filled me up with his precious cum. The instant his sperm hit the taste buds on my tongue it sent pleasure waves throughout my body and brain. It also sent my m2m desires into overdrive and I felt as if my Alpha male's sperm upgraded me from bisexual to gay, and I was loving it.

There I was, laying in my Master's bed with his still hard cock in my mouth along with his cum and being more turned on than I could ever remember. I was feeling more gay than ever before, and it felt right. I was totally gay for him and his cock. I was amazed that his cock would stay hard for five minutes or so after he came, I was also very appreciative of that fact as my new favorite activity was sucking his cock, especially when I also had a mouthful of his cum.

After nursing every last drop of his cum out of his cock and savoring the taste, I swallowed my reward and climbed up next to my stud and thanked him. I think I embarrassed my Master with my gratitude and compliments, but I really did feel lucky that such a handsome stud would allow an inexperienced cockbitch like me to service his perfect cock. We cuddled some which was very nice and I snuck in a few kisses on his lips. I didn't want our fourth meeting to end, especially not after his sperm hitting my taste buds and acting like a booster shot to my gay desires.

We shared some more cuddles and pillow talk where I couldn't stop thanking him and professing my desire for him and his perfect cock. It was starting to feel like I should get up and leave, but instead of waiting until he walked me to the door to kiss his cock goodbye, I slid back down in bed to say my lustfull goodbye. Much to my surprise and ecstasy, my Master's cock got hard again and my lustfull goodbye became a long goodbye. My fantasy was to be a man's cockslut and cumsut five times, that was for five meetings, not five orgasms. There was nothing that was going to stop this horny and hungry cockbitch from trying to be fed twice! How hot would it be to go home with two loads of my Master's Alpha sperm swimming inside me? I was determined to find out. Even if I couldn't coax another hot load of cum out of him, I felt like I was in the bonus round with his cock in my mouth.

Just as I had hoped, my stud didn't disappoint me and after fifteen minutes of making love to his cock with my mouth, he jacked his cock off on my tongue and lips before he thrust his manhood deep in my mouth and fed me a second helping of his his lovejuice. For the second time that night I pleased my Master to the point of orgasm and was rewarded with his tasty and addictive delicacy that I saved and savored in my mouth before swallowing it. I didn't feel like I was playing the role of being his cockbitch, I felt like I was his cockbitch, and it felt just right.

I climbed back up to cuddle with my stud and praised him for being such a stud and thanked him for my apertif of hot cum. To me, it was an honor to suck his cock and drink his cum, I felt so lucky that he allowed me into his stable of cockbitches. He didn't walk me to the door this time, he just stayed in bed as I got dressed to leave. I walked over to the bed and gave him and his cock a goodbye kiss, I knew there was not going to be a third feeding. As I drove home I noticed that it wasn't even noon yet, and I marvelled at the thought of having two loads of my Master's sperm in my belly and the wonderful taste of his cum lingering on my unkissed tongue. I was happy that not only did I get a second feeding of his cum but I also negated the need for him to meet another one of his cockbitches. I couldn't blame his other cockbitches for wanting to be with him, I just wanted to be his favorite and get more than my fair share of his time and cum.

Being the grateful and appreciative cockbitch that I had become for him, I sent an email upon returning home thanking him for getting my weekend off to the best start I could imagine. I spent the next few hours watching gay porn and stroking myself to the edge of orgasm but not going over the edge. I wanted to stay hard and horny for my Master and his cock. Watching gay porn was new for me, my usual preference was t-girl porn with the t-girl getting sucked by a male or topping a male. As I watched the gay porn I would imagine he was the Top and I was the one sucking cock or being fucked. I would have chosen my Master and his perfect cock over any of the porn stars to submit to. My feelings for my stud were getting to be more than just sexual, I was developing my first man crush, and I liked it.

I checked my email Saturday afternoon and was thrilled to see a message in my inbox from my Alpha male. He said he enjoyed our morning meeting and asked if I could come over Sunday night to see him again. After the best possible start to the weekend, I was going to have the best possible end to the weekend. My first thought was that I would try to get two more loads of his hot cum out of his cock. My second thought wasn't quite as pleasant, this would be my fifth and final visit to fulfill my fantasy. I had enjoyed his company and being his cockbitch more and more with each visit and felt that we had great sexual energy and chemistry together. I was glad that I was going to complete my fantasy and at the same time sad that it was coming to a conclusion in about 24 hours.

I spent the next day thinking about how I could best please my Master on my final visit. I had already decided I would try to repeat the previous day's performance of being fed twice. The only thing I could think of was to spend as much time as possible with his perfect cock in my mouth, and maybe get that elusive tongue kiss that I so craved.

About two hours before our fifth and final date, to me it felt more like a date than a service call, I went for a quick run and then hit the weights hard for a while. I wanted my Alpha stud to feel like he was getting serviced by his own beta stud. I then showered and shaved, wanting my face to be as smooth as possible to service him and maybe even kiss him. A cockbitch can dream about kissing his Master. I knew he liked my dedication to his cock, maybe he wasn't attracted to me enough to give me a passionate wet kiss. Maybe I was just another cockbitch to him. By then I was already under his spell and rationalized it to myself that I was not yet worthy of my Alpha male's passion and needed to focus on his needs instead of my wants.

But being in the desperate situation that I was, I made up my mind that when the time was right, I was going to try to french kiss my man. I then got dressed as usual for our meetings, cockring, black thong, tight jeans, tight t-shirt, and leather collar. I'm not exactly sure why I dressed that way for him, he only saw me dressed for a minute or so when I was arriving or leaving. I probably thought my chosen outfit made me look and feel gay. But to be honest, it wasn't the clothes that made me feel gay, it was my desire for my Master's cock and cum and my developing crush on him that made me feel gay. My first male lover speculated that my interest in t-girls was my way of hiding my desires for men and their cocks behind a pair of panties. Now four years later I am dressing up in a thong and tight jeans to express my desires for men and their cocks.

I knocked at his door precisely at the arranged time of 8:00 pm, no use in trying to play it cool because I didn't want to miss out on one minute of being with my handsome stud. He greeted me at the door in his robe with our usual hug and kiss on the lips, and then I followed him to his bedroom. As I undressed he took off his robe and went to the bathroom to pee. Not wanting to miss out on anytime with my Alpha male and his cock, I followed him in. When he finished empting his bladder, I dropped to my knees to clean up his perfect cock. I wasn't sure if that was part of my duties as his cockbitch, but I was happy to have any excuse to wrap my lips around his cock. I may have been in the process of developing a crush on him personally, but I was already in love with his cock.

So far my gay explorations had revealed many surprises. The first surprise being how hot it was to kiss a man and have sex with a man, followed by the realization that with a man I am more of a bottom/pleaser, and then accepting that I don't need to involve crossdressing to be with a man. That being a man with a man is an incredible turn on and bonding experience. And then came the newest surprise, that the few drops of pee on my Master's cock were rather appetizing. It wasn't like I was hoping for a golden shower or anything like that, it just had a curiously appealing taste. But then again, maybe it was the presentation more than the flavor as I would probably love the taste of anything with his cock in my mouth.

With his now clean cock my stud took his place on his bed and I took my place between his legs, with his perfect cock in my mouth. I really felt that my cocksucking skills had improved with each subesquent visit. This was my most concentrated period of sucking cock that I had ever experienced, it was now the fifth time in less than four weeks that I had a cock in my mouth. In the past I might have sucked t-girl cock two or three times a year, some years more often, most years less often. This was also the first time I had sucked cock purely for the pleasure I could give to my lover without expecting to get sucked in return. I wasn't really being that unselfish though because I was getting an inordinate amount of pleasure from sucking his cock in addition to getting the most satisfying reward of hot Alpha male cum pumped into my mouth.

I did my best to use my new and improved cocksucking skills to please my Master. I thought my best attribute as his cockbitch was my focus on pleasing him, others may have more experience, nobody could have more lust and passion to please him. After ten to fifteen minutes of worshipping his perfect cock, my stud released my favorite liqiud refreshment into my mouth, his beyond belief delicious sperm. I held his cock and cum in my mouth as long as I could, I was hoping for one final feeding that night but I wasnt sure if he was up to it.

During our previous dates after swallowing his lovejuice I would climb up and lie next to him on the bed. This time, feeling emboldened and desperate at the same time, I climbed up directly over him and laid on top of him. I wanted him to feel how hard my cock was from servicing him and I really wanted to kiss my handsome Master. I leaned down and gave him a kiss on the lips, then another kiss, and then I ran my tongue along his lips. Then my dreams came true, my Alpha male responded with a light kiss followed immediately by the tongue kiss I had been waiting and hoping for. I moaned like the luckiest cockbitch ever and kissed him back with all my lust and desire. I couldn't believe my good fortune, with the taste of my man crush's sperm still on my tongue, his tongue was now on my tongue and I was in my own gay heaven.

The same feeling that I experienced when his sperm hit my taste buds came over me as we kissed. It was like a concentrated dose of gay desire and energy as I melted into his kisses. I felt like I was having a total body and brain orgasm as waves of pleasure flowed through my body and it felt like my brain was tingling. I had never felt that way before, I was convinced that my brain was making new synapses to recognize and respond to my gay and submissive desires. Whatever it was, it felt amazing and I didn't want it to stop. I had kissed a few other men before, but with my Master it was very different. When I kissed the other men, or more precisely let them kiss me, it was because of lust. When my Master and I kissed, it felt like romantic passionate love. For a while I completely forgot about his perfect cock, all I could think of was kissing him and cuddling with him. I felt like we were two long lost lovers who couldn't get enough of each other. He was the best looking man whom I had kissed, he was the best kisser, and he was my man crush. For the moment he wasn't my Master and I wasn't his cockbitch, we were boyfriends and lovers.

After about twenty minutes of my most memorable makeout session ever, I resumed my cockbitch role and headed back down to his cock to get my second helping of his delicious cum. I really loved having his tongue in my mouth and I really loved having his cock in my mouth. If I had to choose only one I might choose sucking his cock due to the tasty reward he would feed me. But it would be a difficult decision. Sucking his cock made me horny for his kisses while his kisses made me horny for his cock. To me that was the perfection definition of a win-win scenario.

He fed me a second load of his hot sperm and this time I only savored it in my mouth for a few minutes before swallowing it all, I wanted to get back to kissing him. My fantasy of being a man's cockslut and cumslut five times was now fulfilled, but I didn't feel fulfilled. When I began my quest to fulfill my fantasy, I had convinced myself that after five sessions of sucking a man's cock and drinking his cum that my curiosity would be satisfied and the novelty of it all would wear off and I would return to my old ways of pursuing females and t-girls. When I joined the gay website to find my fantasy partner, on my profile under Sexual Orientation I checked the box next to "Straight Curious."

Now after becoming my Master's cockbitch, getting addicted to his cock and cum, making out passionately and romatically with him, and developing my first man crush, I was curious why I would ever want to be "straight." I didn't care about labels such as straight, bi, or gay, I just loved being with him, servicing him, and kissing him. As for the novelty of servicing a man's cock wearing off after five sessions, I was totally wrong on that assumption. My desire to suck his cock and drink his cum did not wear off after five sessions, it increased exponentially with each subsequent visit. And now that he kissed me and I had a major crush on him, he had turned my fantasy into my new reality, at least with him.