Samuel is sexy and he damn knows it, showing off his banging body on social media and in the gym any chance that he gets. Oliver knows that he should not agree to let the vacant room of his apartment to a straight horny jock, exhibitionist on top of everything else. This might only create problems and frustrations... Right? Although, how could he resist?! Sam is WAY TOO HOT!
MY ROOMMATE IS WAY TOO HOT
Chapter 24: Just right
"You're really gonna leave?"
I was packing my stuff and Samuel was following me around the apartment.
"Why wouldn't I? The interview over the phone went very well, my sister is there, I don't have any commitment here."
"What about SuperSam?"
I chuckled.
"I can do this and operate the page from anywhere I want, that's the beauty of working online."
"You know it won't be the same, you won't have the time to focus on the comic book."
"You're aware that SuperSam's not real, right. He won't be offended."
"I am real!"
I stopped myself, mid-packing a pair of underwear.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, you have people here, friends!"
I sighed.
"Friends? Have you seen my social life?"
"You could meet people."
"See... That's my point! I should be meeting people and this is usually what you do when you move to another city."
"That's another continent. Europeans are crazy, you know."
I puffed.
"They're not allowed to carry guns in the streets, that sounds pretty sane to me."
"Okay. You do you, mate. I feel like it's pretty rushed but if that makes you happy..."
"Aren't you the one who constantly tells me to stop overthinking?"
Samuel gave up.
He was annoyed but he stopped pushing.
"That's right. Come here."
He extended his arms for a big hug.
I indulged.
For sure, I would miss him and his big warm arms. That was not the point, or rather, that was exactly the point.
How was I supposed to get over Samuel while I was living with him?
I admit, moving to the other side of the world might have been a slight overreaction but I missed my sister a lot, I felt like I was losing my shit since she had left, and the job opportunity was great.
Somehow, this proposal felt like a blessing.
I was not that crazy though, there would be a month trial period where I would be living with Jenna and her boyfriend before I would accept the full one-year contract.
But indeed, the departure had been decided very quickly and less than four days after my sister had called me, I was ready to go.
I had already said goodbye to Franck and the very few people I had in my life in Seattle.
I had even texted Kurtis, wishing him the best.
Despite being annoyed with my decision, Samuel agreed to drive me to the airport.
"Should I be looking for a roommate or should I wait for the end of the month?"
He asked when we were in the car.
"I cannot ask you to retain this apartment, you can propose the place to whoever."
"I was already planning to pay for the entire rent this month so I guess I could wait."
I smiled at him.
I wished he would not have acted this cute right before I left because he was only making things more difficult.
"I'll miss you, Sam. I don't want us to end in bad terms."
"We're not in bad terms."
He put his right hand on my thigh.
Did he really want me to ask him to turn around and go back to the apartment because I was this close to do it.
"I'm glad then. Maybe you can ask Kurt to move in? His new place didn't seem like a long-term solution."
He laughed.
"Really, man? You want Kurtis and I to live together."
"Why not?"
"You're weird, Oliver."
"Just state your piece, mate. You're supposed to be the straight-forward one between the two of us."
We were stopped at a red light.
Samuel turned his face towards me.
"You're telling me that you're in love with me and ten minutes later, you tell me that you're gonna leave the country."
I did not let him startle me.
"I don't see where the inconsistency lies there. I love someone and it's not reciprocal. What I'm supposed to do?"
"Fucking hell, Oliver! You're leaving because of me now?"
"It's not what I've said."
He sighed.
"I don't like this."
"Listen, Sam. This is nothing against you... I'm not mad, I'm... Frankly, I'm just being honest here."
"Would you have stayed if this was reciprocal, as you say?"
My heart skipped a beat but I tried to stay collected.
"Please, Sam, don't pretend you're in love with me just so I stay a little longer in Seattle."
He remained silent.
A long-ass silence.
How had we gotten to that point? Things used to be so light-hearted between Samuel and I.
"We're getting to the airport, when is your flight?"
"Two hours."
"You want me to hang out with you before departure?"
"Sam... I don't think it's a good idea. You might make me don't want to board the plane."
Once again, there was a silence.
"Okay. I'll just leave you here, then."
"You wanna know a funny story?" I asked him.
"Tell me."
"You talk in your sleep, you're aware of that. Right? Like, you moan, you grunt, but sometimes, you actually talk."
"Really? And what do I say?"
I put my own hand on his thigh.
"One night, you were saying that you loved me."
I tightened my grip; I could feel his cock so close to me.
Samuel swallowed his saliva.
To this day, I am not really sure why I chose this particular moment to share this. Samuel looked perplexed.
"Oh... That's pretty crazy."
"Yes. Crazy, indeed."
"We're here, man."
We parked and Samuel helped me get the luggage out of the car.
I became emotional all of the sudden.
Was I making a huge mistake? For once, I was really trying to do the right thing. Why did it feel so wrong?
"Gimme a hug, Sam."
He held me tight.
I could inhale his familiar scent one last time.
I had to hold back my tears.
"Good luck, roomie." He told me.
He kissed my forehead.
"Have fun, roomie!"
He hugged me again. It was hard to let go of each other.
Frankly, I had not exaggerated anything. I was deeply in love with this man, more in love than I had ever been in my life. All the more reason to flee.
"Good bye Oliver."
"Good by Sam."
Finally, we ended the embrace, and I left him behind to walk in the airport. Only there, I let the tears fall from my eyes.
Had we left things unsaid?
It was too late anyway.
Or was it?
I had registered my luggage and I was walking to my boarding gate when I had an immense urge to turn back.
Samuel had not told me everything, right?!
Or was I delusional? Still?