My first time with another man.
I have always considered myself straight, my entire life has been consumed by woman, I am attracted to them, I want them, I desire them and I have sex with them. But and this is big but, I have always had a fascination with cocks, ever since the first time I saw one as a teenager in the locker room.
I know as men we are not suppose to look at other guys cocks but I was fascinated by them. I of course being a heterosexual male put it out of my mind. I went of to college and had lots of sex with woman. Eventually I got married and had kids.
When the internet came into being I was obsessed with looking at porn, eventually I made my way to some gay sites and my curiosity was peeked. Here I could look from the comfort of my own home at all the cocks I wanted to without fear of being caught.
Then you start to fantasize about acting out, maybe I could hook up with someone without getting caught, someone anonymous, that doesn't know me, someone that would not shatter my entire world as I knew it. So this is the story of that encounter.
I joined several gay sites It seemed so simple yet I was scared to death to actually go through with it, it was one thing to fantasize about it, quite another to actually do it, could I really go and meet someone and have sex with them.
I, unlike many people, like to experience everything. If I was going to do this, I was not interested in just jacking off with a guy, or even just a blowjob, I wanted to experience it all, including getting fucked by a guy.
I put an ad out of what I wanted, and I also looked at other guys ads. It may sound bizarre but I wanted a good looking cock, long and cut with a nice mushroom head, in reality quite different then mine. You see, I am uncircumcised, I am very well endowed with a cock that is 7 inches in circumference at the base, very thick indeed, but not cut.
I eventually met a guy who was gay and was interested in meeting with me. He was a good looking guy, and from the picture he sent, a very nice looking cock. His ad stated he was a top, which was fine with me. I have fucked a lot of girls, I was ready to experience what it was like to get fucked.
We chatted on instant messaging and eventually talked on the phone. He was hot to meet with me but I was resisting. It was one thing to have a fantasy, quite another to actually act on it.
I wanted to meet with him, I wanted to suck his cock and get fucked by him and I masturbated to it many a nights imagining what it would be like. But to actually do it was another story. I wasn't prepared to shatter my heterosexual world. But to his credit Jim persisted. He kept begging me, he wanted to hook up in the worst way.
I finally agreed, and as the day approached the more nervous I became, could I actually go through with it. I was determined to, but would I lose my nerve at the last moment.
I made the long drive to his home, he lived about 45 minutes from my house, plenty of time to chicken out. But I didn't, as I approached his home I really got nervous.
I pulled into his drive way and looked around I was worried someone might see me going into his home, even though I didn't know anyone in his neighborhood, it was sheer terror, was I coming out of the closet. How could I be, I still liked woman, I was straight, maybe, slightly bi.
I knocked on the door and Jim answered, welcomed me in, and I took a real good look at him. Very good looking guy about 5foot ten to 6 feet tall about 200 pounds, short hair and did not act gay whatsoever, one of those guys you see in public maybe working out, never dreaming that guy is gay at all.