INTRODUCTION
Today was the day of my annual physical exam. Ordinarily, that would be of no concern. I am a healthy, 5 ' 10"; 180 pound, male with no significant bad habits that would influence my overall health. However, today, I had some anxiety associated with the exam and that stemmed from the previous year's physical.
The anxiety came from the fact that I think my physician, Dr. Joll, made a pass at me. Actually, it was a lot more than a simple pass. It happened so fast that it was hard for me to really believe that it happened at all. Consequently, I was unsure what to think or do about it.
At the end of the previous year's Digital Rectal Exam [DRE], as the doctor was withdrawing his finger, I felt him give me a couple of extra pokes while his finger was still inside my butt. A quick finger fuck if you will albeit on top of the longer virtual finger fuck that was the prostate exam. Complete disbelief overtook me. I was so shocked that I made no comment regarding it, disbelieving what I had felt.
I am not attracted to men. I have no homosexual desires. I don't want to kiss another male, visit a glory hole or seek out any contact, emotional or physical, with another man. However, the thought that my physician had a thing for me is both puzzling and intriguing.
This is the story of today's exam. I left it a changed man.
THE EXAMINATION
The physical had progressed normally. I had been prodded, measured, questioned and lectured. All that remained was the greasy glove.
The DRE began in the traditional manner. I stood against the exam table with my legs slightly spread apart. I was bent at the waist with my elbows resting on the table. The examination gown was open to the rear. My rear was open to the world. An index finger was inserted into my rectum and the doctor started doing whatever it is they do when they have a finger in your ass.
After many seconds of penetration I ask, "Is everything OK back there Doctor?"
"Everything appears to be normal Mr. Mills.
Many more seconds pass with his finger in my butt. "Is my prostate OK?" He continues the examination; index finger still searching. I then ask, "Do you feel something? Is it hemorrhoids?"
This results in more fingering. The fingering continues with no more words spoken between the two of us.
Eventually, Dr. Joll asks if I am having any discomfort with the exam. I am not, so my reply was "No. Everything feels normal."
After a few more seconds, I feel his middle finger join the index finger in my butt. I flinch with the intrusion. He asks, "And now?"
"Well, I feel full and a bit stretched but no pain."
The two fingers withdraw completely but are soon replaced with a middle finger and ring finger. He repeats, "And now?"
"Relief when the fingers left me but then much as before on their return. Full, stretched but with only minor discomfort. Is everything OK Dr. Joll?
I hear the rubber glove snap as it was removed. "Yes, Mr. Mills, I think everything is OK but based on the exam and on your responses, I think an extended exam is in order. This exam will be a bit more invasive as it uses a larger probe. You will feel some pressure and maybe even some discomfort. If you are OK with that we can get started. That's OK with you isn't it? I want you to commit to it before we start.
"I guess so. If you think it is the right thing to do then OK." My head was spinning. What were we talking about here, a flexible sigmoidoscopy? A colonoscopy?
I saw a condom land in front of me on the exam table. "I'll need your help with the probe preparation. Once the probe is completely extended, I will need you to put the condom on it. You agreed to the procedure so let's get started without any hesitation."
Taught to respect authority, I nod my consent, totally unable to voice an objection against my physician and his plans for examining me.
"I want you to follow my instructions. We will go slow so that we get this right. Initially, take two paper towels and put them on my exam stool seat. That will protect the seat from any lubricant left on your butt. Next, open the condom package but don't remove it yet. Place the condom where you can easily reach it. After the towels and condom are in place, take a seat on the stool and face me."
My heart was pounding. I could feel it pulse in my throat. This was almost like an out of body experience. It was happening but curiously unreal at the same time
"Let's start by unbuckling my belt." [The part of my brain screaming "stop and get out of here" was ignored.] I unbuckle his belt and left the ends supported by his belt loops.
"Now, lower my zipper." I grab his zipper with one hand and his pants with the other. I pull the zipper away from his body as I lower it.
"Unbutton my pants and lower them to the floor." [Oh god.]
"Now pull my boxers all the way down to the floor."
He was now fully exposed. I looked at his package and froze. It was impressive. Length, girth, sheen, circumcised foreskin, veins, ball sack, hair, all perfect. What stood out though was the ridge on his coronal glans. It was angular, sharp and hard. A real helmet. I stared. His cock was slowly stirring to life. I swallowed; my mouth watering.
"Now, let's see if we can get the probe extended. Take it in your hand."