The neighborhood Fourth of July picnic had been another happy day with 15 families participating. With the event over, Josh, one of my neighbors, invited me and several other folks who had been responsible for planning and making the day a success. We sat around his swimming pool and relaxed over a wine. Over time the group dwindled down to Josh, his wife Karen, and me. Karen excused herself to join a friend to watch fireworks.
Josh said to me, "Jim, how are you doing since your divorce. I know it was hard on you.
"Yes, it has been a tough year since our divorce was finalized. It was very strange today with Karen showed up at the picnic with her new husband, Matt Philps. She seemed to enjoy making me feel like a loser."
Josh replied, "Jim, you're not a loser. In the end you may get the last laugh and besides new opportunities are now available to you."
"Perhaps. Karen delighted in showing off her very large diamond wedding ring and the new red Mercedes convertible. I know that Philips has a lot more money than I do."
Josh replied, "Yes, he is a rich guy but neither of us would want to have earned money like he has. Matt is heavy into the making porn. Through various corporations he owns a number of strip clubs and is alleged to operate a network of prostitutes. In the end Karen may have become part of that dark business."
I replied, "I don't know. She is not my wife, but I still care for her."
"Since the divorce, have you started to look for a new relationship?"
"No, I haven't. It has been over nine months since we split, but no real urge to find someone."
Josh then asked, "What about your sex life? Any activity?"
A bit embarrassed I said, "Nothing there just some horny moments."
Josh replied, "I understand that. As frustrating as it might seem, you are free to seek whatever your want. Your fantasies can become reality. So enjoy your freedom.
I simply said, "I am not certain what I want."
Josh poured me another glass of wine and invited me to tour his home. We eventually ended up in his home gym.
"Jim, this is my favorite room. It is where I work off my frustrations. I have all the equipment and a great massage table. Sometimes Karen joins me, and I give her a very through massage. I really relax her."
He continued. "I learned massage skills while in college which paid for school with some money for travel and fun left over. When was the has time, you had a massage?"
"I never had one. There were a few body rubbing experiences when I was in college but nothing since then."
"Did you enjoy it? Where you naked?"
Persisting, "Did you respond sexually, I mean did you masturbate or have sex?"
I didn't want to answer except to say, "I was during my experimenting period.