This is the first installment of the Novak saga.
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I was nine years old and sharing a room with my twelve year old brother, Novak. I had woken up and was scared of a dream. I crawled into bed with Novak. He woke up and asked, "What are you doing Jason?" I replied, "I'm scared. Can I sleep with you?" He rolled over and went back to sleep. I took that as a yes and went to sleep. I had crawled into bed with Novak 2 or 3 times a week over the next seven years. I had grown so used to sharing not just a room but a bed with my brother I started just sleeping in his bed every night.
Now Novak was 20 and I was 18 and we slept together every night. Novak always slept in just boxers and I usually wore pajamas. He usually slept with an arm around me. It felt so good and safe to be sleeping there with my brother spooning me. I would fall asleep feeling all his body heat on me. He always smelled so good. I had grown to love my brother. Not just like a brother but I really wanted to make him happy and proud. I was completely in love with my brother.
One night I had woken up and Novak's arm wasn't there. He was lying on his back and breathing erratically. I could here movement.
I asked, "Novak, are you ok?"
He said, "Yeah, go back to sleep I just have an itch on my dick."
Novak always talked like an adult using words I knew I wasn't allowed to say. I knew I was very naive for my age. Novak used to say I would have a childlike disposition forever. He had grown so much since we had started sleeping together. He was now almost 6' tall. He was a "skater" too. Very slim with kind of shaggy brown hair and a pretty complexion for a 20 year old. If he wasn't home or mowing the lawn or something I would put on his clothes and pretend to be him. I especially liked putting on his underwear. His underwear made me feel grown up like him. He was really popular too. He had lots of friends and was gone a lot since he bought a car. He was a good guy though. He didn't do any drugs and he was always nice to me unlike some older brothers are to their annoying little brothers.
I asked, "Do you want me to scratch it for you?"
Novak said, "No, Jason just go to sleep and it isn't normal for you to scratch a guy's dick for him. Aren't you getting way to old to sleep with me anyway?"
This was the first time I ever heard my brother sound angry with me. I didn't like his tone. It frightened me to think that he wanted me to sleep in my own bed.
"Novak, I don't want to sleep in my bed. I like sleeping with you. You keep me warm and safe. I would do anything you wanted me to you know. If you really don't want me to sleep with you anymore I won't."
"No, Jason, you are fine sleeping with me. Just go to sleep."
I rolled away from him and he stayed on his back. About 15 minutes later I was still awake worrying that I had made him mad and I heard the movement again. I didn't want Novak to know I was still awake so I just laid there really quietly. About 5 or 6 minutes later the movement was a really fast rhythm and I heard Novak moan. I was worried that he had been scratching really hard and had made himself bleed or something. I still didn't say anything or move. I could hear Novak licking something and then I drifted into sleep.