It was another Friday night. Usually, on such nights, I camp out in front of the flat-screen, watching smut through my smart TV's connection to my computer.
Sometimes Olaf comes by. He's a guy I met at the local coffee place. He happened to be reading a book on sexual response -- looked like kind of a heavy read, but it had to be interesting. I asked him about it, and we just kind of hit it off -- that "click" factor thing that's hard to find in large cities. And when he's not otherwise occupied, we meet up at each others' apartments. Tonight, Olaf will be coming by -- it's my turn to play host.
He's always known I'm gay. I've always been comfortable with it, but I've never been a walking stereotype. It's for others, and we need such folks, but it's not for me. I'm more of a nerdy gay myself. I've never really been quite sure about him, but it hasn't mattered. We've mainly been social partners, not hookups.
And I have this sexual "thing" that very few other gays have -- at least I haven't met any that have it. There is just something about the sight of a cute guy with his bellybutton showing that I could just come to, almost in the moment. I love guys that sport croptops so their navels are showing on their nice, relatively flat stomachs.
When I'm masturbating, I'm almost always looking at shirtless guys, guys in croptops, or guys in buttoned-down shirts. Sometimes I get online and I'm lucky to find adult sites where guys aren't just showing their navels, they're coming all over them, or a partner is. Many a moment of the day or night finds me musing about nuzzling up to a guy's bared stomach.
And when I come to such visions of the stomach, nothing makes me come harder. I've shot semen so hard I've hit myself on my stomach, my upper chest, even my chin. Even though I've done it many times, it's always a bit of a surprise when that explosion of gray-white syrup happens.
There was a gentle knock at the door. "Come in," I call out. The door opens. It's Olaf. Olaf is a nice-looking guy. He has dark brown, almost black hair, short but not a crew-cut, the bangs are visible. His eyes are brown and have a touch of playfulness about them. They're framed by fairly thick eyebrows. No facial hair of any kind.
His build is sturdy, but not especially tall. I'd say he stands about 5-9. By build, he could be a wrestler, but not an especially thick one. His arms are sort of ample but not bulging with muscles. There's not much dark hair on his forearms or the back of his hands -- the only dark hair on him is really on his head.
"Hey," Olaf greets me.
"Hey, guy."
"Whatcha watchin'?"
"A special about gay sexual response. I found a video online and I'm streaming it through my computer. It's been pretty interesting. Cop a squat."
"Sure. Can I grab a drink? My throat's parched."
"Yeah, sure, you know where everything is."
My region of the country was in the midst of a relentless heat wave. There wasn't much to do outside during the day because, well, it was risky. In recent days I pretty much stayed inside, enjoying the AC in my ranch-style one-bedroom. Not the way I prefer to spend vacation days, but better that than collapse on a sidewalk.
Olaf came and sat next to me on my couch in front of the TV.
"So who produced this?" Olaf asked.
"Some university somewhere," I replied. I didn't check the listing closely. Just saw "gay sexual response" and that was good enough for me.
"Logical," Olaf said with a nod.
The part of the show I was watching was about male sexual response in general, but was moving into how gay men are a little different. It was pretty accurate -- it certainly matched my experience, largely.
"You identify with this?" Olaf said.
"Pretty much. I mean, I'm not off-the-leash out of control or anything, but I like a good orgasm like anyone else."
"Ditto."
"Do you, um..." I started cautiously, "get off often? Do you have anyone?"
"No," Olaf said, almost quietly, "I've never been able to attract anyone, for some reason. Maybe I'm sending signals wrong or something."
"Nah," I said back. "People are complicated. With all the things that make us different, it's a miracle anyone gets together at all."
"True, that."