The apartment was hushed, wrapped in low amber light. Oliver moved with care at the bar cart, the ice cubes clinking too loudly in the quiet. He tried not to rush -- measuring, stirring, twisting the orange peel just so -- but his hands weren't as steady as he wanted them to be. The mezcal burned faintly as it met the glass. Familiar. Comforting. A little dramatic, maybe, but he needed the ritual.
Behind him, he could feel Alexander. The weight of his silence had a shape to it -- heavy, sprawling, irritated. Oliver didn't have to look to know he was doing that thing when he leaned forward, elbows on his knees, eyes distant, jaw tight. Processing. Judging. Bracing.
Oliver's jaw ached from clenching, so he made himself exhale slowly and roll his shoulders back. The tank top stuck to his skin at the back, still damp from the shower. He hadn't changed out of the booty shorts. Part of him wondered if he should've -- if the timing made it all seem more calculated than it was. He hadn't meant to turn this into a performance. He just... hadn't wanted to feel restrained tonight.
The drink was done, but he didn't sip. He just held it, let the orange peel scent curl up around his nose, let the ice sweat against his palm.
He could hear the fan, the music, and the occasional car down on the street. But mostly, he could hear the silence between them. And inside it, the echo of his own voice from earlier. Calm. Measured. "What if we opened things up a little?" God, he'd tried so hard to sound casual. Like he hadn't been turning the idea over in his mind since the incident at the bar with Seth, of course, he didn't mention that part to his husband.
He'd known Alexander wouldn't leap into it. That wasn't how his husband operated. But he hadn't expected this exact kind of silence either -- the kind that didn't feel shocked or curious, just... tense. Like something in Alexander had pulled back.
Oliver took a slow sip, still not turning around.
Maybe he shouldn't have said anything. Or maybe he should've said it differently. But it was too late now. The idea had been spoken. And now it sat between them like a glass set too hard on the table -- not broken, but loud enough to change the air.
Oliver finally turned, glass in hand. Alexander hadn't moved much -- still folded forward, fingers laced, gaze trained on the floor -- but something in his shoulders had softened. Slightly. The silence between them wasn't quite the same. Less brittle. More like a held breath.
Oliver crossed the room, slow steps on bare feet, and sat on the edge of the armchair across from him. Not too close. He rested the drink on the side table, untouched now. It had done its job. He cleared his throat once, softly.
Alexander looked up at him. His blue eyes were guarded, tired. He looked like someone trying to understand the rules of a game he hadn't agreed to play.
For a long moment, neither of them spoke. But then Alexander shifted, leaned back against the couch. Not relaxed -- just... not entirely closed off.
"I need time," Alexander had said. Oliver felt his heart jump with a little excitement but also fear, knowing they didn't have much time before Trevor would arrive.
Oliver leaned forward in the armchair, forearms on his thighs, eyes tracking every flicker across Alexander's face. He could feel his own heart beating in his throat.
"I wasn't trying to ambush you," Oliver said quietly. "I know it probably felt that way."
Alexander's arms were crossed now. Defensive. Hurt. He wasn't yelling, which somehow felt worse. "Yeah. It did."
Oliver nodded, absorbing it. Letting the weight of it settle. "I should've waited. Or brought it up a different way."
Silence again. Then, after a long breath, "Why now?"
Oliver looked down at his hands, then back up at his husband. "Because I've been thinking about it for a long time." That was a lie. He had only really thought about it for about two weeks since he had his first taste of dick in years. "And not because I'm not happy with you," he added quickly. "It's not about missing anything... It's not about us being broken."
"But it kind of sounds like it is," Alexander said. His voice was still low, but sharper now. "You don't just want to go out and sleep with someone if everything's fine."
"It's not about replacing anything," Oliver said, trying to stay calm, to be clear. "It's about... expansion. Curiosity. Wanting more experience without destroying what we have."
"So what would it even look like? If we tried this?"
Oliver blinked. He hadn't expected the question--not yet--but it gave him hope. And he needed hope, or he was going to have to text the Adonis from the gym to not come over any time soon.
"We'd talk about rules," he said carefully. "Boundaries. What's okay, what's not? Full transparency. And maybe it doesn't mean sex right away. Maybe it's just... seeing what feels possible. Together."
Alexander gave a tired half-laugh. "This isn't what I pictured when I got married."
"Me either," Oliver said. "But I still want you. That hasn't changed." He took a breath. It was now or never, "And in the name of transparency, I invited someone over."
The words landed like a dropped pin in a silent room.
Alexander blinked. Once. Twice.
"From the gym," Oliver added, voice low, steady. "Today. When I was there."
A sharp stillness rippled through Alexander's body. His jaw tightened again, and he sat upright, suddenly very awake.
"You what?"
Oliver didn't flinch, but his stomach twisted. "I didn't want to lie about it. I didn't do anything with him. I just... asked. In case. I thought if we talked more tonight and--if it went well--maybe..."
Alexander stood, just enough to pace one step, then stopped himself. His hands were on his hips, head tilted back slightly like he was searching the ceiling for a better version of this moment.
"Oliver, we just talked about it. I haven't even had time to process it," he said finally. His voice cracked at the edge, not angry exactly -- but shocked, disoriented. "You should've warned me. Before it got real. Before time was a person."
Oliver nodded slowly. He deserved that. Maybe more... but when his eyes fell on Trevor, one of the gym regulars today, he couldn't help it. Trevor was always at the gym and was always fine as hell, but after his weekend at Cleo's bar, getting railed by a complete stranger time was suddenly a tingle and excitement in the air, and Trevor helped ignite that tingle all the more.
"I'm sorry," he said. "I just didn't want it to be all talk forever. I didn't expect you to say yes, or... I don't know. I just needed to know it could actually happen. That I could do it."
A knock at the door. Sharp. Two raps, no hesitation.
Oliver's breath hitched before he could stop it. His eyes darted to the clock -- right on time. Of course. He'd said eight. His fingers flexed against his thighs.
Alexander stiffened.
The change in the room was immediate, electric--like the temperature had dropped. The weight of their conversation hung suspended, suddenly dwarfed by the fact that someone else was really him.