Omg! so Embarrassing but Hot!

Soooo this is a true story and it was really a life changing moment. Basically what happened is i fucked up! I've been with my girlfriend for close to 6 years now and our relationships been great! i mean we've had our fair share of ups n downs but all in all shes a good woman. I never really thought too much into ME being GAY! but even before her Ive been linking with guys on the D low and although live a completely straight life! i really get down and dirty when it comes to other men! So i'm going to talk about the few situations that have happened which have led for me and my girlfriend to part ways ( well we have a kid so isn't that simple).

I'll start with the "Video" she found! So there was this guy i had met a few times. I had posted an Ad about a rent boy who offered head and was open to doing more for rewards and this one guy had met with me about three to four times and always paid me well one day wanted to Record a video of me giving him head! so at first i got really shy and all. I mean I had only just started looking up at him and into his eyes and was only just starting to feel comfortable with him.

This guy was clearly a Top and he just some how always got his way with me. So as I was giving him head and moaning about him not to film me he kept grabbing my head and pulling me up so id have to look at him. He was being veerryy dominant with me and saying some nasty things to me in the video which my girlfriend actually found funny! so he kept saying to me that's it Boy! your being such a good slut for me mmm look at you! your a faggot aye? and as I was sucking his dick I was just looking at up at the Bright camera flash and moaning ( kind of agreeing but also not really if you get what I mean! so as the video proceeds I started really getting into it. Tryin look all cute for the camera so I done this sexy squat like woman do and started bobbing on his head and moaning to him! He fucked my face and then pulled his dick out and bust a load on my cheek. It felt really nice tbh and I kinda just blocked out that he was filming. He ended up wiping the cum with his dick as much as he could into my mouth and because I hadn't cum yet for some stupid reason I gulped his cum (On video) and started sucking his dick again!

He then asked me to cum! so giving him head was really turning me on and shortly after I cummed all over myself! He never touched my dick or anything it was really all me and on the video I really DID look like the bottom bitch! So as soon as I cum reality really hit me and I asked him could he please delete the video! Honestly I begged him and he said that he would after watching it! I left there really unsure about the video and just hoped he'd do what he said! Well about three hours later I received in my email THE VIDEO! I didn't have a chance to watch it but I panicked and changed all my passwords reset my phone etc in hope my girl would never find it! About a month later, I got around to watching it and yea I must admit it was a really cute video I sure did play the part for him! so I thought I had deleted whatever copy I had but because he was the sender somehow it always remained in my google drive as an attached document. Well about two years go by, right and I really never thought of it again (Much) but one day when my girl was using my computer I had left my emails logged in as I always do and somehow someway it was just right there! and she played it!

I was in the lounge with my kid when she played it and she went and grabbed headphones so she could have a real good listen! that was when I wondered what she was watching and that's when i saw the video! My girlfriend was watching a video of her man on his knees getting face fucked by some random guy and I was obeying his every word! So I was try n shut the laptop off trying my best to grab it away from her but she fought with all her might and said F You, I deserve to see this. Is this whats become of us! So your a faggot huh is this what you do! I really wasn't ready to have this conversation but no excuse or anything could get me out of this!

We proceeded to fight and scream and I really just let her have it. I had to leave the house and I didn't even get a chance to grab anything at all I just had to go! It was really the most embarrassing single thing that's ever happened to me! I became really suicidal over the next few weeks as I was bombarded with abuse. Every word under the sun. Faggot, homo, cock sucker, little bitch, peasant and anything you could imagine. It was really hard to take! So as time went by I had to take care of parent duties still and we continued seeing each other it really felt like she had let it go! For a while she had but every time we'd fight she'd bring it back up and I couldn't deny it!

One of the worst feelings was knowing that video actually inspired me to start filming some of my own and I actually had one of me giving head to THREE guys and in that video one of them held my head and slid his dick into my cheek as another one filmed one of the guys peeling my legs back and fucking me in the ass! This video had to be rid of earth I could never let her see it! I deleted any trace of these videos I could but over time she knows that not only have I sucked some dick but I've most likely taken a couple dicks up the ass as well. This was something I heavily deny though but yes I did! We are still on good terms even after a couple other incidents, I'll talk about in other stories but in all honesty as embarrassing as it was I'm glad we got through it and I never ended m life over the shame! hmmmm

i hope you enjoyed my story.