I grew up in a Pentecostal family in Holland, but deled in silence with liking men. I get married with a woman and to my sadness after seven years I got divorced. Though I had not gone to church for a while, I started to go to one, in Amsterdam. I was already in my thirties. I did a bit of work out, but was too tiny to my taste. I liked to meet other people. The pastor was an American mature dad in his fifties, married with a woman who turned out to be sick most of the time.
The pastor welcomed me after the sermon while we were all drinking coffee and chatting with each other. The pastor, Garry, was tall, and broad-shouldered, piercing blue eyes, clean-cut and a marine-crew cut hair, amazingly strong jawlines. He started a conversation with me and in short, I told him my story. I started getting a bit emotional and the Garry asked me if I would like to talk a bit more during the week. I did and we made an appointment at my place. I invited him for a dinner.
That Tuesday I prepared a nice dinner and tried not to think in an erotic way of the pastor. However, I was so attracted to him. The door rang, I opened, and there he stood, in a nice suit & tie. He had a broad smile and I was melting down.