It is shocking how much your life can change in less than a week. It wasn't even that long really. Now I had more secrets and the love and respect of my father that I didn't realize I'd been craving my entire life.
I stood in the room where all of the groomsmen had gathered to support my younger brother. Today was his big day. He was going to marry the love of his life. I don't personally believe in true love, but he did and I was extremely happy for him.
Four other men I barely knew were in the room along with my brother, me, and our dad. Dad looked happier than I had ever seen him before and I wondered if that had more to do with seeing his youngest son getting married or the fact that he's been railing his oldest son and getting the sex he's been craving.
He looked at me and a knowing look passed between us. Nothing that anyone else would have picked up on, but something secret between two lovers that meant everything -- at least to me.
Okay, maybe I do believe in true love after all?
"Christian. I can't thank you enough for coming. Dad told me about all of your troubles." Mark, my younger brother, said wrapping me in a tight hug. I doubted Dad had told him everything.
"I wouldn't miss it for the world." I said looking over his shoulder and into my Dad's eyes. I saw the lustful desire there. Did he dream of both of his boys worshipping the cock we came from?
Mark was five years younger than I am, but he's the same height that I am. We look a lot alike taking most of our physical features from our father. However, other that physical attributes we couldn't be more different.
He is responsible, has a great career, and getting married to the love of his life today. I was the complete opposite. At twenty-seven years old I had struggles of real income, nothing in the way of a stable career or even the prospects of one, and there was no way I could marry the love of my life.
Mark released me as Dad kept staring at me as if he knew what I was thinking.
"Okay guys. I think we have to go get pictures taken." Mark said turning to everyone else in the room.
Four of Mark's best friends all followed him out of the room. When they were gone Dad came over to me and hugged me tightly. I felt everything in that embrace. I know it is stupid to think, but it was like all of the wrecked pieces of my life were somehow coming back together.
Only my father had the power to pull me back together like this. He just held me and I fought tears. His hand ran up and down my back slowly. Love and comfort. Everything I'd ever wanted.
"I love you, Chris."
"I love you too, Dad." I said as he slowly pulled back.
"Oh, don't look at me like that." He smiled. I took a deep breath to try and compose myself.
"Sorry." I laughed.
"We have a lot to discuss, but everything's changed." He said what I had been thinking.
"I know." I said looking down feeling the painful break coming. I knew it was coming. That ultimate rejection. He was my father, he was married to my mother, and I couldn't be the reason their marriage of more than thirty years ended.
"Stop that." He said pulling my face up to look at him. "You're moving home and we're going to figure this out together."