We stood naked before a large mirror in his bathroom. I studied my reflection while Richard ran hot water over a washcloth. Moments earlier we had given each other handjobs as we sat on his living room couch. I had willingly stroked a man's erection and allowed him to do the same for me.
I didn't appear any different in the mirror but I knew I had suddenly changed. The feel of his hand caressing my private parts had been wonderful, but mostly I thought of the heat and firmness of his hard cock in my own hand.
Richard ran the washcloth over my belly and thighs then cleaned my cock and balls. It didn't bother me at all that I was allowing a man free access to my crotch. He rinsed the washcloth then gave it to me. I performed the same service for him.
A thrill ran up and down my spine when his penis became semi-erect in my hands. I was amazed at his recuperative powers. And, I was flattered by his response to my touches.
I must be queer if I enjoy giving a man a hard-on, I thought to myself.
We walked hand-in-hand back to the living room. Richard slipped into his boxers while I pulled up my little string bikini briefs. He went and poured two glasses of wine then returned to me. We sat close together on the couch.
"I hope you enjoyed that as much as I did," he said softly.
"Maybe more...." I answered.
There was a nagging question on my mind that I felt that if I asked it, the answer could very well change my life. I took a large swallow of wine then turned and faced Richard.
"Where do we go from here?" I asked my voice barely above a whisper.
"That is entirely up to you," he answered, "...but first, I want you to tell me why you moved hereâwhy did you leave your home and move a thousand miles to a city where you have no familyâand as far as I knowâI am your only friend here. What was so important that you risked changing everything in your life? What were you hoping to find here?"
I took another gulp of wine then said: "I don't know why I moved hereâall I know is I needed to make a change in my life...I wasn't happy back thereâsomething was missing."
"It occurred to you that you might be gay, and you were too embarrassed or ashamed to explore that possibility living near your family and friends?" he asked.
"I don't knowâmaybe..." I answered.
There was silence while we sipped our wine then I finally said: "All I know is I'm happy when I'm with youâI have a good time with youâI really like youâI like you a lot...." my voice trailed off.
He looked into my eyes and asked: "What do you want to do about that? What do you want to do about 'us'?"
I took a deep breath and softly replied, "I guess...I want you to teach meâI want you to show me how...."
"You want me to 'teach' you how to be gay?" he asked.
My face turned red. "I, ah...yes, I think so...."
His face softened with a slight smile across his lips. "That's not something I can 'teach' youâyou either prefer the company of men or you don'tâyou'd rather have sex with men or you don't...if you decide that you want to have sex with men more than womenâyes, I can teach you thatâI can definitely teach you how to sexually satisfy a man, but first you have to know who you are."
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"In the gay world there are generally two types of guysâthere are 'tops' and there are 'bottoms'âhave you heard those words before?"
"Yes, I've heard about that," I answered.
"So what do those words mean?" he asked.
He wasn't going to make this easy for me, I thought.
"Well, ah...I think it means the 'bottom' submits to the 'top'...."
"Submits? How does he 'submit' to the 'top'?"
My face was beet red now but I was determined to answer his question.
"The 'bottom' gets more pleasure from, ah...'servicing' the 'top' than being the one who is 'serviced'...."
"Johnny, I'm not trying to intentionally embarrass you, but if you decide this is what you wantâyou have to know and understand what you're getting yourself into...are you saying you want to be my 'boy'âare you telling me you want me to teach you how to sexually satisfy my penis with your handsâyour mouthâand your bottom? Is this what you want?"
I took another deep breath then said "Yesâthis is what I wantâI want to be your 'boy'...."
I was visibly trembling. He put his arm around me and pulled me close to him. I loved the warmth coming from his body.
"You've made me a very, very happy man, Johnny...since the day we met I've wanted youâI wanted to hold and caress youâI wanted to kiss you and feel your hands and lips on my body--I hoped and prayed you would want to be my 'boy'âI am so attracted to youâI have to tell you one thing though..."
"Sure, Richard," I said, "...what is it?"
"If you decide you want to be my 'boy'âI will expect and demand total obedience from youâyou will perform whatever task or duty I demand without questionâyou will learn how to sexually satisfy meâwherever and whenever I ask...in return, I will provide you with comfort, safety, security and most importantlyâlove...we could have a very nice life together...nowâJohnny, do you want to be my 'boy'?"
Tears of happiness welled in my eyes. I threw my arms around him and gazed into his beautiful eyes.
"Yes, Richard, I want to be your 'boy'âplease let me be your 'boy'...."
We kissed and hugged. Our lips melded into one. I'd never been happier in my life.
"Take off your shorts and sit on my lap," he ordered.
"Yes, Richard," I obeyed. I was naked sitting on his lap.
We kissed--his lips were warm and soft. Our kisses were passionateâunhurried.
"Reach inside my shorts and caress me," he said.
"Yes, Richard."
My small hand slid inside the waistband and found his hard cock. I ran my hand up and down his cock and balls. My own penis became hard and Richard squeezed it then released it. We smiled at one another.
"Your own pleasure is up to meâfrom now on I will decide when you can orgasm," he said, "Do you understand?"
"Yes, RichardâI understand," I said as my hand continued stroking his intimate flesh.
I felt his penis pulsate in my hand. Richard traced a finger around my lips.
"It's time we further your education," he smiled.