I remember one day very vividly from when Josh and I were eighteen year old seniors in high school.
I saw a flash of taut blond speed out of the corner of my eye and felt the familiar tingle below my navel. The warmth of his passing reminded me with sinking clarity of how lonely I was even as his scent drifted back to me. Josh sped past while we both made laps around the track and I watched as his muscles contracted and expanded with fluid grace.
Gym was always a kind of torture. I concentrated on diminishing my physical reaction even as I slowed, reasoning that double laps were better than getting caught with a hard-on.
Whistled to a stop, my breathing regained some normalcy as we gathered to sit around coach Feldman. A short man with a spare tire, he wiped vicarious sweat from his balding head. As he vented about how what a lazy out of shape generation we were I scooted just a little closer to Josh and caught his eye. He looked back at the coach and made a face and glanced back at me to see my reaction. I grinned and gamely rolled my eyes too. We weren’t the best of friends but lately we’d been cutting up together in gym class at coach Feldmans expense and my growing delight. I mean my physically growing delight. Something which only Josh could see as we sat at the back of the class, but something which was unmistakable in my tight gym shorts. I was sitting cross-legged and brought my arms in over my crotch and bent forward slightly as I felt the crimson creep up my face. He caught my eye and only grinned a little wider.
“What the hell?” I thought in confusion as coaches droning ceased and we were dismissed to the showers. I lagged behind the others naturally, thinking I’d better skip the showers today and head right for home as this was last period and we were allowed to do that.
Just as I reached the door to the locker room I felt something grip the back of my jock strap and pull me backwards. Hot breath seared into my ear and the back of my neck. “Not so fast Jason!”
Josh spun me around so fast and pinned my arms against the locker room door I had no time to react or struggle even if I had wanted to. We were alone in the hall. His breath came short and ragged as his warm brown eyes bore into mine. He must have seen first the fear and then the acceptance and submission, because just as that peace came over me, that willingness to take whatever he might want to do to me, he released me. A confident smile, almost a sneer, spread across his face as he held me with his eyes. “OK.” he said at last, his voice both gentle and dominant “meet me at my place in half an hour.” His right hand groped my crotch roughly as I stepped aside. He pulled the door to the locker room open and breezed past me as if nothing had happened.
I had a raging boner and I’d be damned if I was going into that locker room with it, so I turned on my heel and headed for my street locker, snagged my books and high-tailed it home faster than a bitch in heat.
It took me fifteen minutes to fly past my dog and little brother and in and out of the shower. I dressed in simple shorts and a tank top. It took exactly another fifteen to walk to Josh’s house. In that time I replayed the events of the last hour and a half over and over. By the time I had reached his house I was sure Josh and most of the rest of the senior boys were gonna beat my ass into oblivion. But Josh’s voice snaked around my thinking brain and just compelled me to keep walking. He had given me an order of sorts hadn’t he? The memory of his scent and sweat plastered collar length blond hair as well as his brief grip on my boiling nuts brought me at last to his door.
“Took you long enough.” he said smugly by way of greeting. I just stared dumbly as I took in what I saw framed in the screen door to his vacationing parents two story. There he stood in all his shirtless glory. Tan muscles and silken hair dripping as if he’d just stepped from the shower, which no doubt he had. His damp blue boxers seemed a small boy scout tent as he looked down to where he’d seen my eyes travel.
He just grinned in that way of his, opened the screen door and roughly pulled me inside. “You’re not the only one who can throw wood you know.” he said as we resumed our position of half an hour earlier. Now I don’t mind being pinned to a wall by a sexy blond athlete, especially one I’d had the hots for all through high school, but I needed some answers.