Ben was taking Billy on an Oriental carpet on the deck of the captain's cabin in the
Black Falcon
. The position he was using was one that Billy knew was the Kamasutra position of the Reed, Billy's pelvis arched up to Ben's crotch from shoulders and feet on the floor, with Ben between his thighs and with a strong arm under Billy's waist, holding him up in an arch, as he was fucking him. Billy was sure that Ben would have no idea what the position was calledâhe would just do it as was naturalâand because he knew this had been one of Billy's favorite positions.
Just as he wouldn't have known they were in the position of the Reed, Ben wouldn't know that he transitioned to a position known as the Stem, where he was on his knees but otherwise upright, and Billy was spread before him, weight on his shoulders, legs running up Ben's torso, and Billy pelvis lifted, with his buttocks resting on where Ben's thighs met his groin, while Ben mined his channel. This was a deep penetration position and Billy was panting hard and groaning deeply.
Ben had slapped Billy around a bit at the beginning of their lovemaking. Trying hard to remember, Billy wondered if Ben had been this physical with him two years earlier when they had sex in Boston. The more he thought about it, the more he thought that was so. This was when Billy wanted to feel controlled and punished for the guilt of having sex with men. That was so long ago. He no longer felt the guilt. He now was looking for more affection.
He wondered if he had felt the pain of the blows in the same way then that he felt them now. Somehow he didn't think so.
He also wondered if Ben would fall into the seven-position routine that Mahmud had thought was natural and right. It would have both amazed and amused Billy to have such a different lover from Mahmud vindicate Mahmud's beliefs in that regard. He wondered if he should tell Ben that his positions had names for them already.
This was the fourth position Billy could identifyâand that Ben probably couldn'tâthat just came naturally to Ben as a dominating position. It had started with Ben close behind Billy as they stood, naked, in the center of the cabinâthe black mastiff, Freedom, watching them warily from his bed in the far corner of the cabin. Ben had one arm slung across Billy's chest, with his hand cupping Billy's chin and pulling the young man's head painfully. The fingers of his other hand were roughly forcing themselves between Billy's buttocks cheeks, and nearly lifting Billy off of the deck with the strength of upward thrusts. Billy knew there was no art in this; this just was where Billy was standing when Ben could not control his desires and needs anymore. He had invited Billy to the bed, but had not let Billy take a step in that direction before he was upon himâand inside him.
Billy was groaning and whimpering. It had been some months since he'd been worked like this. Mahmud had been too sophisticated in his sexual techniques to be this rough. When he was sufficiently aroused, Ben released the chin hold and commanded that Billy bend over, while standing, at the waist and grab his ankles. With his hands locked on either side of Billy's waist where the buttocks dipped in the waist, Ben thrust inside him brutally and began the fuck.
As he did so, he had growled. "I know this is a way you like it."
Billy almost murmured that this was known to Mahmud as the position of the Wolfâalthough Mahmud took it at a more sedate paceâbut Ben would not have understood, and this was not a moment for talk. This had transitioned into what Billy knew as the Greyhound, which was just a sophisticated word for what Ben also knew it to be: the doggy fuck.
Billy was not to know if Ben was headed for seven positions, or even knew of some of the more refined and athletic ones. During the fourth position, the Stem, Ben had arched over Billy's torso and his strong hands had taken a choke hold on Billy's throat. One, two, three chokes, in concert with three rhythmic short strokes inside Billy's ass with Ben's cock. Then a release on the throat, but a deep thrust of the cock. Repeated.
Billy gasped for air after the third release of the chokehold, only to find himself swallowing air and sputtering at the feel of the cock thrusting deep inside him.
After the third cycle, Billy coughed and rolled away from Ben. He lay there, gasping for several seconds, his hands going to his bruised throat. "I'm sorry, I can't," he mumbled, giving Ben a plaintive look.
Ben's own look was one of shock and disappointment. "You say you can't? You could before. You begged for punishment. You couldn't come without it. You've changed."
"I hadn't realized. But I think you're rightâthat I've changed. It's been some time since . . ."
"Two years. Can you have changed that much in two years?"
"I think when you're younger, you change more quickly . . . maybe?" Billy could tell that he wasn't saying something that Ben wanted to hear.
"I must always have been older then, because I haven't changed."
That statement was like a thunder clap in the cabin, the sensation of the closing of a heavy, oaken door.
After a few minutes, Ben rose from the floor and walked over to a stand with a flask of wine on it and a few crystal glasses. The top of the stand was configured to keep the glasses in place despite the rolling of the ship, which was sailing, Ben had said, west toward Algiers, where the foreign pirates were gathering until something was settled in Tripoli.
He poured two glasses of wine and walked over and handed one to Billy. Then he tossed off the wine in the other glass and returned to the stand for a refill. Without looking at Billy, he said, "You are probably very tired. You may rest on the bed."