I had a weird relationship with my str8 cousin. Brian was beautiful, perfect, rowed for the Leander High school rowing team in beautiful Austin, Texas. Thanks to the rowing, he had the perfect body, and by the time we were both 18, he was taking out a different girl every weekend, it seemed. Popular, smart, goodlooking? I hated him. I loved him.
What's worse than a perfect cousin? Well, my parents adored him. He was the outgoing six foot tall golden child who played sports and winked at them. I was the quiet emo kid who stayed in his bedroom all the time.
"Why can't you be more like Brian?" They'd ask. "Why don't you try out for the rowing team? Why don't you go doubling dating with him?"
I didn't tell my parents that I was figuring out I was gay. No, that would kill them.
But guess how Brian found out?
One night, I was in my room working on my laptop. I had my headset on and I had finished my homework, so I moved on to my favorite porn site. Gay porn, of course.
And of course, I was so into the video that I absently had my hand down my pants, squeezing my dick rhythmically. In the back of my mind, I knew it was too early in the evening to jack-off - I saved that for after bedtime - but I was still lying in bed with my hands down my shorts.
Suddenly, there's this huge laugh, "OH MY FUCKING WORD! HOLY SHIT!!" And it's Brian who had decided to sneak into my room. Not only did he catch me literally dick in hand, but he got a look at what I was watching.
"Geez, dude, you're queer!" He laughed.
"Please, Brian, don't say anything. Please!" I begged him.
He continued to laugh and I waved frantically at him to be quiet as my parents and his parents were probably sitting in the backyard.
Brian continued to laugh. "Wait until I tell your folks."
"Please, Brian! Don't" I was panicking as he headed toward my bedroom door. But as quick as that, he rolled his eyes up at the ceiling, deep in thought.
"Dude, I'm staying over tonight. We'll talk later!" Then Brian walked out, leaving me to peek out my bedroom window to spy on him as he sat outside with our folks. He waved at me a couple times and seemed to enjoy chatting with them. I agonized for a couple hours until his folks went home.
Then...
Brian was back in my room. "Our folks said I could stay."
"Did you say anything?" I watched him pull out a t-shirt from my drawers. Then he casually undressed and pointed at my bed.
"I own you, dude. You're going to do what I say."
"Geez, Brian, did you say anything to them?"
"Nope." Brian climbed into my bed and turned off the lights. I sat in the dark puzzled.
There was a motion under the blankets. Brian whispered to me, "Hey, jack me off."
I wasn't sure if what I heard was real.
"Dude, I said, jack me off."
"Brian, what the fuck? We're cousins."