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After the intense night of camming that saw me forcefully invading my tight ass with all five of my own fingers, I seriously cut back on my exposure. It was necessary for my fragile psyche. I was going overboard and it was too much to handle, too fast (pun intended).
Looking back, Rodrigo's easy influence over me was disconcerting. I trusted him too quickly and would make allowances thinking, "I owed him." So, I took a step back from being his cam model.
Plus, it was just the start of my semester at college and I started to have a lot to do. My studies consumed a huge chunk of time and classes had me busy. Don't get me wrong, I was still hooking up with girls, still partying, and still enjoying myself. It was college, after all. But, I couldn't spend every waking minute in front of my computer, naked. Right? Sure.
I did not have it all figured out. I was still hounded by conflicting thoughts. I had gone so far in the summer. From showing off my naked body online to a blowjob from Rodrigo. And now, I had gone from anal virgin to "Five Finger Phillip" in just two nights. I was worried.
Despite the trepidation, I was destined to betray myself. In my private time, as soon as I got horny, my thoughts would drift back to the pleasure of stretching my newly insatiable asshole. And, one or two (or more) of my fingers would be forced into my ass each week. My cock would get hard, my pre-cum would dribble off the tip of my throbbing cock, and I would moan into my pillow as I finger fucked my aching hole.
After some time, my fingers began to bore me and I started eyeing a long cylindrical plastic spray tube.
This plastic spray tube had a length of 8 inches (20.32 centimeters). And, it was 2 inches (5.08 centimeters) wide. That is SIGNIFICANTLY bigger than an average cock. But, I didn't acknowledge that.
My eyes were clearly bigger than my stomach. Or, they were bigger than my asshole. Right? Sure.
Sensing a pattern, I am sure you can guess what happened next. Inevitably, the big plastic spray tube ended up encased in a condom, coated in lube, and pushed deep into my ass. It stretched me and filled me to my capacity. And, I loved it.
Ludicrously, I was still attempting rationalization. I thought, "This isn't gay. I'm by myself. It's all for fun. Nothing has happened." Totally logical.
This logic was extremely prevalent on the night I sat on the plastic bottle, slamming it into my wanting asshole, causing my cock to spray cum all over my desk. Afterward, I discovered my door had been unlocked the entire time. It was like I was asking to get caught.
I realize the flawed logic I was using to mask losing my "straightness" was enabling my depravity. I could do anything and explain it away with a simple wave of the hand. It was a free pass. It was a very dangerous line to walk. I held on to this naughtiness and exploration until I was fit to boil.
I started to lose control. You see, Rodrigo was in my head, again. There was something about him: his persuasiveness, how naughty he made me feel, his attraction to me, and so on. But, there was something else.
He would text. I would blush. He would message. I would get hard. He would say he missed my cam shows. I would feel my blood surge.
It was fine. Right? Sure. Just a bit of fun. No worries.
Well, one night I was face-down ass-up on my bed (positively drooling) as I forcefully pistoned the plastic bottle in and out of my slick lubed asshole. And, as my orgasm was building, an image drifted into my head. I fantasized about Rodrigo's absolutely rock hard cock.
I had never seen it, he had never shared it, but I had briefly felt its thickness rub against my thigh the night he sucked my cock. I felt myself salivate and my own cock started throbbing. At that, I slammed the bottle deep into my hole and came incredibly hard. I collapsed on my bed. Once I recovered, I felt a pang of guilt, but I brushed it off, again.
My mental bargaining continued, until I came across something I couldn't reason away completely.
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The semester progressed. I forced myself to focus on other things. Finally, Thanksgiving break rolled around. I went home. I got to see friends and family. I went out. I drank and partied.
On Black Friday, I came home late into the night a bit tipsy and horny as hell, honestly.
As I closed and locked my bedroom door, I booted up my computer. In no time, I was browsing any amateur-based image board I could find so I could gawk at the hot bodies of naked girls and stroke myself.
Out of the blue, an instant message popped up on my screen.
"Hey Boy, how's it hanging?"
It was Summer. I had met her a couple semesters ago at a dance party and was drawn to her from the get-go. She was tall, blonde, slender, and an incredible dancer. But, we had never found the right timing to start seriously seeing each other. This semester, she was studying abroad and wouldn't be back until after the New Year. And, being abroad, she only had instant messaging at her disposal (which will become important).
"Hey Girl, it's hanging just fine, thank you for your concern. Just a bit weighty and to the left," I replied wittily.
"I'll be the judge of that," she returned saucily.
"Will you now?" I inquired.
"Of course, seeing is believing. When we danced, I felt something that might be considered impressive. But, I have to see it to believe it," she challenged.
"My Lady, is that any way to speak to a gentleman?" I rebutted.
"No, but you aren't a gentleman, now are you?" she asked, hypothetically.
I blushed. She might have had me there. If only she knew what I had been up to.
Our flirting continued and I got so absorbed that I almost forgot there was a collection of naked pictures displayed on my browser. I started wondering if Summer had a collection of her own naked selfies. But, I kept that thought to myself and just relentlessly teased her. She fought back with some sassy comments. It was fun. She was enjoying herself and we started to make plans to meet up the following semester.
I was glad to have found another chat partner to keep me out of Rodrigo's clutches. Obviously, he was completely to blame for my struggle, right? Sure.