Editor's note: This short story is true. It's quite an experiment in finding oneself. The further escalation worried me, but I went along with it. My name is Kevin and I'm learning.
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Driving to the motel, I constantly asked myself if I knew what I was doing. I had accomplished what I set out to do. Sucking cock was a taboo, but exciting; now I could put it to bed. It's not gay, it's a mature sex that allows one to experiment, uninhibited. Sex with a woman is still on the top of my list and I can do a respectable job at satisfying her. But I discovered I'm good at giving head and I enjoy it.
This third visit was unnecessary. I agreed to it only because I had a fun time doing it. Don't get me wrong, anyone would tell me that's bullshit, you just can't get enough cock. Maybe, I don't think too much about it. Even though I learned a lot, I was still new to it and understood it makes me vulnerable. When you give head, make sure you can control the situation.
Honestly, I was worried I might not be able to manage his advances. I had cleaned myself out the last time I met with Troy although nothing happened. I did the same this time. I was afraid if something went down, either consensual or forced, I should at least be clean. I didn't want to be embarrassed. It was not my intension, but I knew I was tempting fate.
I pulled into the parking lot, parked the car, and went up to Troy's room. When the elevator opened, opposite his room, I felt strange and hesitated to knock. I was sure Troy thought of me as some cocksucker that can't stop taking any available dick in his mouth. All this experimental stuff is most likely a load of crap to him. I kept up my wise guy ways to convince him otherwise, but who knows. Part of the fun is being submissive. I understood the fun part but wondered about the attitude of the man I'm submitting too. The feelings get complicated.
I knocked on the door and it opened immediately. Troy stood there in his hotel bathrobe.
"Hey, come in."
"Hi Troy, how is it going," I said trying to sound manly.
"I'll be better after you take care of me," he said with a grin.
"I guess I shouldn't waste time then."
I smiled and walked over to the bed. I casually started to strip while Troy stood nearby watching me. I felt like a striptease. I was down to my shorts and bent over to step out of them; that gave Troy a chance to grab my ass.
"Careful Troy, you know how I feel."
I turned my head to look at him, but he kept feeling me up, paying no attention to what I had just said.
"Damn it Troy, what the hell?"
I was at the foot of the bed, facing the bed where I laid my clothes. I couldn't move easily, as my knees were up against the base board. Troy was relentless and let his hand take full advantage of the situation. He had skillfully, worked his fingers down the crack of my ass and found my anus. That's when I felt his finger trying to enter me.
Troy only partially inserted his finger when I twisted to the left and turned around. Troy lost his hold, and his finger came out of me. I stood there glaring at him, he stood there with a smug smile on his face.
"You knew that wasn't going to happen, why?" I asked pissed.
"Because I like ass, I'd like to fuck yours. I figured if I got my finger in you, you might like it."
I didn't answer him, and he continued, "Kevin, you told me you enjoyed sucking cock to experience the feeling. I assumed you were open to new things, even though you object."
"And getting fucked in the ass is one of those new feelings?" I asked sarcastically.
"Think about it, wouldn't it be exciting to go all the way?"
That is a line I'd use on a girl. What the hell. This guy is trying for a fuck session and not giving up. I stood there naked without any clue as to how to get the night back under control.
Troy dropped his robe on the floor, standing there with a hardon and looking anxious.
"Now that's what I'm here for," I said, "Come on, lay down and I'll get to work on you." I hoped it would take his mind off of other things. If I get him to cum, I'll be able to finish this night.
"Kevin, what are you doing?"
"What, I came here to give you a blowjob."
"Wait a minute, wait," Troy said as he came up close to me.
"Listen, just hear me out. I love how you give head, don't get me wrong, but I would really like a shot at that ass of yours."
"I'm not going to let you fuck me Troy, I told you that from the beginning."
Rubbing his chin, Troy said, "Look, why don't we try something. You haven't gotten off, right? Well, that's not fair is it. Let's do this, we can lay down together and jerk each other off, see how it feels."
"I don't see a problem with that, but why change things. I take care of myself."
Laying down on the bed, Troy said rather softly, "come on, let's do it."
Troy patted the side of bed next to him. I felt weird. I wasn't looking for any other action and laying down with him felt strange, more like a couple then just a quick blow.
"Come on, Kev, trust me."
Cautiously, I laid down next to him, my apprehension showing. My cock wasn't hard when he took hold of it. He, of course, was hard as a rock when I took hold of his. It was easy working his meat. Troy, on the other hand, was trying to get me hard. He would alternate between pulling my dick and massaging my balls.
"Nervous?" He asked.
"No, just unsure," I replied.
I wanted to get into it, so with my free hand I reach for my crotch and met his hand working me. Another guy's hand on my dick was getting me hard. We continued until my dick was erect.
"Feels good?" Troy ask.
"Of course," I blurted out, although I didn't want too; I was on alert.
"Yeah, it does, doesn't it? Just go with it."
