Editor's note: Short and sweet, my own memories, fantasies, tales I've heard, they are part of these short stories. I call them snaps for snapshots, a quick and easy read. This is another short story I remember from my past. Sorry if this one is a bit longer, it just went that way.
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My name is Jimmy, and I can't understand why I'm so damn horny.
I just came home from work, tired and restless, but horny. I can't figure it out. I live by myself in a small, renovated attic in an older neighborhood; it suits me fine. There is a narrow driveway between each home, so they are close together. The front door opens to a small six by six enclosed vestibule with one door for downstairs and one for my apartment. The steps that go up are narrow and steep with two hanging light bulbs, giving light to the stairs.
I am single since my divorce three years earlier; I've just not been able to adjust. I'm not looking for the 'right' girl, I don't want any part of marriage. But sex is a problem and I have always needed a great deal of it.
I keep to myself, but did meet two of my neighbors, one is a contractor and the other has something to do with computers, both are married. I'm more familiar with the contractor as he is usually working around the house when I get home. His name is Anthony, (he doesn't like Tony), and he is in his early fifties. We chatted once and awhile, but most times, I had to listen to him complain about married life and sex, mostly lack thereof.
My sexual proclivity has me confused. I love the girls, everything about them drives me crazy, but there are few opportunities when the need arises. I'm in my mid-thirties, with a respectable job and not half bad looking. I work out and have nice body, so I shouldn't have any problems, right?
Not right. I don't like the dating scene. It's too much work. If you take a girl out for a month, with luck, you can make out. By the time you end up in bed, you have another problem. If you are good at making love, she will fall in love with you, now you are really in trouble.
Adding to my confusion is a fetish I have. I guess you could call it that. I love being naked. Every time I take my clothes off, I at once get horny. My cheeks flush with the thought of exposing myself. I am, however, timid, and afraid of the feeling. If I lost control, I would get into trouble and who knows what would happen then.
I'll strip and walk around the apartment, passing my shade-less windows imagining a voyeur being out there, if they saw me, so what, it isn't my fault. When I couldn't take it any longer, I would Lay down, and start feeling myself up, from nipples to ass and rub one out. Sometimes it works better than others.
Once and a while, I will lube up my asshole and let my fingers stimulate me. Other times, I insert a small dildo while jerking off.
Tonight though, I plan to take a shower, have a bite to eat and relax. I undress, laying my pants and shirt neatly on the bed. I remove my underwear and throw it in the wash basket. Already I'm feeling an ache, but I push the feeling out of my mind and stepped into the shower.
I intended to make something to eat after, but I could not ignore how horny I was. I touched my cock, which was getting hard, and ran my hand over my ass as I walked around the apartment. I had a longing to take a risk, it was strong this time. I stood by the window but could see no one walking around. To turn up the heat, I decided to try something new.
No one was home downstairs, so there was a negligible risk if I walked down the stairs. Don't judge me, but the thought of walking down those stairs, naked, was really making me hot. I picked up a tube of lube and, jerking off, descended the stairs. When I got to the bottom, my insides were shaking.
I reached my front door. Would I dare to open it?
Glass windows enclosed the vestibule. There are plants around the small room, which helped block the windows, however, there are open areas with a clear view inside. I thought I could get away with it, the risk turning me on.
I opened the door and step into the vestibule. What a rush, my cock was rock hard, and every stroke increased my need to bust. I stood there jerking off only four feet from the sidewalk. The hotter I got the braver I became. I checked the street and saw it was empty, but I didn't have the courage to step out the front door and stand on the front steps.
But did I want too.
I felt my cock twitching as I shivered from the heat inside me. Backing up to an available window, I pressed my ass against it. Dangerous? Sure, but it pushed me to the limit. I lubed myself up, took my finger and pushed it up my ass, as far in as I could.
There I stood on weak legs, jerking off, fingering my asshole in broad daylight. I was in ecstasy.
Knock, Knock, knock.
What the hell. Startled, I backed up into one of the plants. The front storm door was louvered, so there was no clear view, but I could see the man standing there; it was Anthony.
I made no attempt to answer the door and stood still with a hopeful thought he didn't see me and didn't know I was there. But how could I get to my door and upstairs without him seeing me? Now, suddenly, I wanted to hide.
That is when Anthony said, "Jim, I know you're in there."
Do you know how your insides shiver when you realize you're in trouble? I remained silent.
"I know you're naked and jerking off, I watched your ass though the window, it was hot."
Now I knew I had to reply, it was my only way out, so I hoped.
"Come on Anthony, leave me alone. It's just a weak moment."
"Don't be embarrassed, we're both guys. Open up."
"Leave me alone, I'm going upstairs, just forget it and go home."
"Well, I could, but don't you want to see how it looked from out here?"
"No, how could I see it, just leave, please."
"I have a video on my phone."
Damn, did I fuck up. I didn't notice him; he must have stood out of sight and took a video of me in action. What was I going to do?
"What the hell, Anthony, you can't do that. I'll sue you for invasion of privacy."
"No you won't, you know that would be too public. You and I both know you wouldn't want that."
"What exactly do you want?"
"Just open the door."
"Or what? You know I'm naked, I can't do that."
"Some of the guys on this block, would get a kick out of the video."
As trapped as I was, I could still make a dash for the stairs. But what about the video, if he showed it around, I would have to move out. I couldn't make up my mind. What the hell was I going to do. If I let him in, I'd feel like a complete fool, standing there with nothing on.
"Hey, what about it Jim, don't be embarrassed, open up."
I stood there, still holding my cock, which refused to go soft, and funny enough, still had my finger up my ass. I just froze.
I knew I had no choice, I had to open the door. I reached out and, with a loud click, flipped the lock.
Anthony opened the door, and stuck his head in. Looking at me he said, "there you are."
My cheeks flushed as I stood there with my hands over my crotch. I had no idea what I should do, or what to say, or what to feel or think. Anthony caught me, putting me in a position I never thought I would be in.
He entered the vestibule and shut the door behind him.
Anthony looked me up and down and said, "Relax Jim, you look good, looked really good from outside. I know you must feel uncomfortable, but we're friend, don't worry, relax."
"How can I relax; this is awkward Anthony. What's the deal, why did you want me to open the door?"