"Dammit Scott you put my life in jeopardy here, we were making love unprotected, you could have given me anything, I trusted you. Even worse is if you gave Paul something they will want to know who he slept with, he's a minor Scott you're looking at jail time."
"Yes Tom I did cheat on you while we were apart, and no I did not play safe with any of the guys I had sex with."
I grabbed my phone and texted Paul telling him to go get tested as soon as possible, just in case.
Darren and Billy did not say a word, Darren got up, walked over to Scott pulled him to his feet by his throat stood there his fist cocked, his other hand firmly around Scott's neck squeezing.
"Go ahead Darren hit me please I deserve it, someone should hit me."
Darren pushed him back down on the couch, his fist still cocked, the rage in his face and body movements showing how little respect he now had for his friend.
"You stupid son of a bitch, I don't get you Scott, I don't even know who you are, we have been friends for years now, you told me how much you loved Tom here, how you planned to marry the guy, then you do all of this stupid shit, someone should punch you in the head, cause your not right in that head of yours, the only reason I will stay friends with you is Tom asked me to, no other reason."
Scott cried, I felt for him but I would not console him, he deserved to cry, he needed to wake up, he could go to jail, he could lose his company, he could have an infectious disease. He also could have given it to me and to Paul and countless others, he could lose his best friend.
Billy got up to grab us all a beer, Darren followed him, Scott could not get himself in control, he could not stop crying, he could not catch his breath. I moved in closer to him, I ran my hand over his back.
"It's going to be okay Scott your a good man overall but you made stupid choices, Paul and all the others were massively stupid decisions. Now you have to own up to what you did like a man, if Paul goes to the Police you will have to take your medicine, you could lose everything."
Scott looked at me, I think he thought I might hold him, as he cried, I had a hard time to touch his shirt covered back, his touch now made me uncomfortable. The man had multiple guys in bed, the bed we shared the bed we slept in together, I wanted to be sick.
"Do you think you could ever forgive me Tom?"
"Forgive you maybe in time, I will not carry around all of this for the rest of my life, get back together with you never ever again. I deserve a better man than you Scott Mitchell. I still care for you and will worry about you for the rest of my life, so please take care of yourself. We all care for you Scott your a good man overall, you just made some stupid mistakes. Learn from them and carry on."
Scott got up and went into the washroom, he needed to pull himself together, he came out he had washed his face, his eyes so red, every time he looked at me he cried.
"It's going to be okay Scott, lets drink our beers and talk about other things."
"Tom tell me how you can be in the same room as me, if I was you I would want to harm you, stab you, yell at you, hurt you, kick you, make you bleed, beat you to a pulp, make you pay for what you have done to me."
"How is any of that going to help the situation Scott, come on, I know you, you're a good man overall, I still do not hate you, just a lot mad at you, you ruined our future together, I saw us like Darren and Billy here in a house, married, waiting to adopt a child, living our lives together. But that can never be now, you made some bad decisions that will affect yours and my life for the rest of both of our lives. But I still do not hate you Scott I still love you, but you've made it hard to be in love with you."
Scott sat there next to me, I knew he wanted to hold me kiss me, make love to me, but that was never to be ever again, the tears started once again for Scott, I did what I could to change the mood in the room. We would order food for dinner, Not Pizza, anything but pizza. We all sat and had dinner, it was weird to not feel like I had about Scott, they say there is a fine line between love and hate, but I think we let ourselves hate the person who wronged us, I could never hate Scott, I still only felt love for the man.
Scott continued to stare at me, I know he was amazed that I could be in the same room as him and not stab him with my fork. After dinner we had a drink, I would not stay to late I was tired and wanted to get back to my hotel. I unblocked Scott, but warned him if he sent me stupid messages or more lies I would block him once again. Scott offered to drive me back to my hotel, I looked at him, he really was trying to be nice to me, he felt like crap for what he did, I did not have to punish him any further.
I accepted his gracious offer, but made it clear he was not getting me back in bed. He told us he would go get tested and would not put anyone else in jeopardy. I looked at him I was still so in love with this man, he was my Scott, my soul mate, the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. But he and I were done, it was me who wanted to cry now for the loss I suffered by Scott's bad decisions.
He and I got in the car he wanted to open my door be the gentleman, treat me like he used too. We both sat there in the car in the driveway.
"Are you okay Babe?"
"You're not allowed to call me that anymore Scott, and No I am not okay."
"What can I do for you Tom?"
"Take it all back, you ruined it all Scott, we could have had the perfect life together you and I, I came here to tell you I gave my resignation at work, I was going to move in with you, so we could start looking for that house that would be perfect for both of us, I was so lonely without you."
I was full on crying as the last of it came out of my mouth, Scott sat there staring at me, he really had made some stupid decisions that he would live to regret the rest of his life. I could not hold anything back, Scott tried to pull me in to a hug, but I resisted, I pushed him back, he pulled me in tight to him and held me in his car as I cried.
