Take it from me, if a girl tells you that she wants a shy guy, they're probably lying to you. My friends sometimes say that they have no idea how I'm single, but I think the answer is nothing more complicated than "I'm too timid."
My friends and family are used to it, but people who are meeting me for the first time seem genuinely shocked at how reserved and soft-spoken I am. I'm sure that it's not what they expect, considering what I look like.
I'm 6'6" and well-built from my years of playing football. I've got the standard white-football-player face, sharp eyes and angular features. I look intimidating, and I'm plenty aggressive out on the field, but when I'm anywhere else I don't really come out of my shell. I'm sure the whole "gentle giant" type is a cute fantasy a lot of girls have, but in practice it doesn't work to my advantage. Girls seem inclined to want a guy with more confidence, somebody more assertive than me. All the girls I had managed to snag have let me down gently because I was too boring. I'm not proud of how many times a girl has told me something that started with "You're nice,
but
..."
It was like God or the universe or whoever was playing a prank on me. I was a strong, athletic man in the prime of his life. So many girls had crushes on me. Then they started talking with me and their interest would fade. I couldn't say I blamed them, either. I felt like I was false-advertising.
I didn't want to give up, though, so I tried my best to put myself out there. It was a Friday night in September and I was padding around a mixer my college was having for the new freshmen. I was looking for some girls to meet up with. I needed to take the proactive role.
After a few minutes I saw a girl that made me stop dead in my tracks. I just saw the back of her, but it was the most gorgeous back half of a girl I'd ever seen. She was tall for a chick, around 5'10". She had short dirty-blonde hair, sleek shoulders, and the most amazing ass I had ever witnessed. It was full and round and filled her jeans in a way I didn't even know was possible. I swear I'm not the kind of guy that ogles girls. I don't want to be that kind of person, but I couldn't look away. She was beautiful.
I was looking at that perfect ass when my eyes scanned upwards and I almost jumped three feet in the air. Two things became apparent in an instant: 1) She knew I was checking her out. 2) She was a guy. A feminine looking guy, sure, but a guy nonetheless.
I felt my face heat up in embarrassment. I hoped in the dim light he couldn't see me blushing. I looked down and almost ran off.
The party was at a frat house, and I sat down on one of the couches, wishing I could just disappear. Naturally, the guy whose ass I had stared another hole into approached me. My face burned again. I couldn't look him in the eye, but I had to say something.
"Sorry about that, man. I thought you were a girl."
Instantly I wanted to take that second part back. He didn't want to hear that. He probably hated me even more now.
However, to my surprise, he put a finger under my chin and lifted my head, forcing me to look him in the face. He didn't look mad.
"Don't worry about it, big guy. You saw something you liked. There's nothing wrong with that." That calmed me down a little, but his tone and the way he phrased that made me uneasy in a way I couldn't really pin down.
He held out his hand to me.
"Bryan Gardener, freshman." Like his body, his voice was a little feminine. I liked the way it sounded, though. It sounded sweet and he had a southern accent.
I shook his hand and tried a normal smile. "Jack Sinclair, junior."
He sat down on the couch next to me like we were friends.
"I'm not offended at all. I'm flattered, if anything."
He had this cocky grin I didn't like, but for some reason didn't want to stop looking at. This was an area with better lighting, so I could get a clearer look at his face. He was cute. He had hazel, almost golden eyes, fair skin, and soft, full lipsβ
Whoa, Jack. Calm down. He's a guy. You're not into guys, remember?
I looked away.
He gently put his hand on my thigh. "It's okay, Jack. Look all you want. I know I'm cute." He gently brushed his hair out of his eyes and tucked it behind his ear. He flashed me that grin again and winked. I felt more blood go to my cheeks. What the hell was happening to me?
"You're a shy one, aren't you? That's adorable."
Now I was gaping at him. Half of my brain started to get annoyed. Who did this kid think he was, speaking to me like that? I was twice his size and he was talking down to me. He wasn't respecting my personal space, either. His hand was still on my leg and he was right up against my body. The other half of my brain was...actually, I had no idea what the other half of my brain was doing.
He started gently tapping my thigh with his fingers.
"All the guys I've been with say I have a great ass. If it could be mistaken for one of the fairer sex, that's a blessing as far as I'm concerned."
Shit. He was gay, too. I was staring like a pervert at a gay guy. I wanted to crawl into a corner.
"Bryan, please don't get the wrong idea."
"I already said to not worry about it, hon."
Hon? Okay, now he was just begging to get his ass kicked. Why wasn't I more pissed off? I just got more frazzled.
"Bryan, I'm not gay," I said weakly.
"I never said you were." Now he was stroking my thigh. I had to bite my tongue to stop myself from sighing in pleasure. What the fuck was going on? I had never looked twice at a guy before. I had only ever wanted to be with girls. But this boy was turning me into a mess.
Then all of a sudden, I could feel his breath against my ear.
"You don't have to be gay to appreciate my body, darlin'," he whispered. "I know you want to fuck me."
There was no possible doubt anymore. This little shit was trying to seduce me.
He got up and stretched, giving me a great view of his perfect butt. He then sat down right on my lap. I let out a little hiss. My dick started to get hard without my permission. He scooted a little in place like he was adjusting himself, making my member thicken even more.
As my arousal grew, so did my anger. He caught me checking him out and jumped straight to assuming I wanted to bang him? That I was immediately wrapped around his little finger? Okay, he might have been right, but the fact that he was being so cocky and arrogant was infuriating.
Politely turning him down wasn't working. I tried reminding him of the situation. I did my best to speak in a low, menacing growl.
"Get off me, you little faggot, before I kill you."
I would normally never say that, but I was willing to let him think I was a homophobe if he would leave me alone. I was completely hard now. I had to do something quick. We were approaching a point where if we kept going, I wouldn't be able to stop.
The brat laughed at me. Actually
laughed
at me. "Jack, hon, we both know you don't mean that. You want this little faggot in your bed, and I'm in the mood to get fucked. Let's stop beating around the bush and help each other out."
He reached out a hand and stroked my chest. When his hand brushed a nipple I couldn't hold in a moan.
Desperately I looked around. Everybody was ignoring us. How was nobody seeing this? Then again, I guess anybody who did see us assumed we were a couple. It's not like a big strong guy like me would just sit back and let a gay boy do this to him. I suspected that Bryan knew this, too. He knew how shy I was and saw it as a weakness he could exploit. I started to fantasize about wringing his little neck.
My murderous thoughts were interrupted when Bryan gave me a light kiss on my jawline. I nearly came just from that one little peck. I took deep breaths, trying to calm myself down. When I could focus again, I saw the son of a bitch on my lap grinning, loving how much control he had over me. My resistance was starting to crumble despite my best efforts.
"Why are you doing this to me?" I was almost whimpering now.
He stroked my chin. "I'm not doing anything you don't want, honey."
"Fuck you."
He smiled. "Yes, please."
I was a 21-year-old college football player and he was a much smaller freshman kid. I was taller, older, bigger, and stronger than him. None of that mattered. He was making me putty in his hands. This kid was dangerous.
He got close to my ear again, having so much fun making me squirm. He started to whisper.
"I'll take care of you, big guy. You'll get the best head of your life. My pussy is tighter than any girl's pussy could ever
hope
to be. You saw what my ass did to you just from looking at it. Imagine what being
inside
of it would feel like."
I swallowed. My dick got even harder. I didn't even think that was possible.
"I'll let you have your way with me tonight. I'm yours to do with as you please. You can be rough, I can take it. I'm no rookie, after all."