Sun and Sea

Sun and Sea: Finding light when it's dark

Narrator: Rohit

Start of the academic year was very special for me, Anu joined the first year in Science coming top in the high school board exams, Bhumi was in 2nd year of psychology and I was finishing my masters degree in Economics but most importantly he was in my college.

This time, it was Anu's idea to find a house to celebrate our anniversary. This one was much better than the last one and he had arranged everything for us tonight.

I had cleaned and decorated the living room with some streamers and a HAPPY ANNIVERSARY banner, and a new bed sheet in the bedroom. I had used all my housekeeping abilities by doing it and left everything else to Anu, which he did with cake, dinner and scented candles.

I was instructed yo take off my clothes and lay on the bed by Anu. He came oit of the bathroom and straddled me,holding both my hands above my head, "No touching for you till I say so." He licked my underarm which made me squirm, giggle and hard. "Hmm!" he licked the other underarm and came up and looked at me. I could overpower Anu physically with a flip of my arm but his power over me was not physical. If he asked me to not move from this position all night, I would have complied, no questions asked. He went down on me and sucked my dick and then went further down and pushed my legs up. He then licked my perineum and I buckled at this unknown pleasure. "Anu!" I savoured his name as he licked me again and went down further and licked my hole, "FUCK!... ANU!" I moaned but didn't move my hands. He pushed his tongue in me and then sucked at my hole and grabbed my muscular glutes. He went for it, making me feel things I never thought I would. "Anu, you want to fuck me?" I offered, unsure but for him, I would do anything. "No! I love what we have, I love your meathead." He climbed over me and then kneeled around my head and fed me his dick. I sucked at it, still not moving my hands. He took the lube from the side table where he had arranged it and poured it on my dick. He replaced his cock with his tongue and kissed me, licking my tongue and sucking at it. He moved back and took me inside him, both of us moaning. " Babes! You can touch me now!" I immediately brought my hands and grabbed his hips, raising myself and penetrating him deeper making him roll his eyes, his mouth open soundlessly. " Fuck! You are special." I grunted as I fucked him like crazy.

I was very popular in the town and college, winning all the bodybuilding, wrestling and MMA championships and Anu joined the cricket team as a fast bowler. We were now out and proud together and unlike what people think, in India people leave you alone as long as you are not obscene or out there in a sense of dressing and PDA. So holding hands and waiting for each other in practice or after classes was normal. On the other hand Bhumi was having a very hard time, Ravi kept calling me on my Gym landline but she refused to talk to him and wanted them to break it off. She was putting on weight and looked depressed worrying Anu and hence worrying me too.

About 4 months after Ravi left, I and Anu were on a date for a movie after almost 2 weeks of not being able to meet after college as Anu was taking care of Bhumi, she had been depressed and inconsolable.

As always since it was his time to choose, we were in a horror movie. So for almost 40 minutes of the hour we were in the movie, I had my face hidden in his arms. He was enjoying the movie and the fact that I was suffering through it, making him laugh whenever I flinched at jump scares. The movie was mostly dark and the cinema was almost empty and we had corner seats. At the intermission, I got us Popcorn and Anu his soda. By this time lots of people had moved to the corner seats and the actual fans had moved ahead to watch the climax, which was supposed to be extremely scary and hence I was totally not looking forward to it.

As soon as the lights went off, I placed my right palm on his left cheek and brought him to me for a searing kiss, my other hand snaking its way to his thigh. I kissed him deeply, using my tongue and moving my right hand to the back of his head, grabbing his silky black hair. I traced his hard-on with my fingers over his jeans and made him moan. As someone shrieked in the movie, I unzipped Anu, and parted his knees. I unbuttoned him and fished his hard dick out and fisted it as I kissed him, swallowing his moans. I kissed his neck and shoulder and arms and raised the seat handle between us and bent to take him in my mouth. He was rock hard as he looked around, scared to get caught in a theatre with his boyfriend giving him head, but exhilarated with the entire experience. He grabbed a fistful of my hair and pushed my head on him and I took him to his root, loving this side of my Anu. I deepthroated him, breathing his scent through my nose and continued sucking him, till he came in my throat, but I continued sucking him, getting him hard again and he buckled on his seat. "Babe!" He moaned and cummed weakly again, I licked his underside and then licked around the head and around the foreskin and came up, smiling at him.

He was breathing heavily looking ahead, a thin layer of sweat on his forehead, as I covered, zipped and buttoned his jeans and took a sip of the soda. I weaved my hand around his arm and looked at the screen smiling. "You got condoms and lube in the car, Right?" He asked, still looking ahead. "Condoms?" I arched an eyebrow. "RK, I need to get home after this, so yes condoms! Do we have any?" He asked hoarsely. "Yes!" I squeezed his hand, interweaving our fingers together.

"Let's get out of here!" He got up without unweaving our fingers and pulled me with him.

As we got in my jeep, Anu looked at me, the combination of yellow street lights and his desire making his green eyes almost navy, the colour of a raging sea. "Let's go to one of your dark lonely corner side roads." His tone, more commanding than ever, is driven by need.

As I put the vehicle in gear, Anu took off his jacket and shirt, combed his hair back and went down on me, he unbuttoned and unzipped me and then looked up, smiling, his eyes now darker than ever, "Really! No underwear?". "These are those moments when I prefer you don't talk Randhawa and put those beautiful lips to good use." I took my hand off from the gear stick and touched the back of his head gently bringing him down to me.

By the time we reached the spot, I was seeing white spots with pleasure. Anu was on some other mode, he was taking my 8 inches to the root, biting a bit, licking and stopping at just the right time, and applying pressure to stop me from cumming, licking the precum as it kept flowing.

As I parked and switched off the headlights, we were covered with pitch darkness of the night. " Baby! We need to be quick, Bhumi is in bad shape." I kissed him and tasted me on him, "We can go home Anu, we can do this later. I just wanted to take you out after so many days at home. I wanted to be with you, I was going crazy without you." I kissed him again. "No! I want you now." he moved and got the small opaque pouch which had lube and condoms hidden under some toiletries from the glove cabinet. He handed the pack of three condoms to me and took the lube and climbed to the backspace of the large jeep. I quickly took off my clothes and climbed behind him. He was ready and was holding the backrest as I adjusted my large body to the small space and shoved my covered dick in him, making him grunt. "Fuck!" he hissed from his closed teeth. I removed my dick all the way out and pushed back in, looking down as I moved in and out of him. Our contrast of complexion really exhilarating, his fair hairless and blemishless body driving me, but I loved it when I could see his eyes when we made love, this was good for sex and a quick fuck but not able to see his eyes always left me oddly unsatisfied. I fucked him good, holding both his hands with mine and biting and bothering the mole on his right shoulder. He suddenly squeezed my sheathed dick hard, as he came grunting and moaning without being touched. The euphoric feeling of making the love of my life cum without being touched, by fucking him made me feel like I was He-Man. I came in the condom and squeezed my large body from behind him, removed the condom and sat down, reaching out for him and bringing him to sit on my lap. His eyes were closed and we were both panting like we had run a 100 metres race.

I brought his lips to me and kissed him passionately, "Babe!" I kissed him again, he kissed back and then hugged me wrapping his hands around my neck and hiding his face in my chest, still breathing heavily unable to talk. "Fuck!" he said quietly. " I have the power!" I kissed his head and couldn't stop from saying it and feeling macho and cocky at what just happened. " Hmmm... you do Stud!... you have the power." He giggled and bit my nipple, making me jump and then we both started giggling.

I dropped Anu home after our Movie night, which we finished in my jeep and ended up with my type of climax, using the magnus pack of three.

I had just reached my door when I got a call from his landline. "Ro!" his voice hoarse, crying,I hung up, turned around and drove to his place. In the almost 30 months I was with Anu, I rang his doorbell for the first time. He came from the kitchen back door and hugged me from behind. "You alright?" I started checking him all over.

"Is it your parents?"

"It's Bhumi, she thinks she is pregnant and she is hysterical, and was trying to hang herself when I reached."

"Your parents?"

"They are in Chandigarh, will come back tomorrow afternoon." It made me realise how little we discuss his parents and Pa is always around us in the gym and at home.

"How do you know for sure Bhumi?" I asked her after she calmed down.

"I know... I have missed my periods and I know because on my birthday when Ravi left for the UK, he had come back home one last time to meet my parents, but I didn't let him and when we were saying our last goodbyes, things got out of hand... huh... we couldn't stop and..."

"Let me get those home tests, at least let us be sure." I said and left.

I drove to the pharmacy away from our town and asked for home pregnancy tests from 4 different brands. The guy at the counter kept smiling at me as he packed them. "What?" I asked, getting pissed at his sly look, "It's not for me, I have a boyfriend and we can't get pregnant, if he does, it will be a miracle kid and we will raise it and make millions as a family freak show." I left smiling at his look of utter confusion and shock.

They were all positive, bringing another wave of tears for Bhumi and stress for me and Anu. Next day we drove to Pantnagar almost 70 kilometres from Nainital to meet a doctor who didn't know us and could help. Since Pantnagar is a university campus city such young couples were common. We introduced me and Bhumi as the couple and used my surname Kakar in all forms.

We finally found a nice lady doctor who didn't interrogate us and understood the situation, Bhumi told her the truth. The doctor asked for some more tests and we got them done and waited through the day to get the results. In other circumstances, I would have really loved this part of the town. There were so many young couples from all over India and also some obvious gay couples who like I said were never over the top but not hiding either. I would have loved to hold hands with Anu and show him off. But that day both of us felt instantly guilty to even smile at each other because of Bhumi and her predicament. It was a day of bad news. The pregnancy was almost 16 weeks and was now unsafe to be terminated. I wanted to call Ravi but Bhumi stopped me and said no point getting him involved.

"But we need to now tell our parents Bhumi, we will need help to get through this."

"You stay away from this Anu, somehow they will make it your fault. I will deal with them today itself. This mess is my mess and I don't want you involved, somehow you land up with the short end of everything. This is the best time of your life with Rohit, don't jeopardise it by getting involved. This pregnancy is going to be a shit show. One gay and one unmarried and pregnant, our parents will bury us in the backyard before my news becomes gossip. You stay out of this, stay at Rohit's today, I will call him when it's safe to come home."

"You can tell it's mine if it helps." I offered as we drove back to drop them, I knew I am Anu's for life, Bhumi was family now.

"Hah!" she gave a dry laugh. "He would be one handsome boy if he was your and Anus, bro. But he is Ravi's and mine and I can't lie about that. Besides it will never work, everyone knows you are Anu's boyfriend... more than boyfriend, like soulmates, the way you two are together. I got attracted to Ravi because I wanted what you two have, secretly jealous like most of the people who know you two, not wanting to break your relationship, kind of jealousy, but to want what you guys have. Never tarnish what you guys share with anyone's dirt. You guys have something very special, even my parents are not able to deny it. Dad asks me if you don't come around and wait for this one at our driveway, if everything is okay between you two, it's kind of sweet. I just wanted that with Ravi and it was nice but now this." She started crying and both us boys were unable to help her. Anu started crying too and I wanted to burn down the town to stop him from crying, getting angry at his parents, Ravi and his parents as well. Bhumi was right, both of us staying away from them till we cooled down.

But as always Bhumi was right again, it was a shit show. In about an hour of Bhumi reaching home and talking to them, they locked up, took their car and drove off with Bhumi, never calling or worrying about Anu. It just made me so mad at them, I hated their guts. But all Anu worried about was what they were doing with Bhumi, the doctor had told us that medical termination at this point of pregnancy is life threatening to the woman.

"My mom will take that risk with Bhumi if she has to RK! She will do anything to protect her stupid, made up and false reputation with those phoney relatives. She doesn't understand I wanted to die and Bhumi kept looking for love because of her and looks like... looks like we got opposite of what we were looking for. My mom's brothers are worse, they will kill her if it comes to that. What should I do? Please help her".

I held on to him as he cried through the night, we tried calling his Dad's mobile but it was switched off. We worried about her that night and all the nights after that for almost 6 months, his parents had abducted their daughter and abandoned their son.

Narrator: Kitoo

Dad had started crying and Pa sat on the floor holding him. Me and Myra at their sides. "So I am Bhumi Bua's son?" (Bua -- Fathers Sister) "I always thought I looked like you but I look like your twin sister. You took me and saved us didn't you Dad? You didn't let them kill us. You really gave me this life." They drew me in between them as I started to cry as well.

It took us a while to get our bearings, I sat between them insisting to know my story, this wasn't a love story anymore, this is the story of my existence and this was the story of my life too.

Sun and Sea: Making a Family!

Narrator: Rohit

Pa took Anu into our home and family with open arms, he said he always wanted a good son but was stuck with me, now he finally had one. Anu was like a son he adored, beautiful, intelligent, first in his class and who played cricket unlike me... meathead he called me. Anu made himself at home sharing the chores, laughing and living with us. But he was my soulmate whenever we were alone even for a minute, It was like we were newlywed, the excitement of sharing a room all the time, laughing on bad jokes, fighting over toothpaste and accepting the smiles and smells of each other that only partners who live with each other experience and at least for us, enjoyed.

Small things mattered now, like getting his brand of shampoo and choice of cereal whenever I went shopping and he taking care of me and feeding me my dinner if I hurt my knee. To get my hand crushed when he had to get an injection and him getting used to sleeping with a light lamp as I couldn't sleep in the dark. Our sexual chemistry got intense as teenage love matured into something real, there were nights of animalistic lust and slow burn love. There were days when I used to be covered with bite marks and I would blackmail him into giving me backrubs with the threat that I will tell who gave me those to everyone. And there were times when Anu had to walk and sit slowly in the morning. Once, I asked him in front of his Open Mic session in the Café, if he was okay, he blushed in public and pinched me when no one was looking.

We had gone for a vacation to Rajasthan and it was the best time we spent as a family, Me, Anu and Pa. In one of the tourist destinations, we got separated from Pa and Anu was panicking more than me. I felt a weird mix of emotions, it was a small portion of joy to see Anu worried for Pa and a large part of my own anxiety of not being able to find him. Turned out he had met one of his ex-military friends at the check post and lost track of time and the continuous ringing of his mobile phone. He introduced me to his friend and proudly introduced Anu as my boyfriend. I think they must have discussed it when they talked before meeting us because we got no reaction, just acceptance and normalcy. Anu beamed the entire trip to be able to be what he was without any guilt or fear.

We celebrated my 22nd Birthday together at midnight in our room on our bed. Anu had saved and got two simple gold bands for us, which we exchanged with a smile,no tears, no drama and no proposal because that was how we wanted our life to be, not perfect just together.

Anu was working full time at Café Noor, his restaurant and home abandoned like him. Pa paid off the notice period money to the staff. Anu's parents never bothered to call and check on him or even send him some money. Bhumi had called me his soulmate and that's what we were, together and complete. Yes there was a looming grey cloud for Bhumi but the Kakar household was happy and complete.

Sun and Sea: The time earth stood still for me!

Narrator: Anu

My life had changed, I know I am messed up and had abandonment anxiety but with RK, I was good. I was happy, content and madly in love. For the first time in my life, I was home, I understood what having a parent was and what it means to take care and be cared for. I missed her and was scared for Bhumi all the time but whenever RK was around, my world was better, Lit.

Small things were extremely important for me now, checking if Pa had taken his meds, if RK had his protein. Were the balance sheets of the gym updated and if RK continued to love me. RK was spoiled for attention and had the knack to spoil me with affection.

He was warm and glowed in any room he was in, people belonged to him but he had a way of showing that he belonged to me. I slowly learnt to be with him and his, in front of people. Pa and RK were not ashamed of me, so I learnt to respect who I was and my love for RK. In my circular and confusing way, what I am trying to say is, I was out and proud and in a committed relationship with RK.

On his 22nd birthday, I wanted to say it loudly to the world that we were together. I was now working full time in Noor Café and had saved money for a year to buy gold bands for us. I had prepared a complicated and long speech when I presented it to RK but when I showed him the boxes, I didn't need to say anything, in fact we just couldn't stop smiling. There was a sense of anchor to that moment, a feeling that I will be alright, I am in good hands now, RK's hands. I knew I was just 19 and he was 22, but does it really make a difference when you know you have found your forever, as long as you find him... or her. We found each other and I was in a happy space to be one part of us with RK. At a young age but after a very long time, I felt sorted.