After my first experience as "just a hole" I got more experimental with being dominated. I let some guys have their way with my mouth and one hook-up fingered me like there was no tomorrow. I haven't been properly fucked yet, though. Whilst casually dating, I haven't met a guy that I trusted enough to let him go to town on my ass. I would soon enough find exactly who I needed for this.
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It's December and I'm visiting my family for the holidays. It feels like years, not months, since I moved out and my childhood room feels too small for me. Nobody would ever think the room I rent in the city looks particularly mature, but my old bedroom right here, with posters of my teenage heroes and trophies from sport matches, make me feel like I'm peeking through a portal into my past.
It's very cold, but I decide to have a walk before dinner. It becomes a trip down memory lane. That house right there is where my best friend used to live. There is the bench I tried my first cigarette. Without thinking I wander to my old high school. It's mostly empty at this time of the day. The door opens and I see my old math teacher, Mr. Morrison comes outside and lights a cigarette. With his first inhale, he notices me and smiles.
"Ben! What brings you here?!"
"Hello Mr. Morrison. I'm back for the holidays. I was bored so went out for a walk. I didn't know you smoke."
"Call me Brad, please. I don't smoke. Officially. Tonight is going to be a long night and I need something to get me trough it. I have parent-teacher meetings until 9:30. How's student life?"
"It's really nice. I love being on my own."
Wait, did I just see his eyes gliding down my body? I know the look guys can give.. I wouldn't mind,though, just never thought about him like that. Make no mistake, I've always thought Mr. Morrison was an attractive man. He is tall, has a full head of brown hair and is built like a rugby player: all shoulders and legs. He must be around 50 now. The perfect daddy.
"I can imagine that. I would love to hear all about it. Are you here for long?"
"Not really. Tomorrow we have diner with the whole family and I leave the day after."
"Ah that's too bad. Well maybe next time." He stubs out his cigarette on the wall and throws it in the garbage can.
I hesitate, but than decide to go for it.
"Mr. Morris.. eh, I mean Brad. I could swing by after your meetings?"
Mr. Morrison tilts his head and smiles smugly. "Yeah, sure. I'll be right here. You know what classroom."
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At home I take a long shower and go down for dinner. I can't get myself to eat. I'm too nervous. I have no idea what to talk about with Mr. Morrison. I wasn't the most motivated student back in high-school. I had my head in the clouds as a teenager and I didn't really fit in with most of the other kids. During most breaks I would walk through the halls and sometimes Mr. Morrison would invite me to his classroom and he would just listen to me complain. When I felt really down, he was the one I would go to to cheer me up.
At 9:35 I can't postpone it any longer. I tell my parents I'm going out to see some friends. They tell me to have fun without looking up from the television.
I walk through the school and it feels very strange. The smell is exactly the same. The artworks on the bulletin boards have changed, but somehow are also the same. I wait in front of classroom b405. I hear shuffling on the other side of the door. Hesitantly I knock on the door. In his formal voice Mr. Morrison says: "Come in!"
When he sees me in the door opening he puts on a big smile.
"It's you! I was afraid some parents came back for some more of their stupid questions. Shit! I didn't say that. Come, come. Sit down."
He sits behind his desk and points at the chair in front of it. He pours some tea in a paper cup and hands it to me.
"Ugh, that's cold."
"Right, sorry. It's been here all night. I also have something stronger." He laughs: "I'm not your teacher anymore.
"Yes. Please!" I say a bit to eagerly.
He takes a small bottle of whiskey out of his backpack. I eagerly chug the rest of the cold tea and offer him my cup. That will calm me down a bit.
The conversation after that flows easily. I talk him about my studies. What I like about it. What's difficult. How it is to live in a big city. He asks a lot of questions and tells some about his own life. He lived in the same city and is happy he moved back, but misses the life there sometimes. He pours a third drink for both of us. He suddenly looks up cheekily and quickly asks:
"And what about the boys?"
"The boys?"
"Yeah, I knew it all along, Ben. It takes one to know one."
"You also like, ehm, boys?"
"You could say that."
Where is this going?
"Well it's fine. I am pretty new to all of.. it. But I have fun."
"I bet you do."