Jenny was smart as well as curious. She explored the history files on our computer and found e-mail that I thought I had deleted. She read the letters that I sent to other men and those that were sent to me. Jenny read them all. I was out of the closet! She confronted me one night.
After supper, we were watching the news on television.
Abruptly she said, "I want you to read some things that I printed out of the computer."
Having no idea what she was talking about, I said, "Sure."
Jenny went into the office and came out with a stack of papers. I looked up at her and, looking me straight in the eye, she handed them to me. I began to read.
The first one said, "I can hardly wait to taste your hard cock in my mouth. I'm sitting here with a hard-on thinking of how I'm going to suck you."
There was no need to read anymore. I sat there looking at the floor. It was all over. I loved Jenny and I knew I had lost her.
"I never had a clue that you were bisexual," she said. "You certainly make love to me alright. How long have you felt this way?"
I couldn't answer. My heart was full of shame.
"Ted," Jenny continued, "we have to talk about this. I'm confused."
I looked up at her. "It started when I was about 14 or 15 years old." I said. All the guys experimented with jack-off sessions, but one buddy that I was close to wanted more. I was very curious too. We went all the way. We sucked each other off, came in each other's mouths and swallowed each other's sperm. We even screwed each other in the ass a few times. That lasted for about a year and he moved away. That was the end of it. I hadn't even thought about guys or cocks until just recently. I was in the chat rooms and explored everywhere, including the gay and bi chats. It turned me on again to cocks. I just couldn't put it out of my mind. Finally I met with a guy and we had sex. It really turns me on. I love to do it. I can't help it. My sex with you is still terrific, but it's different. Maybe it's because it is a big no-no that makes it exciting. I don't know, but I know I can't resist it. Do you want me to leave?"
Jenny didn't answer my question. She sat down next to me. "I know that, in the last few weeks you have been a lot more passionate in bed. It's like our sex life has re-awakened. Is that because you've been having sex with men?"
"I could use a stiff drink," I said. "Do you want one?"
"Yes, I really want to talk about this. It's like you're a different person."
I went to the bar and made us drinks. "At least," I thought," she's not screaming and packing my bags—yet."
I handed Jenny her drink and sat down. It was difficult to look her in the eye.
"I know I've been very horny lately," I said. "Ever since I've been doing this my cock seems to be hard all the time. It's like I found sex all over again."
"Tell me about when you did it with the guy in the e-mails," she said.
"What do you want to know," I asked?
"Everything, I want you to tell me what you did and what he did. I'm trying to understand this."
"You really want the details?
"Yes, all the details. I want to know how you went about it, what you said, what he said, and I want to know how you felt while you were with him."
"I chatted with him in the chat rooms first. I chatted with a lot of guys, but he sounded more interesting than the others. We went to a private chat and got to know each other better. His name is Jim. He's married also. He has three kids. After e-mailing back and forth for about three weeks, he invited me to his home. His wife and kids were away. I met him at a local bar and, after a few drinks we went to his house. We went straight to his bedroom and undressed quickly. We were both very horny. Jim is a little smaller than me, but he's wiry and well built. When I saw his 8 inch cock I went right down on it."
"How did it taste," she asked?
"You know how a cock tastes," I said.
