The Audition Room

The next day we had a blocking rehearsal for the show. When Logan arrives I pull him aside.

"Hey about the kiss-"

"you're fine bro. It's no secret that I'm an affectionate guy as is, and it's not like it was the first time we've kissed"

I was relieved once again. I guess I'm lucky he had asked me to kiss him earlier so it feels less weird that I kissed him later in the night.

We went through the blocking rehearsal and it was somewhat uneventful. Later that night I would be doing another rehearsal with Logan. After rehearsal though I had plans with Noor.

We went to lunch and immediately fell into our amazing skill of being able to talk without a pause.

"So of the cast, am I the first you've been with?"

"Well not exactly"

I start to laugh. I explained to him that Joseph was my ex-boyfriend, and that I had hooked up with Jackson once (I was drunk, he's hot, leave me alone). I also mentioned the Logan encounter from last night. "Wow you've really made your way through the group" "Shut up, haha".

We then went on to talking about the show and then our next topic and so on and so on. We've really connected quick. We make our way back to my place, and start making out in his car. I invite him in, and that's when I see him.

Jackson.

I don't know who was more confused. Noor at seeing Jackson at my place, Jackson having seen me make out with Noor, or me not knowing what the hell I needed to do next. I had to figure it out quickly, Logan would be here for rehearsal in about an hour. I could see that they both looked uneasy. I had to break the ice.

"Jackson what are you doing here?" He froze. I could tell he didn't realize he'd be interrupting.

"I came to talk about the show". He said making an effort to avoid eye contact with me. "I'm busy at the moment, and I have a private rehearsal later tonight, I will call you after that." He nodded and went to his car with a look of surprise. I can tell his mind was racing over what he had seen. I was going to be in for an awkward conversation. Still, I couldn't just ask Noor to leave. It would be unfair, and more importantly I really didn't want to.

"Did you know he was going to come by?"

"No idea. Being completely honest I wouldn't have been so open with the PDA if I did."

"Why's that?"

"Because Jackson is a narcissist".

Noor stared at me confused.

"Look, Jackson is the kind of person that will look for any excuse as to why he didn't get what he wanted. He saw the two of us making out, and now he's going to call me tonight claiming that I only gave you the part because of our relationship. In reality I gave you the part because you had the best read of the entire day. I just hope that he-" I get interrupted by a kiss. That's the nicest way to shut me up I guess.

After he breaks the kiss Noor looks at me and says "Thank you, and let me know if you need help defending yourself."

"Don't worry about that, if he wants the opportunity to perform for these scouts he has to do it my way. He'll learn that sooner or later. I don't need him to believe me. I need him to accept that."

"I bet he was shocked he didn't get the lead. Given your alls experience".

"He was shocked but not for that reason, he knows I look at that night as a drunken mistake. He's just used to getting whatever he wants at this company."

I grab Noor's hand and look at him deeply. "Noor, I have to warn you that if this gets out that people may begin to judge you"

"I know, and I accept that. I want to be with you no matter what anyone else thinks." with that I started kissing him.

I begin taking off his shirt as he takes off mine. Then I unbutton his pants and slide them and his boxers down off of him. His erect member springs free and I notice that he's already leaking precum. Then I feel a hand on my pants, he struggles unbuttoning them at first but once he does he yanks them down excitedly. He then goes for my underwear pulling them down slowly as if my penis was a new exhibit he was unveiling. I pull him into a passionate kiss and then look at him for the first time not exuding swag. "Whats up?"

He looks away and says "it's nothing just I am sorta-" he coughs and mumbles quietly. I look up at him.

"Noor, are you a virgin?".

"Well in the way that counts yeah. I've fooled around with girls, but it didn't mean anything. I've never been with a guy". He looks down embarrassed and I grab his hand.

"Look, Noor it's okay. We'll do this at your pace".

He looks at me longingly and nods. "I'm ready, I just don't want to disappoint you. I really like you and-" this time I was the one interrupting him with a kiss.

"Noor you could never disappoint me. I promise."

With that we begin making out on my bed. I climb on top of him and ask him if he's sure he's ready. He nods and kisses me deeply. I slowly insert my penis inside him as he moans and adjusts his body. I begin thrusting my hips and fucking him deeper and deeper. We discover each other's rhythm quickly. As time goes on I fuck him more and more intensely. With each moan I elicit from him the harder I go. This is the hottest experience I've ever had. I climax inside of him as he screams my name, then grab him and pull him into a passionate kiss. As his lips leave mine that's when I hear the doorbell. Shit.

"Who's that?"

"It's Logan here for his rehearsal. In the heat of the moment I kind of forgot. I see two options here"

"Those being?"

"Either stay in here until the rehearsals over, or let him know you're here. Either way I'm hoping you'll be here tonight."

With that he smirks and then pulls me into a sweet kiss. He goes to my bathroom and wraps a towel around his waist then hands me my robe which I put on. At that point we decide we've gotta let Logan in and we head to the door.

"Sorry Logan, I would be more dressed, I had company and I completely forgot about our rehearsal. Uh you know Noor?" Logan looked him up and down, it took him maybe 5 seconds to piece together exactly what we had been doing. I mean we were both practically naked, it wasn't rocket science. "Yeah I know Noor, nice to see you're connecting with the other actors" with that he gave me a sly wink and I turned as red as a tomato. "You guys go ahead and start your rehearsal, I'm gonna get a little less... naked". As Noor walked away Logan gave me a look and I playfully told him to shut up.

"If you wouldn't mind let's make this rehearsal slightly quicker, between Noor staying over and Jackson calling to "discuss the show" I won't be getting much sleep tonight. I promise we can have an extra long rehearsal tomorrow" "that's completely fine with me, let's just run through the kiss scene, and then I'll try doing the dance a couple of times and we'll call it a night". Sounds good.

Running the kiss scene tonight felt different. For one his performance was even better, and for another the butterflies I felt kissing him seemed to have simmered. Logan is someone that before I would've done anything to see like this and to be able to kiss. Now, not really. He's still hot and an incredible kisser, but that sense of burning desire has extinguished. We finish the scene and as I'm giving him notes Noor comes back in, unfortunately a lot more dressed than before. I can fix that.

"Perfect timing, Noor would you mind running the end dance with Logan?". He nods and the two of them find a spot, and started doing the dance. Well attempting to do the dance is much more accurate. This wasn't quite as effortless as the scene. I had them run it a few more times though and towards the end it was much better. Then Logan got dressed and went to leave. He gave Noor a hug, which took him by surprise. He really is an affectionate guy. He gave me a hug and an I love you, which I returned. Before he leaned away he whispered "FYI your robe's open, and I think seeing Noor dance like that got you a little excited" to my complete and utter embarrassment I look down and see my 8-inch erection sticking out alongside the rest of the front of my body. I quickly tie it and say "Well I guess we're even haha" "Not in the way that counts" he says as he motioned to my dick. We both laugh and he says goodbye again to my shock he also gave me a goodbye kiss, I guess that's just become a part of our friendship. I can't believe my childhood crush just saw my boner.

Luckily I can't be too distracted by that thought because Noor has already ripped my robe back off. I kiss him and say "soon babe, remember I have to call Jackson". He gives me a pouty look but agrees. "I promise to do whatever you want tonight, but first I need you to be moral support. This is not a fun conversation". that was a deal he could definitely take. I text Jackson that I finished up my private rehearsal with Logan and I was free to call.

He responded by FaceTimeing me. I answered and he looked shocked, I had temporarily forgotten that I was naked. He couldn't see anything below my waste but he could see enough to know I wasn't clothed. I attempt to break the tension by saying "so what is it you wanted to talk about?"

"Well originally I came over to apologize for how I reacted about not getting Gaz, but now that I know why I don't really see a reason to. You are being so-"

"Stop speaking if you want to keep any role in this production."

He froze.

"Look, I understand in your mind after seeing Noor and I today you could come to the conclusion that I had an ulterior motive when casting. However that could not be further from the truth. Noor and I didn't begin our time together until after auditions. The reason you didn't get the part was simply that he read better for Gaz and you read better for Guy. Physically you fit the part for Guy perfectly, and I knew you were someone I could count on to have no problem having romantic chemistry with another actor. I stand by my decision, and for that I will never apologize. If you aren't willing to accept that, Carson will gladly step up and take your spot, I can easily give him your opportunity and I will not hesitate to do so."

He nodded.

"Look you know I'm not going to give up this opportunity, I just really wanted this part. It's the best way to showcase me to the scouts"

"That's where you're wrong. A young fit gay man getting to show emotional vulnerability, sex appeal, dance skills, and comedic tendencies. That's the exact description that gets people signed these days. The only way this won't help you, is if you don't give it your all. And I know you know that."

He looks down

"So what is this really about?"

He just sits there until I give him a look and finally says

"Fine. I didn't come over to talk about the show."

"What did you come to talk about?"

"I've been thinking a lot about our night together-"

"Jackson that was just a drunk-"

"let me finish."

I nod.

"I love you, and I can't stop thinking about you. I came over to try and rekindle whatever it is that we had. And- and- and-" he starts to cry "and I find you with some guy you just met".

"Jackson, I never meant for you to see Noor and I together. That being said, we don't have anything to rekindle. We were never together. I know we had that night together, and I can see now that it meant more to you than I realized, but that was something that I did when I was hurt. I wanted to get back at Joseph for cheating on me, I wanted to hurt him like he hurt me. Unfortunately all I've done is hurt you. Jackson I do love you, just not in a romantic way. I'm so incredibly sorry that I hurt you. I should've never let my anger affect our friendship. That's what we have though."

He begins nodding still crying. Then he says "You never told me that you hooked up with me to get back at Joseph"

"Well you never told me you wanted more than that. We both could've been a little more honest. I swear I would've never had sex with you if I didn't think you were on the same wavelength as me"

"I know. That's why I didn't tell you, I guess I thought maybe if we had sex that you'd naturally want to take the next step and when you didn't I thought maybe seeing me naked again would entice you"

That's when it hit me

"So you were never upset about not getting Gaz, you were upset because you thought I didn't find your audition hot enough?"

He blushes and I take that as my answer.

"I guess yeah. It was then that I accepted you looked at me purely as just an actor or a friend and nothing more."

He begins crying again and I feel awful.

"Jackson-"

"I'll see you at rehearsal"

And then he hung up. I stood there for a second completely at a loss for words, then Noor comes by and gives me a big hug.

"I know that must've been hard, need to talk about it?"

I smile up at him. We ended up staying up talking for hours. By the end of the night we were able to say two things: that we were officially boyfriends, and that we had had sex twice.