Noor and I had a wonderful dinner but unfortunately he wasn't able to stay the night tonight. So I took advantage of the alone time and called Carson. He didn't answer. Fuck. I guess I didn't think about how much the laughter would've hurt him. I'm pissed at myself for not pulling him aside after rehearsal. I'm pissed at the guys too, most of them were apprehensive stripping down at their own auditions but they didn't even hesitate when it came to making Carson feel bad. I texted him the best thing I could come up with:
"Hey Carson! I wanted to talk with you about what happened today at rehearsal. I didn't take a moment to piece together how much the guys laughing at you would've hurt your feelings, for that I am deeply sorry. I went straight to being your director instead of stopping to be your friend, which is what you needed. Someone let me know they had overheard you saying you were considering quitting the play, and I want to urge you as much as I can to reconsider. This is the most talent scout exposure you've had the opportunity to get since you've joined the company. On top of that our company has a policy that you are ineligible for shows for a year if you quit a production. I don't want you to give up a big opportunity for yourself, and I definitely don't want you to put yourself in a position where your chances in future shows are jeopardized. It's rare that someone gets the year ban and ever gets cast again. I want what's best for you, so I will respect what you decide. Don't let some guys being insensitive get in the way of something that could change your life. Let me know soon."
I barely got any sleep, anxious over all the events that had transpired the last day. I woke up with 5 morning texts. One from Jackson saying thank you for giving him a second chance and he'll definitely make me glad I did, one from Abby saying that the rehearsal with Logan went very well, one from Logan thanking me again for setting him up with Abby, a good morning text from Noor, and a voice message from Carson. I sent a text back to Noor with a kissing emoji and a sexy pic, told Abby I saw her car at Logan's and sent a wink, told Logan you're welcome and that I'm glad he's happy, and gave Jackson a thumbs up. Then I nervously played Carson's message
"Thank you for caring about me, I don't want to give up this opportunity and I definitely don't want to let you down. Just please let me keep my pants on at rehearsals from now on."
I was so fucking relieved. I promised him no nudity for him from now on.
The next couple months or so of rehearsals were relatively normal. Logan and I continued our private rehearsals but sometimes they also included Abby and Noor. Logan and Abby had gotten very close and Noor and I had begun living together. Jackson hadn't missed any more rehearsals, and Carson had gotten over his embarrassing moment and seemed to be doing much better at bonding with the cast. Everything seemed like it was going as smoothly as possible. Until the night of the show.
Joseph quit.
He sent a letter to Abby about an hour before call time claiming that he had planned since the beginning to leave on the night of so that my production would fail. God he's such a petty dickhead. I didn't know what to do. My original backup for this happening was Carson and after the last time he stripped down I knew there was no way in hell he'd do it. I thought Greg, I remembered from his audition he was extremely nervous stripping but maybe I could talk him into it if he knew how desperate I was.
I called Greg and asked him to come to my office for a 1-on-1 meeting. I explained to him my dilemma and he seemed nervous, but I told him that it was an opportunity to be seen by agents in a much bigger role. He thought about it and said that he wanted to try it with just me and make his decision instead of stripping in front of everyone like Carson did. I said that seemed fine. He removed his shirt, then his pants, then started panicking. I put my head in my hands. Obviously Greg would never strip on stage in front of an audience. I told him to put his clothes back on and he nodded in defeat. As he was rushing to put his clothes back on my head was spinning. What the fuck was I going to do. None of the other actors in the show would be willing to play the part, and none of the actors I cut would be able to step in this late into the show. I had no idea what to do.
Then Logan stopped by.
"Why don't you do it?"
"What?"