One
He was in pain. I could see it very clearly. In his eyes and his breathing and the way his body shook while the muscles and tendons all stretched almost to their breaking point. The sweat beading on his forehead and the way his teeth were bared as he struggled with all of his might against the pain wracking his body.
The big man was no stranger to pain. A close inspection of his body would show many many scars from trauma he had suffered in his life. The scars which didn't show ran even deeper. Things he had done and seen and experienced in the past left their indelible mark on his mind and his heart and even his soul.
He was in pain. I could see it very clearly.
I hated it.
I wanted nothing more than to ease him and make him feel better. If it were in my power I would take him miles and miles and miles away from the pain and the heartbreak and the sadness and never let them touch him ever again.
That was my job, after all. To take away the pain. I'd spend many long sleepless nights for years studying hard so I could learn to ease the pain from others. Becoming the best at my chosen profession.
Then there was him.
I spent so much of my time trying to ease his pain. In any way I could. It was a long slow process, tiptoeing my way inside his defenses. Learning where he hurt and touching each place. Cushioning and comforting. Laving each injury with a soothing balm then moving on. Making him happy at piece at a time.
I did my best.
He was in pain. I could see it very clearly.
There was nothing I could do about it.
Not until he was done.
"Push, Alex. One more. Push." An inarticulate growl leaked from between his clenched teeth. I could hear his joints creaking under the strain. My hands went further down beneath the load he struggled against, steadying but not lifting.
I couldn't help him. His mind and his pride wouldn't allow it, no matter how much it hurt him.
His torso was tight. Solid as a rock under the strain. I could see every single muscle between his waist and his head as they stood out in stark relief. The cords under the skin of his chest flexed once more as he let out a guttural growl and pressed further.
With a metallic clank, the bar set down in the metal rack of the weight bench and Alex relaxed, his arms falling limply to his sides as he panted in relief.
"Jesus, Andrew...." He gasped. "I think you are really trying to kill me." Stepping back around the bench where he lay inclined under the bar, I straddled his wide hips and settled down in his lap. My palms soothed his sweaty chest as I shook my head.
"Far from it, lover." I chuckled. "I am wanting to keep you alive forever. Alive and healthy and in my life and my arms and my bed." He shook his head in mock disbelief and closed his eyes.
Good god, the man was beautiful.
I know everybody didn't see Alex Cable the way I did. Sure, he was a decade older than I was. In my eyes it just made him more beautiful. Alex had lived and learned and seen so many things in his life. The difference in our ages just made him seem wise to me. Experienced.
I'd always dreamed of a wiser older man who would love me. Teach me. Learn from me in turn and lead me into the rest of my life. Someone strong to protect me when I needed it and soft enough to lay my head against in comfort.
Alex was all of those things to me.
One fingertip traced an old scar across his ribs. That one he had gotten while still on foot patrol with the City police force. Thirty five stitches after a scuffle with a junkie holding a knife. I knew it well. Along with the bullet in his shoulder and the wounds in his back and hip and knees.
By god the man had steel in him. And not just the surgically implanted kind, either.
My palm could feel his heart hammering around inside his ribs, slowing gradually as he relaxed from our workout. That big warm heart of his was one of my greatest treasures.
Well, his heart and the other thing I happened to be sitting on at the moment.
Under other circumstances I wouldn't just be sitting still. If nothing else I would be shivering in delight. I looked down at his face, remembering the first time I managed to get him in my... our bed. We ended up in a position much like this with me sitting astride those wide hips of his, that big beautiful prick making me very happy.
Even though I had needed to stretch wide to have him in that position... in several different ways, believe me... I enjoyed the ache which came along with it. Alex was bigger than I am in almost all ways. Taller. Broader. Stouter.
Ahem...
Longer and thicker, too.
I don't begrudge him a single inch of any of it anywhere.
We were both keenly aware of how people looked at us when together out in public. Aside from just the looks afforded a gay couple, that is. Even the other gays look at us funny.
Many people assume Alex is either my father (which he really hates) or else he is having a mid-life crisis with an obviously much younger boyfriend. What they can't or choose not to see is how deeply and completely in love with each other we are.
I know what I look like. I can't help it. I'm a pretty boy. Always have been. I was rewarded by the genetic roulette wheel with a slim muscular body, a pretty face, really good teeth and... if I must say myself... seriously awesome hair. I work out regularly and eat right and take care of myself.
I'm also pretty good at playing dumb when I need to.
But don't judge me by my sexual orientation or my public persona or my looks.
I also have dual Master's degrees in Physical Therapy and Sports Medicine. Along with a Private Detective's License, a concealed carry permit and a locksmiths license from the state board.
Just don't call me "Doctor Jones" all right? Alex is the one who wears the fedora in this relationship.
I patted his chest fondly. My big bear of a lover was coming back around again. Ducking his head to get out from under the bar, he sat up and wrapped me in those brawny arms. Mine went around his neck and I kissed him, promising him anything he wanted with my lips. He'd just finished a pretty grueling workout and deserved a suitable reward.