Note: This story contains themes of mind control, magic, and fantasy. All characters in it are 18+.
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It's amazing the difference a good dildo can make.
Now that Willem could fill his hole anytime he wanted, he was starting to feel a little bit more in control. He was still powerless over the inevitable tidal wave of buzzing that swept over him, slowly clouding his mind until he submitted himself to whichever man the curse saw fit to send him to next. But with the ability to ease the incessant itching in his hole, he at least felt like he was starting to see things more clearly.
Resistance was futile. It always had been. Anytime he had tried to circumvent the curse, it would find a way to punish him. Well, he was through playing hard to get. He was going to meet his fate head-on and fuck his way through the City of Angels.
Because you see, Willem had a secret.
He wasn't an idiot. He was aware of the changes that were happening to his mind along with his body. He knew that the curse was wearing him down, trying to convince him that he was nothing but a bottom.
"Who would ever want to be straight?" said a voice in his head. "A boring life of average, vanilla sex. You're living the dream. You get to fuck real men, get to feel what it's like when a man gifts you with his seed. THAT'S real living."
And so, Willem pretended. He played the part, going through the motions of allowing man after to man to fuck him to completion as he rode the wave of that lustful buzzing. He even let himself enjoy the way it felt, to fully give in to the sensations in the moment as they happened.
Because all the while, in the depths of Willem's mind, he had carved out a small place where nothing could reach him, not even the curse. There he kept his memories of his old life: his first kiss with a girl; the night he lost his virginity to Allison Gordon; the series of hookups he and his friends racked up over their last year of high school, racing to see who could fuck the most girls before college.
This was his hiding spot, the place he would return to after every fuck to check in with himself. Just to make sure he hadn't lost himself. He would run through each of his heterosexual experiences in his mind, pulling them out one by one, running his fingers over them, then placing them delicately back on the shelf.
"I'm straight," he would whisper to himself when he was alone after the top had left. "I will always be straight." Then he would lock the door to his hiding spot, knowing that his true self would be there waiting for him the next time he needed it.
Willem was nothing if not pragmatic. He knew that the only way around the curse was through it, but he was confident that he could protect the precious seeds of himself that still remained. This was all just temporary, nothing more. And, if he were proactive enough, he would hopefully be straight again by the time that college rolled around in the fall.
Willem said nothing about his secret hiding spot, not even to Jake. He and Jake had started hanging out regularly since the day he fucked the cop. Jake was actually a pretty cool guy, plus he was understanding if Willem needed to step away for a few minutes to go fuck the bear who just walked out of the 24-hour fitness.
Since his parents had rescinded their offer to pay for him to attend Caltech, Jake had gotten a job at a coffee shop in Weho, trying to earn enough money to put himself through community college. Willem visited him at work frequently, taking advantage of the free coffee while he trawled for dick.
"How many guys are you up to?" Jake asked as he wiped down the espresso machine.
"32," said Willem. "Wait, no--33. I'm forgetting the sign spinner outside of Liberty Tax."
"Clearly he wasn't anything to write home about."
"Yeah, weird cock. Very curved."
"Have you heard from Josh lately?" asked Jake. "Or Dan, or Adam?"
Willem shook his head. "They can go fuck themselves. Homophobic assholes."
"You were one of those homophobic assholes too, once," said Jake with a raised eyebrow.
"Yeah, well, let's just say I have a better appreciation for what it's like," said Willem. "How are things with your parents?"
Jake shrugged. "Nonexistent. Ever since I moved out of their house and into the new apartment--which is shit, by the way--they haven't reached out to me at all."
Willem frowned. "I'm sorry."
"I'm not," said Jake as he leaned against the counter. "They made things pretty clear. Plus I should be able to have enough saved up to start at LACC in the fall."
Jake turned to greet the customer who had just walked in. Willem recognized him as Jin, a buoyant Korean guy in his early 20s who was a regular of Jake's. He looked around the coffee shop while Jin ordered, keeping his eyes peeled for the signature pink haze that would direct him to his next top.
"How about you? Are you going?"
Willem snapped out of dick-hunting mode to see Jin staring at him expectantly.
"Sorry, going to what?" he asked.
"They're protesting some homophobic douchebag giving a speech in Orange County tomorrow," said Jake as he handed Jin his latte.
"Not just any homophobic douchebag. John Hicks is like Satan incarnate. He's an asshole congressman from bumfuck nowhere who hates the gays, women, and pretty much anyone who isn't White Jesus. Me and my girls are getting a group together tomorrow to protest his speech. You wanna come?"
Willem made a face. "Sounds like a terrible time."
Jin pursed his lips. "If us gays don't fight tooth and nail for our rights, they'll be taken away before you know it."
"I'm not gay," Willem said defensively.
Jin stared at him dumbly. "I literally fucked you last week. In THAT bathroom." He pointed towards the back of the coffee shop.
Jake rolled his eyes. "I'm going to pretend I didn't hear that."
"Huh," said Willem. "I forgot about that one." He turned to Jake. "34."
"Whatever," said Jin. "I gotta get going. Jake, you have my number. Text me if you wanna go. I've got extra glitter for the signs."
Willem raised an eyebrow as he left. "What a drama queen."
Jake frowned, wiping down the counter with a rag. "I don't think he's being dramatic at all. Hicks is a fucking asshole, and he deserves a good protest. I'm gonna go."
"I guess. I just don't see what showing up and making a big fuss is actually going to accomplish."
Jake's eyes blazed with anger. "I know that you don't get it because you're just fucking dudes, and you're not actually gay. But guys like Hicks make life a fucking nightmare for the rest of us. You think my parents don't watch people like him on TV and eat that shit up like it's Gospel?"
Willem stared at him, at a loss for words.
"I'm going to grab something from the back," said Jake, throwing his rag down onto the counter as he walked away.
Willem sipped his coffee, looking guiltily down at the cup. Jake was right, he'd only been fucking guys for a month now and was already seeing how differently people treated you. He couldn't imagine what it would be like to have to deal with this for the rest of your life. Not to mention the fact that, when this summer ended, Willem would be off to UCLA on his parent's dime while Jake would be struggling to pay his way through community college.
Willem pulled out his phone. He searched for John Hicks, pulling up YouTube videos of his speeches. He played one from a speech Hicks had given at a national convention.
"Whatever happened to freedom of speech?" he asked. "Freedom of religion? Last I checked, this was still America, not Iran or North Korea. The Constitution guarantees us those rights, yet if you have the audacity to fight for the family, to promote the biblical institution of marriage as God intended, then suddenly you're labeled a bigot! Well, if that's the case, then I wear the label of bigot proudly."