This is the second part of 'The Edinburgh Festival' story and follows on seamlessly. I have arrived home from work to find a package from FedEx waiting for me.
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I stood on my neighbour's doorstep, clutching the FedEx package. It can only be from Alec, I don't know anyone else in America. I sniffed the package, wondering if I could detect his scent. My neighbour stood staring at me, wondering if I was going to stand there all day. She slammed the door shut, reducing a little of the racket she makes playing her music too loud.
I walked back to my flat, placing the package down on the table. I was almost over my feelings towards Alec. I hadn't heard a word since he left Edinburgh Airport a fortnight ago. His number seemed to be disconnected and he never replied to my emails. I loved that man, I really fell for him and I'm trying to get my life back to normal again. Two weeks when I was hurting, telling myself it was just a holiday fling, not even that, it was a weekend love affair. I could still picture his face and his cute smile. Now, this package has brought back all the memories. I could still remember, quite vividly, the first time we made love, after the massage from the therapists. I could remember exactly how I felt as he took me in his mouth, God, it was so nice, we were perfect together.
I made a cup of coffee, walking around the kitchen and glancing at the package on the table as I poured hot water into my cup. I sat looking at it, for some reason delaying opening it. This will awaken all the memories of that weekend, two weeks ago. Was I ready for that? I had just got over Alec and here he is, coming back into my life again. I picked the package up, shaking it, studying it, wondering what could be inside it. I took a deep breath and opened it.
The package was indeed from Alec. On top was a photograph of the two of us in our glass bubble capsule on the big wheel in Princes Street Gardens. It was the selfie he took at the top of the wheel on our last night together. I had my arm around him. He looked so handsome. We both looked handsome. We looked like a lovestruck young couple. He was smiling. That cute smile I fell in love with. I remembered staring into his smoky eyes when he spoke. I remembered sitting beside him, on the Edinburgh buses, pointing out all the landmarks as we went on our own personal tour of the city. I kissed the picture.
There was a letter, a lovely hand-written letter folded in two. I picked it up, sniffing the scent of the paper. He was apologising for not contacting me, asking my forgiveness and went on to explain that I had left him so confused and mixed up after we parted at Edinburgh Airport. He had fallen for me, completely unexpectedly and I had come into his life at a challenging time for him after his recent divorce and then realising he was, in fact, gay. He hoped I could forgive him. It was wrong not to reply to my emails and he apologised for that. He went on to write that he was not able to get me out of his system. Even after a fortnight, his feelings for me were still very strong and he desperately wanted to see me.
He had enclosed flight tickets, indirectly, to Logan International Airport. They were open tickets and all I needed to do was phone and book myself on flights that best suit me. I would have to travel to Amsterdam from Edinburgh and then connect to the USA flight. Gosh, they were business class tickets too. Business class? I had never traveled business class but I knew it was considerably more comfortable than economy class.
He had also enclosed a Visa card which was loaded with cash for any expenditure I might have on the journey. He had loaded five thousand dollars onto the card. That's more money than I've ever had at one time. Alec, I've missed you so much. You've rekindled all the emotions I had buried away. A trip to Boston, to see Alec, any date that suits me and all expenses paid. I couldn't accept that, it's too much. I can only imagine the cost of business class travel, and the Visa card, it's too much. I never wanted Alec to think I was only interested in his money, because I wasn't. I can't accept this. I'll need to tell him.
There was also a mobile phone with an American sim card in it. It will work as soon as I land in the States, he wrote. I switched it on and a few moments later, it buzzed with a message. It was from Alec. He told me not to be concerned about accepting this. He hoped I would accept his invitation to Boston and that he was longing to see me again. I melted when I heard his recorded voice. I was uncomfortable with the cost of all this. However, I didn't have the money to go to the States myself, I couldn't do it without his help so if I want to see him again, I would have to accept his help. Gosh, a trip to the USA. I've never been there before. How exciting. I held his photograph against my heart.
He had also enclosed a telephone number to call him when I knew when I would be traveling. He would arrange to meet me at the Lincoln International Airport. He had thought of everything, he really had. All I needed to do was arrange the time off work and pack a suitcase. A day or so later and I would be with him. In his arms again. How exciting. Of course I would go. There won't be a problem getting the time off work. I could google the flight times and book a flight. It was as simple as that.
The next morning, at work, I spoke to my boss about taking two weeks off at short notice. I explained that I was meeting a very dear friend and really needed the time off. As expected, there was no problem, I could take any time I liked off work out of my holiday allowance. On my way home from work that night, I stopped off to buy a frame for the photograph Alec had sent. I positioned it at the side of my bed, so I could look at it before going to sleep.
That night I went on the internet, checking times and flights. There was so much to do, or at least it felt like it. In fact, there was very little to do. The tickets have been paid for, all I needed to do was book the flights. It was complicated having to go from Edinburgh to Amsterdam first but that was because there were no direct flights from Edinburgh. Amsterdam to Lincoln was relatively straightforward, just two stops at O'Hare and Denver and a flight time of around seventeen hours. I sipped my whisky as I studied when best to travel. It was Wednesday. I could clear my desk pretty quickly tomorrow, tidy up some loose ends at work on Friday and could leave Edinburgh early Monday morning.