Note to reader...this story contains sneaker fetish themes. It's maybe less slow than the last part (check that out if you haven't!) because things tend to happen fast when people are surprised and nervous.
I stood there staring, frozen in my tracks, for what felt like minutes - even though it was probably just a few seconds. The imposing figure in lacrosse gear stood there outside my door, as though he were in the middle of play, knees slightly bent, and doing that back-and-forth "cradling" thing with his crosse that I'd seen players do often, even though he didn't have a ball in the head. I knew it was an in-game strategy and one of those fidgety things lacrosse players did, but I just thought it was
hot
.
The ostensible candy-seeker was wearing a red helmet, a white-and-red jersey that covered a set of shoulder pads and that had the number 18, elbow pads, gloves, white shorts that came down to a few inches above the knee, white leggings under the shorts that ended above the ankle, and white crew socks peeking up out of mid-high gray shoes. He was looking over his left shoulder and stopped rocking his stick, lowering it and resting the head on the ground. When he turned his head back toward me, he started slightly, and I almost dropped the bowl of candy. Inside the helmet I could barely make out a big grin that had formed, and a gloved hand gave a casual wave as he leaned on the stick with the other one.
"Trick or treat!" he shouted.
Inside I was shaking slightly, and I probably was on the outside also. I opened the storm door slightly.
"You're a bit late, but I still have plenty of candy, so I guess you get it all," I managed.
"That's nice of you, haha!" he laughed. He leaned forward, inspecting the bowl's contents. "Whoa, full-sized Snickers!?"
"I don't have kids of my own yet, so I'm allowed to spoil the crap out of other people's." Definitely shaking now. His voice was beautiful. Kind of a "hey bro" vibe but softer, even gentle.
We both stood there, realizing we were at the end of the playful banter that we could keep up all day online, but that in person only works for so long.
"Um...Troy?" I asked, pathetically. "Come in?...I guess?"
His body language communicated a slight nervousness perhaps. "I kinda thought it would be funny, y'know, Halloween and all...I don't have to, if you're busy or have something going on...."
I opened the door wider. "I'm just handing out candy to... kids." I coughed, trying not to crack a smile or just laugh openly.
"I'm 26 now, heh!" he chuckled, holding the door with a gloved hand and stepping inside. I closed the front door and led him through the foyer into the kitchen beyond, where I turned to face him.
"Old man, then, wow!" I resisted the urge to poke him in the pads.
"OKAY Zad-" he stopped, and blushed so hard I could see it through the face mask. It was so much easier to be brave online. "I mean, um..."
"It's okay," I said, smiling. "We're the same people who've been talking for months. You can make the same jokes." I had the thought that maybe he didn't think I was attractive in person, which was immediately followed by a chastising mental yell of, "
Come on, it's not like this is some kind of date!
"
He seemed to ease up a little, and I heard what sounded like a short, exhaled breath. Sigh of relief?
Stick resting against his thigh, he pulled off both gloves, tossing them on my kitchen island. Nimble, strong fingers found their way up to either side of his helmet. There was a click from each side, and he lifted the helmet up and off. He shook his head back and forth, bringing down the helmet, and his dark, slightly wavy hair, now a little longer in the front and short in the back, tousled itself and settled perfectly toward his right side over his forehead, framing his dark eyes. He bit his lower lip slightly, darted his eyes off to his right, and then looked at me, and grinned.
I nearly lost bladder and bowel function. I certainly stopped breathing. The face that I knew could shine through a helmet grille was now beaming at me full brightness, and my brain had to squint.
"Hi," was all I could manage. I felt like I needed to hold onto something for support. I was glad I was dressed in jeans and a zip-up hoodie, decent public-facing clothes for handing out candy, instead of the usual near-pajamas I typically wore around the house in fall and winter.
"Hi yerself," he replied. He half-grinned, a little asymmetrically. Dark, gentle eyes smiled at me. His fair complexion was radiant and he had a small mole on his right cheek, the kind of thing some people put on using makeup, because there's something irresistible about them. And holy Christ, he was.
"What the hell are you doing here?" I asked. His smile faded slightly and he looked down. "NO! I mean... I'm surprised, but it's not bad, I just...."
"Don't know what to do with me?" the grin returned. Oh, fuck you, was he messing with me?
But his question did jog me into "host mode," and I moved toward him, reaching for his helmet. He handed it to me, and I put it next to his gloves. "Can I get you something to drink?" I offered. I thought about suggesting Kool-Aid, but stopped myself.
"Sure, whattaya got?" He placed his crosse next to his other equipment on the kitchen island, and started to tear open the Velcro closures of his elbow pads, slipping these off as well.
"
What would your mom let you have?
" I didn't say. Instead: "Most things...beer, soda, wine... gin."
He laughed. "Beer sounds great."
"IPA or Belgian?"
"Oooo, Belgian," he said excitedly. Wasn't I attracted to him enough already?
I got out a pair of Chimay Bleue and opened them, retrieving the appropriate glasses from a nearby cabinet as I continued trying to figure out exactly what was happening here. "So,...?" I gestured, indicating he could go ahead now and tell me what the living hell he was doing standing in my kitchen.
"Oh! Sorry. I mean...I always said I'd come visit you. So I figured tonight would be perfect for me to show up in lax gear and pass for a trick-or-treater!" He laughed a bit. "Also I thought it would be hilarious. You should have seen your face!" He was clearly pleased with himself, but in a goofy, genuine way. It was so attractive.
"Yeah, a 6-0, 180 trick-or-treater," I countered, as I poured the beers.
"Oh, just 165 now, I dropped some since I stopped playing and don't need to
body check
dudes anymore." He threw a shoulder in my direction as if to demonstrate. "Oh yeah, and I'm doing a co-op for school and actually working a few miles away from here for the next few months. Hah! when I saw where I got accepted and where they were putting me up, and then looked where your address was...." he shrugged and sipped his Chimay, making an 'ooo that's good' face, looking at it. "I've been in the apartment a couple weeks and didn't tell you, cuz I thought it would be hilarious to just show up." He clearly thought this was all 'no big deal,' so I figured I'd pretend the same, at least outwardly.
I walked toward the living room and motioned for him to follow with my head. We sat on either side of the intersection of my large L-shaped couch, and I bent my legs up in front of me like I was used to doing. Woolen socks kept my feet warm. Troy looked down and then up. "Oh, sorry should I take my shoes off?"
I immediately felt my face turning hot, and shades of red. I'm sure my eyes were wide. Troy just smirked and raised an eyebrow.
"No, you're fine. Really. I have hardwood everywhere so no worries." I looked at the shoes now more closely. He crossed his ankle over the other knee and flexed his foot - gray New Balance Freeze lacrosse turf shoes. Undoubtedly size 12. I wanted to touch one immediately but restrained myself.
"I'd have gone with cleats to complete the look," he said, "but it's a bitch walking on pavement." He looked around, craning his neck. "But where are they? I could always put em on!" He laughed.
I let that one pass for now. It was either that or throw myself at him. What was he doing in my living room anyhow?
"So...can I ask what... why are we?.... I don't get many stalkers around here," I fumbled, gesturing wildly, grasping at mental straws.
His turn to blush. He looked down at his beer and didn't seem to know what to say for a moment, then: "I guess it is kinda crazy. But is it weird to say...it doesn't feel weird...to me?"
"I didn't mean to imply it's weird...but well... it kind of
is
..." I was trying to figure it out in my own mind while I showed my work verbally, "...or at least that's what people would generally think if they knew how we met and that we're hanging out right now."
Troy considered this with a pensive frown and a sideways glance, bobbing his head in understanding, and said, "I think you're really handsome and I've always felt...safe...talking to you." His voice was quieter and the blushing wasn't stopping. "And I'm really close by now. And friends my age kinda piss me off, but you...."
As his voice trailed off he looked up at me, and shrugged.
I finally popped the question. "Troy, um...did you come here with something in mind?"
"Yeah, I wanted to meet this guy I like," he said with almost no hesitation.
I was floored. It wasn't so much what he said that struck me, as it was the quickness with which he came out with it. He was someone who had thought about things, including his motivations, and knew himself in a way that perhaps many guys his age - or hell, of any age - didn't.