I'd always heard about guys who could suck their own penises. Depending on where you grew up, you usually heard one of two views about them - that they were either freaks of nature (positive), or they were perverted (negative).
As with so many things homophobic, lots of guys think, "Why would I want to suck that? Especially when I can get a chick to do that for me? Or suck a chick's hard nipples?" I'm not sure I have an answer for that.
There is a certain amount of perversity that it takes to want to suck your own dick. You have to have a kind of dark curiosity, you have to want to do something to swim against the cultural stream. Obviously, you also have to like your dick to begin with. If you're gay, there's the notion of sucking another guy's dick being way better, and a lot of guys love giving blow jobs.
I can recall seeing long, thick penises in locker rooms - dangling, flabby, often pink, often fairly long, and, rogue guy that I am, wondered what it would be like to suck them, or to be one of the guys sporting one and then suck my own. I've seen guys packing seven, eight, nine inches with girth as big as bananas. Talk about a mouthful.
The thing about self sucking, though, is that for many guys, there always seems to be a natural limitation to it - some kind of logistical challenge. The distance between your open mouth and your penis is one thing - a "tie" distance isn't quite good enough - that just lets you lick the tip, not much else. One needs to be able to perhaps suck maybe a half-inch to an inch at the least in order to get the tip in the mouth between the lips.
And then there's flexibility. If you're gifted with a back that can curl up oh-so easily, so you can put your crotch in your own face, you are golden. It may take some posturing physically to get your crotch all the way up to your mouth, but as long as that back is limber, you've got it made. On smut video clips, I've seen some guys lean over and lick and suck their erect dicks, almost effortlessly, drawing their cocks into their hungry mouths. On others they'll lie on their backs, hoist their legs in the air in a big "V", and allow their penises to dangle tantalizingly above their faces.
Guys who do this second approach, if they can't touch their penis with their mouths or tongue have a pretty hot alternative - they can masturbate over their mouth and faces. That's really hot, too - you have this head-on view of the top of your dick, with the slit poised to blast, and you jerk it and work it. Then you see precum start to emerge as you slowly speed up your stroke, stiffening your leg and thigh muscles to get the semen into position.
And then...you go over the falls and your balls squeeze hard enough, and you see blasts of cum erupt from the tip, hitting your face, your nose, going in your open mouth with your tongue out. If you wear glasses, the lenses become puddled with thick, gray-white goo, blurring the vision. If you don't wear glasses, you instinctively wince, unsure of what cum in your eye feels like. And you keep blasting until jet after jet falls off in the amount of slippery fluid.
That's a pretty damn good second prize. But I've always wanted the gold, the real thing. And I've tried, over time, to get the tip of my shaft in my mouth.
The very first time I tried it, I tried it sitting up. I wasn't all that tall and figured it wouldn't be a big deal. I was a little surprised at how challenging it was. Maybe I didn't put everything I had into it because I heard all the negative things muttered about being gay and gay sex and dick sucking and all. So I had a bit of a homophobic thing going, but I still longed to do it.
Another time I tried it years later, I was a senior in college. I'd jerked off plenty, but now I'd been around other guys and seen their cocks and was feeling more like a maverick. I had my own off-campus apartment, too, so there wasn't anyone around to make me feel self-conscious.
I bet most guys have tried it the way I did. I got down on the floor and positioned my lower back against the bed, to support my legs in the upright position over my upper body. I was super horny this one night, too. I think I'd gone running that day or something because my testosterone must have been higher than usual.
Carefully, carefully, I put my legs over my head, watching my penis - longer now than in years past - dangle over my face. My eyes were laser-focused on it, as I was lusting after myself. I wanted my own penis and the nice, eight-inch shaft it had swelled to, with a full, fat crown waiting to be drawn between my lips, to sit on my awaiting, salivating tongue.
I found myself drawing my breath in, so as to allow my back to curl more, and to bring my cock ever closer to my lips and face. It got to about three inches and I could sense the heat coming off my shaft and that drove me wilder than ever.
I pushed my lower back with my hands as I continued to lean against the bed. It was not comfortable, being in this weird upright position. But it was hot. I pushed a little more until...
